Apoteket Hjärtat cream deodorant. I was quite thrilled when I found this. Cruelty free, budget friendly, available at my local drugstore. But, as it turns out, it’s not great. I don’t sweat much so it’s fine, but I do think there are better cream deodorants.
EOS Hand Lotion. Packaging is fun, the sent is nice, if you like cucumber which I do, it’s not greasy, but doesn’t keep my hands moisturized. I need heavier stuff.
Vaseline Aloe Vera. Oh how I loved this. And then I went cruelty free and this is no longer an option. Shame, truly.
Boots Tea Tree & Witch Hazel Charcoal Face Mask. Yes! My second tube of this truly useless mask is finally empty! Will never buy again.
Urban Decay Eyeshadow Primer Potion. Honestly, I don’t know why everyone loves this. It’s 0% better than my usual and cheaper Lumene primer. It might even be not as good in fact. I’m just not impressed. I see no reason to repurchase. Also, hate the applicator.
IsaDora Twist Up Gloss in Biscuit. I’ve already told you I do like this gloss, but rather than repurchasing I opted for the cheaper and similar Wet n Wild balm in Caffein Fix.
Dermalogica Age Reversal Eye Complex. It’s not bad, doesn’t sting my eyes, hydrates sufficiently, but not at all sure that it’s better than No7 Protect & Perfect Intense Advanced Eye Cream which is way cheaper. So for now, I’ve gone back to No7.
My favorite Primark bag broke. It had just been promoted regular gym bag. Boo. Whatever bag shall I use now?
I was served lots of great vegan food. We had some sort of work conference/lecture + workshop about stress, performance and recovery. It was, surprisingly, really good. The lecturer talked all about the hormones, what happens to the body when you’re stressed, how you should trust your body and not start chugging down lots of water because that’s supposedly healthy—your body will tell you when you need water, it’s called thirst, that yoga and meditation really isn’t necessary—folding the laundry could be just the thing to give you that mental recovery you need. As I was saying, it was really good.
The venue served some v. decent vegan food, despite not being specialized on vegans at all.
My foundation started behaving in a really weird way. I’d just started using the Urban Decay Naked Skin Foundation, I was quite pleased. It played really well with the Urban Decay Self-Adjusting Complexion Primer, which was just a disaster combined with my previous foundation; it just seemed to enhance the appearance of pores, and who needs that? With the Naked Skin though, while the primer is still not a perfect match for me, it’s zero percent bad. Also, the shade of the foundation was a good match for me, and I’m loving the medium coverage. I can even apply it with a damp sponge, contrary to popular belief. What more could you ask of a foundation?
But then on Tuesday it suddenly started looking beyond patchy. So terrible wearing no foundation was a better option.
Turns out, it doesn’t work with the serum from Codage at all. That’s the downside of indulging in skincare, if something is wrong you can’t for sure say which of all the products are not agreeing. Could be any number, any combination, or the type of application, even using too much or too little of something.
What was good in all this, was that in the process of trouble-shooting I realized that introducing a weekly hydrating mask into my routine is necessary. This is still something I struggle with; because I’m combination on the oily side, adding hydration strikes me as counterintuitive. Even if I know we all need some extra hydration this time of year, still think it can’t possibly apply to me. (Because I’m special, apparently.)
Got myself a mask from No7 without doing any research first. We’ll see how that works out.
Friday workout was cancelled second week in a row. Got to go home early. And had a valid excuse to not go to the gym. Should be happy.
I was not happy.
I was very unhappy.
Funny thing: I used to hate the Friday workout class. But exactly two weeks ago I noted that it had suddenly gone from detestable to my favorite class of the week. Should not have as much as thought it. Jinxed it for sure.
Best read all year! Would marry this book. Basically, it’s a story illustrating feminism in practice. Need I say more?
Second best reads:
Hunger by Roxane Gay. What’s funny/scary about this book is that even if you’re half the size of Roxane Gay, or smaller, you can still identify. Hela Kakan by Kakan Hermansson. Oh you know, feminism and that. I kroppen min by Kristian Gidlund. First person account of what it’s like to know you’re dying. Vad ska en flicka göra? by Annika Lantz. A funny take on cancer. Raven rings by Siri Pettersen. Especially book 2 where they quote NIN. I loved that book. That Changes Everything by Naomi Klein. People don’t change, not really, but this book got me thinking and reviewing some of the things I do. Fördömd by Johanne Hildebrandt. It’s like..if Indiana Jones was a woman and lived in present day Sweden. Kinda. Mr Darcy’s Diary by Amanda Grange. Pride & Prejudice from Mr Darcy’s point of view. På A svarar jag hejdå by Nina Hemmingsson. THIS:
Speaking of reading: got myself a Storytel subscription, which is what has kept me “reading” this year. If it wasn’t for audio books, I would have read pretty much nothing.
