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I have a lot of questions #4

Can I has another cup of tea!??!?

Why is quinoa advertised as a great source of protein? Far as I can tell it’s the exact same protein content as pasta. Not the right quinoa? I’m confused.

How do everyone else listen to music? Everyone else: This is my favorite band! They played this great track when I went to see them live, never heard before! …but the track is from 2011 and v. v. popular + it’s your favorite band? (According to Spotify, and why would Spotify lie?) I don’t understand. How is this your favorite band??

Where can I find a cruelty-free toothpaste that doesn’t turn my lips into dry flakes? I’m at my wits’ end. I’ve tried just about all brands I can get my hands on (not counting the ones that were not bad that I got in the UK; for obvious reasons I can’t keep buying toothpaste in the UK).

…when can I go back to Scotland? Yeah. That Scotland vlog I just watched was a mistake. I need to save my monies, not go to Scotland. I have no business being in Scotland.

Is there a barley shortage? I never find barley in the story anymore. Not happy about it, because it is a favorite.

Why is there no tracking rage function on Clue? I want to track irrational rage! I have lots of it. Also rational rage, but this irrational rage. It’s getting old being furious because your headphones are in a tangle, or it’s raining, or can’t get jacket off quickly enough because HOT. For example. Also would like to track not cravings, but rather when you want to eat ALL THE THINGS ALL THE TIME.

What is Linkin Park even doing? What do they want and where do they come from? The new album. So many questions. Also: would their sound improve if someone introduced them to saaaayy..the latest Architects record? I’d like to think so. But you know, who knows?!??

Whyy is Nick Cave playing the Globe? Why?? I’ve finally come around and do want to go. But this Globe thing, it’s a problem. I don’t like it.

Is Glasvegas ever going to release a new record? (Did I ask this qustion before? Still wondering tho!)

Is it just me, or is the latest Korn record actually really good? Yea, yea, I know it was released last year. It’s not as if I actively follow Korn. I mean it’s not Tura Satana, but you know, as close as it gets.

Is there anything a person could do to make Thrice play Sweden? Anything??

OK then.

I think I’ve managed to illustrate the point my sister was making on Wednesday, that really, I’m the main character of High Fidelity. I don’t have many thoughts that are not related to listening to music.

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Treat yourself Tuesday

I accidentally had a treat yourself Tuesday yesterday. In no way planned.

I started by accidentally getting to work ridiculously early. This wasn’t the treat. The treat was, because I was so early, I could leave early. Which was good, because I needed groceries anyway, and get sis a present or two.

First stop, was in no way H&M, but somehow it just always pulls you in. Or me at least. I’ve been wanting a wire basket to store my palettes in, finally found a good-sized one:

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Admittedly not all of my palettes, but all of my most frequently used ones.

First stop was actually the tea shop, but I’m not going to show you bags of tea. But I will tell you what flavors I got: one black citrus chai tea, and one green peach flavored. I ♥ Kahls. Their tea selection is unrivalled.

I also visited the alcohol shop, a.k.a. Systembolaget. Got myself one small bottle of one of my fave rosé wines, Santa Ana, and it’s organic too!

If you’ve been here before, you might recognize Crudo, another fave, white wine obvs. and also organic. Will try to save for sis’s birthday becauseee…she hasn’t tried it and it’s great. (Yes, wine reviewer, it’s so in my future.)

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My current kryptonite tho, is Lagerhaus. They’ve got so many lovely little things. This is me showing serious restraint:

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I love their shower cream, soap and cleaning products. Because look at the simplicity of the packaging! That, and they smell lovely.

I also got two prints: one moon phases, and one misty forest. I cannot get enough of misty forest! It’s basically what I spend all of my trips between work and home staring at, but apparently that’s not enough. I think I’m saving them for when I move tho.

Some useful bits: straws, glass food container (I’m trying to phase out my plastic food containers, apparently one at a time?), hand gel that’s supposed to smell like coconut but I can’t really say it does, in other words, the hunt to find a hand gel to replace Carex moisture plus continues, and finally, I got this clipboard thing that’s supposed to work as a frame.

Followed this up with a nice dinner while watching Leila’s latest vlog. I had an avocado + edamame seasoned with this lovely spice mix called sesame wasabi and flake salt, one red pepper, the type that is called snack pepper in Swedish, it has a longish shape and is just a little tastier than the regular type, plus, two slices of Finn crisp and a glass of that rosé. Thought I had a picture, but as I found out when there was just a few edamame left, I didn’t. JFC. It was very instagrammable! The greens, red and blush. Yes well.

