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This is a paraphrasing of a very famous poem by Edith Södergran (♥) called Dagen svalnar, which seems to have been translated as The Day Cools. Not sure if it’s an official translation. Seems very literal, but the second line in the poem, drink the warmth from my hand, doesn’t really make sense it’s translated differently.

Anyway

The original (translated into English) reads:

You were looking for a woman
You found a soul—
You’re disappointed

Spinster’s rendition reads:

I was looking for life virtues
I found liberal feminism—
I’m disappointed
(And I stand by it)

FOUR

Because POLICY AND CHANGE.

FIVE

Don’t you just love people who vlog in the middle of major life changes? Especially when it’s someone you already love and follow?

IF I was the sort of person who commented on videos on YouTube, which I’m not, I’d probably comment that

a. Yes, Sam did a good job promoting your channel (unintentionally I’m sure, but he did), but if it wasn’t for the vegan peanut butter brownies, wouldn’t have cared, and
b. Would not have stuck around if you weren’t brilliant. Which you are.
c. …and can I just say. While I’m obsessed with Architects (understatement of the year), never watched your channel in order to see Sam. I’m not sure what that means. But I’m pretty sure it’s good. At least from a feminist perspective?

What I learned from this little exercise: it is good for the soul to go through your likes every once in a while. Should probably do it more often.

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This has been an Endless Blog Challenge post. Past topics for this challenge can be found here.

October at a glance

Listened to

Emma Ruth Rundle. Recent find through the Spotify Release Radar. Release Radar knows me sooo much better than Weekly Discovery.

Kathryn Joseph. I loved Emma Ruth to such an extent I had to go see if there was more like it: hello, Kathyn Joseph. Kathryn is more piano, but definitely a similar sound.

Also similar: Mariam the Believer. Coincidentally released a new album this month:

Bear’s Den. People seem to compare them with Mumford & Sons. Maybe their previous record. I’d say their most recent release is more like somewhere between the Black Queen and Editors. Or like a present day Eurythmics.

Read

Mr Darcy’s Diary by Amanda Grange💕

Simon Amstell’s Help. If you’re familiar with his standup you will like this book, and recognize parts. It’s a short and sweet one. I really liked it. Especially this part:

How was peace finally achieved? The introduction of the vagina flag.

You’re just going to have to listen to (er, read?) it if you want context. 🙂

Watched

This is probably the best haul I’ve watched, ever:

Yes please! Do give me idea on how to be a more conscious shopper! I need more hauls like this.

Linkin Park and friends. You know the remembering Chester Bennington show Linkin Park put on? It was. Confusing. But Oli did good:

Skincare

Current go-to site for all questions about how to use skincare products: Paula’s Choice. Not only has it got all the answers, but satisfactory answers. I.e. skincare is simpler than people like to make it out to be. I trust it completely and it keeps giving me excellent ideas.

Tweaking my AHA and BHA routine. I’ve tried including them both in my night routine (a world of no!), doing one week AHA, followed by a week BHA, which works, but I missed the BHA. So I’m back to AHA in the mornings, BHA in the evenings.

2 new best friends

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The Balm Beach Blush. I ♥ paper packaging. The color is nice obvs (read: perfect for everyday), but if I’m being honest, I did buy it because of the packaging + 30% off.

Blotterazzi. Here’s a realization I’ve made lately: my skin is no longer a fan of powder. No type powder. It’ll have my foundations starting to look cakey around lunchtime (yea yea, I’ve worn my makeup for 6 hours by then but anyway), and I am a bit shinier than I’d like. Adding powder will make things worse, sometimes adding dry patches into the mix. This here is the solution! It’s a blotting sponge, reusable and actually works, so yay!

Food

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Pulled oats! Been wanting to try this lovely fake meat from Finland. I love that it’s made from oats, and by comparison, locally produced; it’s a brilliant idea! And while I really did like it, I would hesitate to buy it again because it is pricey.

Tiny figs. Dunno if this has an official name, but what they are, are tiny, tiny figs. I’ve been loving having them with a cup of tea.

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Ginger chew. I have crowned this the best piece of candy in all of the land. I’m mad about the flavor and the consistency; it’s like a fudge that doesn’t get stuck in your teeth. In addition, it is (apparently??) so satisfying to eat just the one piece. I can have it in the house and not eat all of them right away. This is unheard of!

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Miscellaneous

Gave my hair a trim. I like to wait until my hair is in such bad condition that getting a brush through it is just an impossibility.