Under huden med Kakan Hermansson. Feminism + beauty, an unholy unity, according to certain feminists. And they’re not exactly wrong.
Penntricket. More feminism! Hoping for another season in the year to come. Although it is unlikely they’ll top the fourth episode about hating men. Maybe they did the right thing calling it quits?
PMS-podden! Sure, I only just started listening to it, but it is hours and hours all about PMS. Pretty much my main interest in life.
Puma ignite trainers. Best trainers I’ve had in a while. Will repurchase!
Jeans. To be clear: black and only black. (The horror that anyone would think I’d run around in blue jeans.) I’ve abandoned my dresses and skirts for jeans; did not see that one coming.
Now. If I had any sort of blogging skills, I would have prepped pics before Sweden entered into the darkness-24-hours-a-day period. This is me trying to get a shot of my newest pair, a pair of skinny high waists at noon in front of a window:
[Oh come on, there was never any point to these pics.]
Not that it helps that all my walls are dark. And the jeans are black. But still. Love these jeans, perfect length and oddly a high waist that works for me. Unheard of! I’ve thus far hated all high waisted jeans.
Not that it matters. I think we all know what black jeans look like. Absolutely love pairing them with this striped top too.
A favorite outfit; long green top, black leggings, platform sling-backs, frilly choker.
Green top with red hair, love this combo! Also works real well with the purple hair.
No7 pore minimizing primer. The more other primers I try out, the more I like the No7 pore minimizing primer. Does its job, is budget friendly, what’s not to love?
Wearing no brows.
Waiting for y’all to catch up. (KIDDING. Apparently it’s me and Manson; even Sarah Hawkinson abandoned us. Oh no wait, and Jenny Mustard. OK so maybe there’s a few of us…) I need to dig out that yellow, and those metallics. I wonder what shade that is. Is it..blue..?
Body Shop Camomile Cleansing Butter.
Made me quit face wipes! This stuff is not only better for the environment, but a more efficient product that is kinder to the skin.
Pixi’s Glow Mud Cleanser + Mud Mask.
The cleanser is my AM cleanser, the one I use when I don’t wear makeup. It’s kinda like washing your face with a clay mask, which might be obvious and probably seems strange but oh, I for one love this. I am abandoning my regular foaming cleansers for clay.
As for the mask, I wanted to love other mud masks, but I kept dreaming about the Glow Mud Mask. So ja…
Makeup Revolution New-trals vs neutrals.
The only palette I need! Up until now, I’ve been in a habit of adding at least one single shadow, or a quad, to whatever palette I think I can make do with. No longer the case! Not that I don’t love my other shades, I do, but this is all I need.
B. bronzer + Urban Decay Naked Skin concealer (+ Superdrug hair therapy oil with argan)
Who thought I’d add bronzer to my makeup routine at this point in life? Not me, to be sure? And the concealer, it is, unfortunately, v. v. good.
No powder. Because I’m old and my skin suddenly decided it doesn’t like it. At all. Funny thing: doesn’t seem to be any shinier than usual. Or maybe I’m learning to love my natural dewiness. Here’s hoping!
Superdrug argan oil. Best hair oil I’ve tried so far. 100% in love!
Manic panic purple haze + vampire red. Makes for the perfect purple hair color. For me. But I’ll probably stick with the brown + red combo for a bit longer. Not that the straight purple was bad at all.
Me: Looks v. v. different! Camera: …except for it doesn’t tho.
Maria Nila hair spray. I’ve struggled with hair sprays. They’re never quite right. This one tho! Nice smell, good hold, does not seem to causing any hair damage, it’s a keeper!
Soft water. Even better for the hair than cold rinse. I count myself lucky to have access to stoft water, even if it’s not in my home.
Finally figured out how to make waves using the flat iron. Was v. pleased with this wee wave!
Single-handedly makes all other bands on Twitter look really bad. Or at least severely boring. This is a universal truth, right? It has nothing to do with my love of sarcasm?