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Sis bought me two Anton Corbijn prints recently, this is one of them. So that was why I was getting the clipboard thing. I adore Anton’s work, almost as much as I adore Mackintosh.

Oh who am I kidding, I adore them both the exact same amount. (Where am I even going with this??)

I did also get some bits for sis, but I’m keeping it secret for now.

Final words: successful outing even if I do feel somewhat guilty about the amount of money spent. I’m trying to not be so wasteful and I’ve been doing so well. Until now.

Yes well. Long as it’s not a habit, it’s fine, right?

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24 hours of vegan eats

Friday evening. Got home from the worst workout I’ve been to quite possibly ever. Accidentally ended up in a new workout class called Flowride (please let it be temporary). It’s supposed to be a “seamless workout”; in terms of movement and music, it should just flow. With that in mind. Naturally, my gym feels the person for this job was the instructor with no sense of rhythm. I don’t know what to say. Except for, the music stopped after each track and that was the least of the problems that class had.

This is as much cooking I can be bothered with on a Friday evening after a terrible workout:

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Recently realized I’m nowhere near mastering a regular tomato sauce, so I got this ready made sauce and it was good. Mixed in a lot of frozen spinach and had it with pasta and carrot + ginger balls that you just pop in the oven for 10 minutes, as much heat as your oven can muster.

Still upset about the workout, but the meal was not bad at all.

Saturday morning. Protein pancakes have quickly become my go-to weekend breakfast. And why wouldn’t it be? Pancakes, lots of raspberries, what more do you need??

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Did have a discussion with myself about the amount of pancake. It went like this:

Me: You’re going to eat all those pancakes?
Also me: Yeeessss…?
Me: That’s A LOT of pancakes.
Also me: If you’re insinuating I’ll get fat THINK AGAIN. I thoroughly enjoying my current energy levels THANK YOU VERY MUCH; I have no interest in starving. Now shut up, I’m having pancakes. ALL.

Since we’re on the subject of food. Tiny grocery haul from Saturday morning:

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soy milk, oranges, bananas, almond butter, hummus, peas, bean sprouts, dried figs, tofu

Quick snack to fuel up for a few minutes of jumping rope while I was doing laundry. That is how disappointed I was with the Friday workout class. I need to feel what Timbuktu sings (raps?) about in Springcollapsed lung! Obsessed with this feeling. I’ll stop when it hurts, not sooner.

Cup of herbal tea – have we talked about the Pukka herbals? D i v i n e. Only herbals I’ll have. Two slices of toasted rye with some Tartex and cucumber.

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Got my sweat on and did my laundry, cleaned the flat, followed by…

Saturday lunch. Whipped up a stir fry with some brown rice for lunch. Goal: as many colors as possible. So I had a red pepper, purple cabbage, carrots, bean sprouts, peas and a fake meat in there. Some garlic and mango chutney to spice it up. You just cannot go wrong with a stir fry.

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Early dinner Saturday: haricots vert, roasted potatoes and chickpeas. Slightly obsessed with my mustard roasted potatoes, yes. And if you like me struggle with the haricots vert here’s a tip: just fry them for a bit on high heat with some garlic and salt, take them off the heat while they’re still crunchy and they’re not at all bad.

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And for dessert: a frozen banana mixed with almond butter. Maybe even some cinnamon??!!

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And I want; Currently on my wishlist

Knits from Monki!

I’m already freezing. The other day I was so cold not even a knit + jeans was enough; I needed a knit that covered more ground. So I went with an outfit I hated (jeans + long sweater), but I wasn’t cold!

Clearly, I need more knits; Monki is the unrivalled master of the big chunky knit.

Parka with a fuzzy inside. Because in terms of warmth I find they do the best job. And my current coat selection is just not cutting it. Did I mention I’m cold? And it’s nowhere near as cold as it’s going to get yet.

I’ll probably get this one from Zalando:

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A vegan snackbox. What’s holding me back: kinda afraid I’ll just munch it down in one go. That would be just like me. But maybe this one from veganboxen.se?

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A good foundation. Just opened my No7 radiance foundation and it was a let-down. I’ll just mix my old foundation with this one, I’m sure it’ll work.