Used this nifty guide on how to do it yourself. If you have v. fine hair, like me, and also non-straight; no one can tell if the cutting isn’t straight. Which is the one bonus of this type hair. You can cut it yourself. If you can be bothered. And have pair of sharp scissors.

Spending diet. I’m supposed to be on it. Doing a terrible job.

Still a work in progress:

  • Stop bulking up on things. I am my mother’s daughter; I like to have an extra of most things. Including shoes. (Still looking for an extra pair of my fave Vagabond lace up boots like a fool? You bet!)
  • Stop getting things on sale. I’m talking about things I do want, but maybe don’t need right this very minute. I’m a sucker for the 20% off this weekend only! 
  • Stop getting things as prep for travel. I always feel as if I need things for when I go away, but I suspect that’s not actually true. You can (and probably should) use same old also when traveling. My brain is not entirely on board with this idea.
  • Stop buying food that is not the cheapest. I keep buying more expensive organic products. But also, beans are less expensive than fake meat. I have not stopped buying fake meat. Really should.

I might have to try a different approach.

Kitty cuddles! Spent nearly three weeks with these guys; last few days was the beginning of this month.

I need to find a way to get my hands on a house so that I can fulfill my crazy cat lady destiny.

…not that it’s so much get my hands on a house as being held back by the knowledge that I can’t fix things. Things break in houses and I can’t fix them. When you live in an apartment there’s always someone to call.

Blog find

NotSoQuietGrrl; cruelty-free, vegan, zero waste, skincare—all the good things!

Feminist of the month/year/decade??

It reads: Message to all men worried about feminists hating men: YOU STARTED IT!!

A. Feminists—funniest people there is
B. I ♥ fannyarsinoe (as if you didn’t know)

(Even if her current crusade against people who enjoy skincare seems kinda..misdirected. But I guess there is no such thing as perfection.)

Monthly menstrual report

Clue sent me this insight when my most recent cycle started:

During the time of ovulation, you might be more drawn to symmetrical facial structures and objects.

Er. OK? ..anyone recognize this..? Their source is here, in case anyone’s interested.

Also why? We need research to find out what people find attractive at a particular point in the cycle? Or was that just a for fun type deal? Obvs only annoyed because I’m a big fan of asymmetry, no matter the point in the cycle. (Obvious example of this: I like to move things so that they’re not perfectly aligned. Perfectly aligned makes me insanely uncomfortable.)

Feminist Friday

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When writing the topics for this week’s challenge, I thought for my Feminist Friday post I’d share a non-fiction work.

But then I realized that I’ve probably been harping on about Valerie Bryson’s Feminist Political Theory enough already.

Let’s talk about Liv Strömqvist instead!

I’ve mentioned her before, too, and revisiting her Hundra procent fett (English: One hundred percent fat) I’m sure this is a better option. Better option than anything.

If it was up to me, she’d get the Nobel Prize every year.

Why? Because she does what I want Naomi Klein to do; she presents an important message in bite-size, so that it can be consumed by those of us who aren’t exactly the sharpest of knives. Or lacking in the patience department. Or with other priorities. Whatever you want to call it.

Her format is just so damn clever.

It’s an easy read, and she’s funny, sarcastic, knowledgable, and her mix of feminism, anti-capitalism, and environmentalism is brilliant.

Let’s have a look at some of the ideas she presents!

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How are women ever going to be able to take up more space in society if we’re constantly suffering from malnourishment while being mentally preoccupied with trying to control our eating?
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I couldn’t decide if I was going to shave my legs before coming here or not … I compromised—I shaved one leg!
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If we only told people the truth instead: THERE WILL BE NO CHANGE if third world “debt” is not canceled
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…the patriarchal strategy of DIETING to keep women down…
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To give my amazing beautiful body the food it needs every day is the beginning of the end of male rule.

Does it even need commenting on?

Quick thought on feminism and skincare

I am well aware that feminism and a keen interest in skincare and/or beauty don’t really go well together. I’ve been thinking about this quite a lot. I consider myself fairly knowledgeable when it comes to feminism, and yes I do label myself feminist, and a part of me thinks I should know better. But here we are.

Recently, some of my favorite feminists rallied against beauty, arguing that we cannot support a woman’s right to choose, when the choice is to go along with patriarchal ideals and spend a fortune on changing her appearance to fit the mold; we can’t consider it an act of feminism and we can’t support any and every stupid decision a woman makes, even if a woman, just like a man, should have the right to do what the hell she likes with her body. I can’t exactly disagree.