YouTubers I’ve been watching religiously
Kiera Rose. Bit of vegan, bit of beauty, do you need more reasons? Sarah Hawkinson. Could watch only because she has the best red hair ever. And I like her taste in music. And she’s one of those people who cares, about a lot of things, which I guess I admire. Jamie Genevieve. If I’m being honest, mostly watching for the Scottish and sneak peeks of Glasgow, but she is wicked good at makeup. Difficult makeup. The kind that I’m just never going to do. Holly Exley. You should know I love Holly by now. Tashina Combs/Logical Harmony. Mainly watching because her site logicalharmony.net is one of my go-to resources for finding out if a brand is cruelty free or not. So ja, that’s what she does, cruelty-free beauty. Rhian Hy. Vegan cruelty-free beauty. Mostly. Cheap Lazy Vegan. Tips on being a cheap lazy vegan! Qcknd. Got sucked in by her moving vlogs. Made me feel fortunate to have been born in Sweden. Aaaand…she’s had a lengthy rant about the Cure and dyes her hair in fun colors. Thataylaa. She knows the makeup. No 1 authority when it comes to foundations I would say. Lily Melrose. These days, she mostly does fashion-related content, and some vlogs. I’m not super interested in fashion, but it’s one of those channels Leila. You should be seeing a theme here. I like the YouTubers with a conscious. Hannah Witton. Talks a lot about hormones, thus the basis of her appeal. Helen Anders. This lady, super creative, I am so impressed, and I’m not easily impressed. Also absolutely love her quirky style.
Yes. And those aren’t the only ones I watch. Explains why I’m not exactly missing subscribing to any video streaming services.
Non-YouTube moving picture bits
One more time with feeling. Might be the best music documentary ever. Because of the pace. Because it includes the music off of Skeleton Tree.
Girls. Favorite episode might still be the Matthew Rhys episode. Might be.
Vikings. I’m still disappointed that they’re not incorporating the stories Johanna Hildebrandt tell in her books, which are set in the same era, but I take what I can get.
The Mindy Project. It’s..funny?
Regin. Still upset they killed off Francis and kept Sebastian. But I do love this series.
Handmaid’s Tale. Oh it was lovely, regardless of how closely it follows the book, so well done.
What the Health. It is vegan propaganda; I like vegan propaganda, I need vegan propaganda, as do you. Just FYI.
GB vegan ice cream. Best vegan ice cream yet! Bar mebbe the sorbets at Terre à Terre.
Cool oats. I’m a big fan of the cold porridge; started out as a practical solution, turned into something I do always when having porridge.
On to my favorite categories! The categories literally no one cares about; the only end of the year lists I’m interested in and will search for on purpose: the music categories.
I mean really, I take this seriously. This is a page from my planner:
Notes on what albums were released this year and which I’ve listened to at least once.
Also, still waiting for Robyn to release that track on Girls, Honey. What is taking so long??
Like last year, I have three clear favorites:
All these countless nights by Deaf Havana. I’ve no words. I just love this record. I don’t understand how it hasn’t made Deaf Havana HUGE (..although I do appreciate that that is not the case, on a personal level), is it poor marketing??
Waiting for morning to come by Being as an Ocean. Did not expect this release to match my taste so perfectly. There is something about it that reminds me of what I used to like/listen to in the 90s, but with a touch of what I like in today’s music (let’s just call it post-hardcore). Requires absolutely no effort for me to love. I’m going to go ahead and call it underrated.
Under Your Spell by the Birthday Massacre. Did not see this one coming. I know of and listen to Birthday Massacre, but mostly random songs at random times. I’ve been listening to this album on repeat.
Note to self: just fucking stand up front. Never mind the fact that I’m too old; I’m sure no one can tell in the dark anyway.
Bullet Journal. Still doing it. Slightly less passionate about it, but I don’t seem interested in giving it up.
Regular periods. On the one hand, means I can add less hormones to the ones I’ve already got wrecking havoc in my body, and that is a good thing, on the other, come on, do we have to bleed this often, really? Aren’t we too old?
Decluttered my CDs. Not a minute too soon.
Skincare obsession. A result of my usual makeup no longer sitting well on my skin. It’s my most expensive hobby yet, which is unfortunate.
…this was a while ago now. It’s expanded and become unmanageable in the space I have available. Good thing the bathroom in my new place is bigger. Just need to be patient…and stop buying stuff.
Learned how to turn off retweets. Which still means I can’t follow Roxane Gay because when she tweets she just dominates my entire feed which is a problem. Might I suggest a different medium? Blog? I’d follow!
Body pump. May it be forever this time. Or at least lifting weights. Or at least until I move because bit more strength, it would come in handy when moving (yes HI I’m super practical).
Brighton in November.
Looking forward to in 2018
MOVING. Which means I also have to sell my current place which makes me sad and nervous. Am looking forward to downsizing tho! (..in theory..?)
Following the move, I can start dying my hair again.
Seeing my cycle analysis in Clue. Yes! I am overly interested in all things menstruation! It’s what happens when you start noticing just how controlled you are by your hormones. I’m trying to work out a way to work with my hormones rather than against them, which thus far has not been the case.
Hibernate? I just want to settle into my new place and enjoy being able to go to the gym at all times and wash my hair at home.