Dark purple matte eyeshadow. Maybe the shade Curfew from Makeup Geek?

I want to go back to the gym. I’m bored with not going to the gym. I think I’m going to visit my parents this weekend. Whether they like it or not. (They live closer to the gym. And Monki. And the tea shop.)

Tea! I’m running dangerously low on tea. I need some Needwood, blueberry + cream, citrus chai, black Christmas blend, and grönt och skönt. That should be enough for a while.

A car. Or an apartment? Maybe both?? Sudden case of massively fed up with getting up at an ungodly hour, standing out in the cold waiting for the bus, walking walking walking, out in the cold and the dark, trying to not slip on the ice, and to top it off not having the time nor the energy required to go to the gym. I miss the gym.

This is what I’d have to do to make going to the gym work: pack all of my gym clothes and bring them to work, walk to the gym (about 15 minutes, not bad), but then the getting back home is tricker. Do I shower at the gym and make it home just in time to go to bed? When and where do I fit in dinner? Or do I not shower? Regardless of which, it’s a 30 minute walk to the bus. There’s two buses per hour to take me back home. It’s. Just. Not. Practical.

xo,

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I ❤ Glasgow 

Because I can buy bits like

Nakd bars from Holland & Barrett’s for cheap + decent chai from random supermarket; you have no idea how I’ve been looking for a decent chai all over Sweden – impossible. This Tesco one tho; does the job perfectly. Nothing fancy, everyday chai ♥♥♥.

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…I’m going to have start ordering the Nakd bars from online. It’s so perfect for traveling, and let’s face it, this could replace other types sweets easy peasy.

Makeup + beauty from Superdrug and Boots.

I’m obsessed with Superdrug’s cleansing wipes for combination skin, which is a problem. I need to find good wipes I can get from somewhere in this country.

The Boots’ tea tree & witch hazel facial wash is a new find; they were all out of Superdrug’s facial wash for combination skin, again, but this facial wash! It’s better still. My skin tends to be a bit uneven, and I’ve come to accept it as a fact. But this facial wash, I swear it evens out my skin. And the Soap & Glory shower gel; ach, I just wish I hadn’t packed so much I could have gotten a normal-sized bottle. It brags you don’t need lotion afterwards and I truly believe it.

Also got a new GOSH primer because my current one (No7) is a bit meh; my foundation brush finally broke down so I’m trying out the Real Techniques sponge, so far loving it, and if the Beautyblender is better still than this one, I get why people are so obsessed with it; new No7 foundation, a radiance one this time because I heard such good things about it. With any luck it’ll manage to make me look just a little bit sicker still.

Cute things from Primark; PJs, pink knit, metallic chokers, MTV sweatshirt, and of course, big, chunky, pink knit + fuzzy socks.

 

That’s appropriate night time wear for a 35-year-old I dare say. Should also be noted: bought the pink knit in the biggest size I could find, i.e. about 4-5 sizes bigger than what I usually wear, this doesn’t mean it’s long enough to be worn as a dress, as I discovered on the bus to work…

Trashy hoodie + lots of earrings from Top Shop.

I am in love with this trashy trend, did the same trick as with the pink knit. Sis says it’s also too short to be worn as a dress. I’m disagreeing, wore it as dress to the BMTH gig, maybe I will again? As in, I’m seeing them again on Saturday. Stockholm this time.

Also love that dark metal color the majority of the studs are in. Top Shop seems to be under the impression it’s dark gold. Okeeyy.. in my mind they’re a bit too much on the red side to be described as gold, but w/e.

More Mackintosh souvenirs.

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Ah yes, museum gift shops in Glasgow, they just draw me in.

Backpack from Urban Outfitters.

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Because the carry on I brought was just so tiny, I literally had to get a new bag to get all my things home (this here, just a sample, there was more stuff). But also, I needed a bigger backpack in my life, so quite pleased with this purchase.

Note to self: go on shopping diet.

xo,

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October blog challenge 2016 part 1 of 5

Lise is doing this challenge, which seemed like fun so I thought I’d join.

While I have no concerns what so ever about spamming your feed (Hello, Captain Obvious here, how can I help you?), since October is already well on its way and since I’ve got posts planned for..well most days to be honest, it’s going to be a weekly affair.

Today we’re going through 1–7.