Not even when they argued that putting acids on your face is a terrible, terrible idea.

They are right. In theory.

(But also, they must not know what what it’s like to put acid on your face. It is nice.)

And. This morning I was listening to a lady, who was also not wrong, arguing that we spend all this time on putting on creams and makeup when we could be thinking about our next project, and…other important things. (I’m not a fan of important things! OK?)

This is also true. We could be doing important things. Start a revolution and that.

However.

Why is it always that which women do that is wrong? Why is it always women who have to change?

I know that there is a contradiction in this because, yes, the acids are used to change the appearance of the skin, just to use acids as a for example. But if everyone regardless of gender was interested in their best skin, it wouldn’t be a problem, would it?

And quite frankly, men seem to have too much time on their hands. It seems far more reasonable that men should change to be more like women, rather than the other way around.

If men were busy trying to find what to do about their eye bags and is an eye serum necessary, and if so which one???  they wouldn’t have time to do half of the shit they do. Maybe they wouldn’t feel the need to. Because, surely, putting on a good mask, makes you feel nice and relaxed, i.e. you’re less likely to feel the need to go out and beat somebody up.

 

That being said.

The whole beauty industry is a trap for women and it should not be defended.

But I still resent that it is always women who have to change, and who do change. I resent that we always have to be the strong ones, the responsible ones.

I’m just tired.

 

Endless Blog Challenge

Sunday so soon?

Without further ado; here are some topic suggestions for next week:

In my Spotify Time Capsule playlist. I dunno about you but I love it when Spotify gives me playlists. I don’t usually listen to them to any extent, but it usually opens my eyes up for a track or two that I can add to my own playlists.

Most recently, we were presented with a time capsule playlist. Based on this list, share:

  1. A “What?!” song, one that you don’t really understand how it ended up in your specific playlist.
  2. What artist/group has the most songs in your list?
  3. A song you’d forgotten about, one that made you go “Oh yea, that one, 💕.”
  4. A rare song. As in, a song that’s probably not in most people’s playlist.
  5. Favorite song in the playlist?
  6. One or more artists/groups missing in your playlist. Something you used to listen to a lot that isn’t in your list.

Feminist Friday. I’ve got something specific in mind: a book with a feminist theme that you really like, fiction or non-fiction.

Skincare tag pt 1. This is an old tag created by makeupTIA. In total, it’s 12 questions, but I’m splitting it up into 3 parts, simply because I’m a big believer in the short post. These are the first 4 questions:

  1. What is your skin type?
  2. How do you store your skincare?
  3. Favorite ingredient?
  4. Most indulgent product?

Viel Glück!

Woman crush Wednesday

I’m living and breathing Kakan Hermansson.

OK. Maybe a bit of an exaggeration, but I am currently loving getting out of bed in the morning because that’s when I do my makeup while listening to her podcast Under huden med Kakan Hermansson (English: Under the skin with Kakan Hermansson), where she talks about skincare and feminism with various guests. The best way to start your day.

Her blog is my current go to source for anything skincare related.

This isn’t a new crush. She used to be on the radio years and years ago, as a side-kick on PP3 and Morgonpasset, and while I don’t agree with her taste in music, I always loved her bluntness and strong opinions. She maked even the shittiest show worthwhile listening to.

And then she quit the radio. Years ago. Still upset about that? Kinda a little?

Also. Let me remind you of the book she wrote a while back, which I gushed about here. I’ve planned a reread, because the audio version is on my book streaming service of choice.

As if that wasn’t enough. Her general appearance is an inspiration.

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What also has me well excited is the fact that she’s met and spoken to Roxane Gay (another of my crushes to be sure); it’s been recorded and you can listen to it here. And yes, it is in English.

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Woman crush Wednesday

So this is good. I’ve created a challenge that I find challenging. Why did I do that?

I tend to have a lot of woman crushes. And I tend to harp on about them. Unless you’re new, you probably know that I’m madly in love with Nina Hemmingsson, Roxane Gay, Helen Zahavi, Johanne Hildebrandt, Liv Strömqvist…to mention a few. Feminist. Writers.

What can I say. I have a type?

I can’t be going on about any of them any more. Can I…?

Nina Hemmingsson is releasing a new book next week; the title alone would make her a candidate for this post (På A svarar jag hej då//English: My answer to A is goodbye), and don’t get me started on her Twitter. The woman is pure genius.