…I mean I’d like to go to Scotland. And I’d like to see NIN. But I’d also like not being broke, which is the inevitable result of moving.
Tricked into adding these things to my cart by emails informing me it’s 20% off all weekend (yea..I kinda already ordered this stuff), but also, that thing I mentioned the other day, about there being perfluorooctanesulfonic acid in some makeup, I have used it as an excuse to splurge on the Urban Decay Naked Skin foundation.
Both of my two current favorite foundations from Lumene, foundations I had not plans what so ever to ever abandon, yeah that stuff is in them. I just can’t keep putting something on my face that I know is toxic. Just can’t.
Added a foundation brush to my cart just in case the Urban Decay foundation doesn’t apply well with a sponge.
And. I’m in a tinted lip gloss kinda mood, and I wanted another shade (in my defense, I only have one other tinted lip gloss), and that damn mud mask from Pixi, it just makes me very interested in trying all Pixi products because it’s sooo good.
Three down, one to go!
I need black knits of reasonable length. I.e. not reaching knees, that can be worn with jeans, as opposed to leggings.
Still debating if I’m getting them or not. I might go to a physical shop. I might want to feel the material before buying.
I’ve settled into a makeup routine and can’t be bothered to try much in the way of new. It goes something like this:
No7 airbrush away pore minimising primer. Smells a bit weird, but def pore minimising!
NYX dark circle concealer. I’ve got a No7 under-eye product as well which is way better. Probably because it targets my specific age group. Just trying to use the NYX one up. It’s alright.
Urban Decay eyeshadow primer potion for old people. It’s. It’s too good. If I leave it to set, which I like to do, it makes blending really difficult. I’ll go for a cheaper one next time.
Lumene matte control oil-free foundation. I can stand for a lot of shit as long as it’s the right shade. Lumene is always a good fit for me in terms of shade. Not that this is shit. But it’s not great. Considering it’s matte control oil-free, I’d expect it to not have melting issues, which it does. I seem to remember liking their blur foundation better?
GOSH prime n’ set powder. This stuff is brilliant! A keeper for sure. The only thing keeping me from throwing the Lumene foundation out the window.
NYX setting spray. I use this to keep cheek product in place. It does that just fine.
NYX high definition blush Taupe + Coraline. Taupe under the cheekbone, Coraline on the apple. Taupe is the best shade blush ever. I’d forsake all of my other blushes for it, hands down.
Makeup Revolution highlighter from the Chocolate Vice palette. I used to think it was wicked. It either wasn’t or something’s happened to it. Not that it matters, I’ve got the Sleek Solstice palette, only highlighter you need in your life.
I’ve finally settled on eyebrows; they’re just not for me. I was going back and forth, sometimes drawing them on, sometimes not. Last time, I just hated the brows so much I wiped them off before the end of the day. Despite not having any base products to repair the damage of wiping them off (I was at work). I’m not saying stop doing your eyebrows, it’s just I feel more like myself without. That’s all.
I’ve even cut my brows to make them appear more sparse.
Eyeshadow though! One simply cannot wear too much eyeshadow.
My goal is always to look even more hollow of eye. One of the many perks of growing old; it just becomes easier!
I start by creating a barely visible halo around the edge of the main eyeshadow, often using one of the orange shades in the NYX palette ColorRiot.
I love pairing the orange with green. I recently bought a trio of green shadows from H&M, their high impact shadows;they were on sale for 10 SEK/piece, irresistable price! Especially since these are without a doubt some of my favorite shadows; the color payoff does not disappoint.
I use Stayin’ Olive all over the lid, add Everglades to the outer corners and finish off by contouring the eye with some Mesmerize Me, which is so dark green it’s practically black.
With this combination, if you don’t blend properly, you end up looking like a dirty child.
I’m not going to lie. It happens.
Inner corners: an ancient mono shadow from Makeup Revolution called BASE! Another favorite. May it last forever.
And then just finish off the eyes with some mascara, Natural Collection waterproof on top of a NYX lash primer.
Opened a fresh tube of my regular H&M mascara a couple of weeks ago, it promptly proceeded to make my eyes weep and weep and weep sooooo..in desperate need of a new cruelty-free mascara for sensitive eyes. Wish me luck!
As for eyeliner. I should wear just a wee bit. I really should. It’s just if I start putting it on I’ll never stop. So never mind that.
NYX Lingerie in Corset. Not that I don’t like my bold lips anymore. It’s just…I can’t be bothered to take my makeup off when I go to the gym (work ⇒ straight to gym), and I’m OK with wearing makeup to the gym, but a bold lip would just feel all sorts of wrong.
Generally leaves me looking something like this:
All and all. No improvement in this area of my life. The list is not getting any shorter.