 

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ONE. October goals

I don’t do goals. I am severely uninterested in competition and thusly goals. You have no idea the extent to which the line WE’RE GOING NOWHERE appeals to me. I’m just pure impulse. No, it’s not great. But you know, people don’t change (Nick Cave says, so it must be true); I’ve long since accepted that this is who I am.

Not that I’m not aware I should have goals, I’m sure I should structure my workouts, work on finding a job that doesn’t bore the life out of me, drink less tea, practice mindfulness, just make a goddamn effort in all sorts of areas in order to reach one destination or another…but what’s the fun in that?

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TWO. OOTD

Today is Sunday, this is my standard uniform for weekends:

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leggings // over-sized tee // over knee socks + warmer pair socks

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THREE. Story behind my blog name

Weeellll..to paraphrase one of my fave bands when asked about their name; it leaves all doors open. If they wanted to start crooning, they could. I.e., if I wake up tomorrow and feel the urge to croon, I could. Or you know, write about people who croon. It’s just a name with no particular connotations.

…let’s pretend it wasn’t just pure lack of imagination. And lack of goal. Do I have to specify I’ve pretty much no idea what I’m doing? I have no idea what I’m doing. OK. There.

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FOUR. Who inspires you

Lots of people inspire me all the time. Because I’m easily distracted and excel at the art of being a fangirl.

Currently, a main inspiration is Roxane Gay. I’ve just read her Bad Feminist and I find her ideas and writing truly inspiring. Almost makes me want to embark on an academic career. Almost. What stops me: knowing that with this type of writing that I do, you’re not meant for academia. Also, kinda think you need to be goal oriented to do academia. ALSO, just spoke to someone doing a licentiate this very week, he wasn’t exactly raving about it.

Getting off track as per usual…

In general, I’m quite inspired by people who dare to be different and who have a bit of a oh fuck it attitude. Oh and bitter and angry feminists in general. They are my heroes, the lot of them.

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FIVE. 5 things about you

  1. I have the worst blood circulation; I live in a pretty much constant state of freezing.
  2. I live in fear of people with social skills trying to engage me in conversation. Social morons like myself is fine; I can carry on a conversation with people like that. Mostly. But with people who expect certain things out of a conversation, I’m just going to disappoint, making one and all uncomfortable. They’ve got themselves to blame tho, there is nothing about me that reads open for conversation. 
  3. You know when you call some sort of service function and you get to talk to someone who’s positively hostile and you’re left wondering just WTF that person is doing working there? Yeah. Hi. That’s me.
  4. I’m deeply offended by the following assumptions:
  • That I drink coffee.
  • That I don’t eat bread (i.e. trying to avoid carbs and for the record NO, I ♥ carbs).
  • That I like Disturbed. Or Metallica for that matter.
  • That Pinterest thinks I’m interested in Johnny Depp. I’m sure he’s a lovely fellow, but he’s as irrelevant to me as I am to him, you know? Now give me pics of ppl in metalbands! Or at least Oli Sykes. Please?
  • That I don’t know In Flames. I ♥ In Flames, OK?
  1. I still dream of having TRez’s shoulder muscles, you know, the ones in the Hurt video. It’s not a goal; is a completely unrealistic dream.

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SIX. Thankful Thursday

I find this being thankful thing quite difficult. It’s too positive. I’m not overly fond of positive. I much prefer bitter and negative; shocking right?! You never saw that coming, never heard it before.

Also. Who am I supposed to thank, really?

Let’s just say. At this moment in time, I feel fortunate that I am in a position to lead a fairly comfortable life, that I’m happy with where I’m living, that my work allows me time off at any sort of random time, which enables me to see bands play. I also feel fortunate that I don’t consider the fact that I’m really too old for this type behavior a problem at all.

Again, who am I thanking? The Fates..? I’d be OK with the Fates.

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SEVEN. A day in life

GOOD MORNING. Matching my socks with me eye make; giving the terrible shorts another shot at proving themselves. POSITIVE my neighbors are thrilled about my choice of music at this hour, starting the day with some Architects; Alpha Omega.

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ON THE BUS. Last few pages of Roxane Gay + The Amity Affliction keeps me company.

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BREAKFAST. At work. What a sad affair. But hey, I’ve got raspberries, banana and a cup of good herbal. Listening to Editors.

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SLOW START. Trying to get some proofing done. Giving Helios a go. It’s not bad.