But I think you know that already. And if you don’t, there’s really nothing I can do about it.

The purpose of this prompt, as I understand it, is to introduce you to someone new. Hopefully anyway.

So this is the challenge for me: who have I thus far failed to mention?

…for the record, I just want to state that my (current) actual crush is fannyarisone. Hands down! You know how I like to link to her Instagram. Recent post of hers that made me laugh:

English: Stop being so hysterical?! No you know what, the uterus has made it all the way up to the brain, and that’s where it’s staying!! 

But you already know I love her.

So let’s go with a different illustrator (fannyarisone isn’t an illustrator exactly, but you know what I mean, she does drawing), namely:

Holly Exley

She is an actual illustrator, a vegan, and her dogs, seem so sweet it makes me consider getting a dog. And I’m a cat person. FFS.

Basis of her appeal: I am so impressed with people who freelance. Partly because it seems complicated, and partly because you have to be so brave. She sometimes explains part of her work and does it so well. And she’s just really pleasant to listen to, v. v. important in my world.

And she just seems so sweet. You know 💕

That her latest vlog takes us to Scotland is just a bonus:

Aaand. I just realized I’ve probably mentioned her too. I’m out! There is literally no woman crush that I fail to mention, ever! Clearly don’t need prompts for that. (And I’m upset about this because why…?)

Could maybe use just a bit of restraint tho. Tiny bit. Wee.

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August wrap up

Listened to

Music has to stop. There are too many good new releases. This month we were treated to:

New Pvris track Winter. Best one so far!? The album is lovely too of course.

New Alazka track Ghost. Again, best one so far!? Previous ones, not bad. So looking forward to the album release, which, by the way, is tomorrow.

Brilliant new Foxblood release, Bittersweet:

This alternate version of Xcert’s Feels Like Falling in Love I’m absolutely mad about. Melancholy with a Thåström-type piano. (A fave type of piano playing, because I ♥ simple. You may want to compare and contrast with Thåström’s Sönder Boulevard btw, it’s a fun little exercise.)

Happy Spotify is keeping me up to date? Not sure.

As if that wasn’t enough. Suddenly learned to love Stray from the Path. So I like hardcore now???

Watched

This quite recent NIN show:

Had an epiphany. Or. It made me realize that Korn’s current setlist does makes sense. (Wasn’t entirely sure in this here post.) Because, Korn playing the entire of The Serenity of Suffering, (which is what I would like) would be like NIN playing all of their most recent release forsaking all others. That wouldn’t be great.

Also. WHY did I bother with Korn when there’s NIN? (The answer is of course Jonathan Davis, but never mind…)

…I’m just hoping no one who was ever in NIN will ever release a biography. Ever. Because I suspect they were/are no better than Fieldy. And if any of them already did, don’t tell me, I don’t want to know.

Oh my god I’m off track now, let’s get to the point already: How have I still not seen this band live??? There has to be something wrong with me. Need Europe dates asap!

Meanwhile. Amity Affliction + Casey + Alazka and Architects all have tour dates coming up. How to choose???

If we could just get back to the watching theme of this section…

YouTube finally recommended me Jamie Genevieve. Because how else does one find anything? Been binge watching like a madwoman.

She makes me want to make an actual effort when putting on makeup + buy all the things. So. Good and bad all at the same time.

American Gods. Got the DVDs because I couldn’t figure out how to stream in Sweden. (Other countries yes, Sweden no.) It’s…do we like this??

 

Twitter was great

Imagine it’s 1992 and Axl Rose tweets this about Metallica/James Hetfield:

That should give you some idea of the position Amity Affliction + Architects hold in my universe, and explain why I find this tweet insanely entertaining. Because Axl Rose would never ever have said this about Metallica, or vice versa, even if there had been a Twitter in 1992.

A favorite from Muralgranskaren:

English: This, my brothers, is in Truth Black Metal-Singing.

(And yes, it is weird use of language in Swedish too.)

Just one more! My fave feminist:

English: Humanism—when you want to make yourself look like a nice person but not change anything.

And. Nobody missed SamArchitects doing the right thing, as per usual, right?

Basically. Architects just keep making everyone else look really bad. Have I mentioned lately that I love this band? L O V E.

But seriously. If this wasn’t in your feed, there is something very wrong with your feed. Hell, Stylist Magazine tweeted about it. Lord knows why, but they did.

 

Reading

If you haven’t read Roxane Gay’s Hunger yet you need to get to it!

 

Rediscovered

The shade Maple in the kinda horrible Sleek Ultra Mattes V2 palette. It looks like it should be brown/orange, but on me it’s definitely 100% a red/pink bruise type shade. And it’s amazing. The shade Thunder is also not bad. Excellent crease color for blue looks.

20,000 days on Earth. I usually love the Nick Cave documentaries, this one just didn’t speak to me at all. Until now.

 

Using

Urtekram lotion that smells like rosemary. It doesn’t sound too exciting but I love this scent.

 

Monthly menstrual report

Menstrual cup research, this one’s great if you feel like you want some encouragement:

Unfortunately, I then went on to watch a few less positive videos. Currently unsure that a menstrual cup would work for me. Because:

a. Cannot find my cervix for the life of me.
b. Cannot be having something that might be pushing on my bladder because if I pee anymore frequently, I may as well move into the bathroom. All liquids seem to just go straight through me. (Unless I drink too much tea. Can’t be it?)

Good news: stopped being regular sooo there is hope yet I won’t have to resort to the menstrual cup!?

And in the event I’m back to regular, I’ll just refer to this Tweet:

English: The menstrual cup is great and all, but could people stop making women’s bodily functions seem like environmental problems?

Unlikely though. My period was especially sneaky and difficult to predict this month. None of the usual symptoms and random point in time. Not that it matters much, it was of the light flow variety, so not really something worth spending this many words on. Probably. I ♥ talking menstruation tho. So. Ja.

 

Reminder

Don’t get cats, they die on you.

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In which I’ve made a mistake

Ach nee.

Have you listened to the All These Countless Nights track by track commentary?

Don’t.

Just don’t.

The commentary to the brilliant track Pensacola, 2013 makes me think of this post:

Ibland kan jag vara så förbannad på en pojkvän jag haft. Att han tog sig rätten att göra anspråk på mig och att han inte gjorde slut när han märkte att jag for illa i relationen. Jag var i ett stadie där det var svårt för mig att vakta mina egna gränser. Jag ville bara ha kärlek, hans kärlek (för det var den enda jag visste). Han var inte kapabel att ge mig det jag behövde, och ändå var han kvar mer mig i år efter år. Fortsatte göra anspråk på mig år efter år. Trots att han såg ner på mig, trots att han tyckte att jag gjorde allt fel, så envisades han med att vara med mig. Ja, jag borde ha gjort slut, men jag hade inte styrkan. Jag älskade jag honom. Jag ville ju försöka. Det var från honom passiviteten kom. Han borde ha lämnat mig trots att jag bad honom att stanna. För att det är det enda barmhärtiga att göra i en sådan situation. Uppbrottet smärtar oavsett, men det totala lidandet blir mindre ju kortare relationen är. Jag tror att män gör så för att de är fega. De är rädda för att vara ensamma. Och priset de betalar för en relation är inte lika högt. Men offret för deras feghet är kvinnan.

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It reads: Instead of ending the relationship I thought I’d just neglect it. That way, I can suck you dry of your last love and not have to do anything myself. And also, I’ll avoid all the pesky feelings of breaking up. 

I don’t want anything I like to remind me of this post. I just don’t.

I blame the radio. I usually try to avoid track by track commentaries because they tend to be a painful listen, but since radio has been equally painful since one radio show host presented the well-informed opinion that we should eat bacon because it tastes good, I can’t stand radio either. And I just wanted to listen to someone talking.

Mistake. Clearly.

A new favorite

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Get your notebooks out!

If you’ve ever felt like writing a memoir, model it after Roxane Gay’s memoir Hunger. It is the perfect memoir.

It’s my new favorite for sure.

It is brilliant for the following reasons:

It focuses on a theme. It’s not let’s tell everything, including the history of my ancestors. I hate memoirs/biographies that start out with my parents/grandparents were these people, from wherever. Hate it. Instead, she focuses on events relating to her body.

It’s a feminist work. Stating the obvious. Wouldn’t be brilliant if it wasn’t feminist.

It discusses ideas, connects it to her life and society in general. While I am very fond of learning details of people’s life just for the fun of it, this is just slightly more interesting.

The best ending ever. On par with Dirty Weekend. I’d fear Roxane if I were you. I love this lady.

Don’t get me wrong, it is a difficult read. Because it shows what a horrible world we live in. The beginning of the book especially is quite difficult to get through. I had to take it at bit at a time. But it’s oh so good. Is it too soon for a reread?