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STARING AT CREDIT TRANSFER. You want to transfer credits from the course you’re currently taking to well, the course you’re currently taking. YOU CAN’T TRANSFER CREDITS ON THE SAME COURSE. How am I the only person getting that?!!?? Course coordinator already OK:ed the application so now I’m going to have to sort this shit out. Playlist returned to default and is playing me Architects again.

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MIXING TEA, WAITING FOR TEXT TO PROOF. First cup of the day (herbal doesn’t count). This corner of my desk, it’s the focal point of my workday. Gawd the exciting life I lead. Playlist has found me some of the Editor’s latest release. Will have to make an effort soon.

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LUNCH. What will it be!?! Exciting! Grabbed the last frozen meal I had in my freezer no idea what it is. Fingers crossed it’s not just chickpeas.

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Score! Roasted broccoli, pureed aubergine, kidney beans and pasta. Spent rest of lunch hour searching HappyCow for places to eat in Gothenburg.

AFTERNOON. No internet, more tea, message from person with text that it’s not coming after all (editing is taking longer than expected he says, me: really), listening to Balance & Composure, because a certain singer in a certain band just tweeted that they were good. It’s a bit of hit and miss, sometimes he’s spot on sometimes…we just don’t have the same taste at all. This is not bad, but for the time being, I’ve got other preferences.

The afternoon wasn’t completely wasted, found a recipe for bean pesto. Bean pesto! Genius stuff. Not that I’m going to follow a recipe, but I’ll do something similar.

LEFT WORK EARLY. Had taken stock of my knits the night before and decided that I could use a couple more. Threw some money at a store that wasn’t H&M for a change.

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BUS HOME. Liv Strömquist’s latest comic book keeping me company. Might have been some more listening to a certain band starting with an A. Starting to feel like a guilty pleasure it is.

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FORCED MYSELF TO MAKE DINNER. This week has been impossible. Dinner has been raw veggies + Ryavita all week because cooked meal, who can stand it!? Today my brain was all about the peas. It wanted nothing but peas. Finally convinced it pasta + peas + some asparagus + half an avocado and cabbage roasted in mustard was a good idea. The wine was also quite good.

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CLEANING. Was a bit lazy and only cleaned half the apartment while listening to Thrice on loud, lifting weights in between.

WATCHED LAGGIES. And then I was off to bed.

PS. If anyone knows why it’s called Laggies and/or what that means, feel free to inform me. I’m. Confused.

xo,

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Currents; And I want

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H&M shorts in petrol. I’ve got three pairs of these already, and we get along like a house on fire. I’ve told myself no colored ones! I tend to not get a lot of wear out of any garment in a color in general, bottoms in particular, but these just haunt my mind. PS, they look nicer IRL.

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Estrid by Johanne Hildebrandt. This is the latest book in my all-time favorite book series. It’s a retelling of old Norse myths and legends, basically. And Hildebrandt tells a story so incredibly well. If I remember correctly it’s due for publication in October.

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Lime Crime Venus the grunge palette. I know, I’m late to the party. Or actually, I’m still considering not turning up at all; I’ve decided high-end is not for me. For many reasons. But in my search for a decent matte palette, I just keep coming back to this one. It’s everything I want. I would order it, but I’d rather not order from the US, so I’m putting it off.


The reissues of two of Nina Hemmingsson’s comic books. Soon I hope!?!! I need them!

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Lime Crime Velvetines in Salem. Again, high-end; not for me. But, again, this looks like everything I want and need. I know we’re supposed to go for the metallics now, but I’m not quite over the mattes yet. …although an argument could be made for the metallic shade Lana. A copper shade. Looks amazing.

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Ruffle choker from ASOS. One or more of the channels I follow on YouTube hauled ruffle chokers from ASOS, and I just love the look. But I can’t possibly justify another choker, can I?

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Snazzy new top with some sort of opening in the back. Because I need it. Don’t quite think tie dye is for me though. I’ll keep looking.

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All of the new Batiste styling products. Because I was just made aware that they have styling products. And I love their dry shampoo so. Anyone tried any of their styling products?

Nedwood tea. For it is the season.

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Yellow raincoat. Obsessed with the idea of a yellow raincoat. And I do need a raincoat. I mean I’m going to Glasgow in November. November! What was I thinking?

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NYX Liquid Suede in Alien. Yes. Still on my wishlist as no store had it in stock back in August. And because black lipstick and orange eye; match made in heaven for sure.

 

What’s on your wish list?

 

xo,

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