Vegan protein banana pancakes

You might have noticed I’m a bit obsessed with pancakes. Tiny bit.

Most recent version was a result of the following:

Watched a video about PCOS. Person in video claimed that if you suffer from PCOS you should count calories for 3 days, because that is knowledge you need. How many cals you consume on a daily basis. My Ed*: Counting calories you say!? We must!

I know this makes no sense. Not only because lousy reason but because:

a) I don’t have PCOS, I have PCO, not the same.
b) Even my PCO status is unclear, currently bleeding approximately every 2 months, highly regular for being me.
c) Nobody needs to count calories ever.

But I’m at a place right now where I’m listening to Ed. I get Lifesum (again) been using (far longer than 3 days).

Lifesum will also show you percentages of carbs, protein and fat.

In general, I strongly believe you don’t need to make special efforts to get protein into your diet if you’re vegan. Who ever heard of anyone dying from protein deficiency around these parts?? Nobody that’s who. It doesn’t happen. Make sure to have some B12 supplements, and iron if you’re struggling with iron uptake, the latter goes for any diet, and you’re good to go!

Despite this, my reaction is 10% protein!? My hair will fall out! Clearly, what I do suffer from is anxiety. And a bad case of unreasonable.

I’m upping my protein like a woman possessed.

Here’s an easy way to pack 20 g of protein into one (vegan) meal:

Find yourself a nice protein powder. My choice: a rice protein, because it doesn’t taste anything. Take 20 g of your protein powder of choice, 30 g flour, 1 tsp baking soda, pinch of salt, 1 banana, 50 g soygurt, if you want a thick batter, if not, use water or any type plant milk instead. Optional: bit of flaxseeds.

You could mix by hand, but I prefer using a blender.

Gives you about 5 small pancakes. And yes, they’re supposed to look like that. I ♥ rustic.

Serve with raspberries sprinkled with a wee bit of ginger, maybe a bit of agave and cinnamon.


*Ed is a pet name for eating disorder.

Let’s talk about dieting

The other day I was roaming around YouTube and suddenly stumbled on an old TEDTalks with the title Why dieting usually doesn’t work.

V.v. interesting! Clickety click!

And I am in love. Sandra Aamot, the speaker, she had me at started to eat mindfully.

Eating mindfully is essentially the same as intuitive eating, and as you may have gathered, I’m a fan. On most days.

Some days I fall into old habits, thinking this intuitive eating isn’t working because I’m “overeating”. For some people, like Sandra, eating mindfully leads to weight loss. Some. Not all. I’m thinking people under or of average weight probably won’t lose weight.

There’s at the very least 3 problems here:

  1. I still want to lose weight. Not as actively as before, but the idea is still there.
  2. If we’re being honest, I’m calling eating until satisfied overeating.
  3. A part of me still believes intuitive eating is eating the same amount of food as when I was counting calories like a woman possessed and managed to shrink myself down to a size smaller than when I was 12. Yes. Seems incredibly likely that’s a size I’m supposed to be at age 35.

Letting go of project thin is a struggle.

More annoyingly, I don’t understand why it’s such a struggle. Being thin isn’t a trait I admire. I am thoroughly bored with it. Not to mention diets. When peole start harping on about diets and losing weight in the lunch room I leave.

Logical conclusion: I’m clearly only interested in my own personal suffering.

This is exactly why you need input from people like Sandra! To set you straight. Er. Well. If you’re anything like me anyway.

Not only is she a proper scientist, but she’s got experience that definitely rivals my own. She managed to get in 3 decades of diets, and, listen to this: the weight kept coming back. Heard that one before? Clearly, not even neuroscientists, i.e. well-read and educated people, are immune to diet propaganda. On the one hand, thank god it’s not just me who’s stupid, on the other, dear oh dear, no one is safe.

So, she decided to find out why diets don’t usually work. Strikes me as the right person for the job.

What I particularly enjoy about Sandra’s talk is the angle; she’s coming at it from a brain point of view. Let’s just pause for a minute and appreciate this. We’re not going to talk about the food, but the brain.

According to Sandra, diets don’t work because hunger and energy use is controlled by the brain. What this means is that the brain has randomly decided that a certain weight is your weight; Sandra calls this your set point. Which seems to be the same thing as what some like to call your default weight. Also commonly referred to as a range, which is a point Sandra makes too.

To stay outside this range is v. v. difficult because your brain wants to keep you stable, within the range. It responds to weight loss by trying to get you back to what it considers is normal. Unfortunately, the brain can’t tell if you need to lose weight. (Not that most people actually going on diets need to lose weight, they just want it, a whole different problem.) It can, however, tell if you’ve been starving – and if you’ve been starving it will respond by making you burn less calories. So two people with the same weight could have different energy use. Meaning, if you’ve ever dieted; congratu-well-done you’ve fucked up your metabolism and will forever be doomed to enjoying less of the foods.

OK, I might be making up the forever part. Desperately hoping it’s not forever.

More bad news: set points can go up, but they rarely go down. Dieting doesn’t change your set point, even if you’ve been skinny for years and years. I.e., your brain will keep working against project lose weight.

And it doesn’t stop there; starting a diet in early teens makes it more likely to become overweight later in life. And, surprise surprise, develop an eating disorder. This, in addition to, what I’m sure we’ve all heard: most people who diet will gain it back (and then some). Diet = more likely to gain weight. Remember that! Excellent point Sandra makes: if diets worked we’d all be thin already.

Instead, what we need is mindfulness. Eat when you’re hungry and stop when you’re full. Work out what makes your body feels good. Took about a year to learn for Sandra. Which I consider both good and bad news, there’s still hope for me, but it could be there’s months and friggin months to go. But like Sandra, I do currently feel way more relaxed around food than I have in pretty much forever, and it is not a bad feeling.

Not that I don’t still, for example, fall into the habit of trying to work out the number of calories in food, but it’s definitely becoming less and less frequent.

None of this is really new information. The talk is from 2014 for one thing, and I’ve heard most of what she mentions before, the problem is some major points (e.g. diets don’t work) have yet to become popular, i.e. spread by media.

For one thing. Right after having watched this talk, I watched the brand new season of the Swedish You Are What You Eat. That fact that it even exists says something. The fact that I even consider watching it also says something. I hardly need to explain why it’s just not good.

But at least! I was thoroughly annoyed throughout watching it. Because, as the title indicates, they clearly are not up to date with the latest research. I also realized that anyone ever going on a diet, it makes me kind of sad.

I’m taking that as a good sign.

There is an important point missing tho, my favorite point, a change in policy is needed. (Ah yes, I have such faith in The State.) We have huge environmental problems because of overproduction, evidence suggests food is especially responsible. This same surplus of food is inevitably leading to some of us being quite miserable. This is logic rivalling that of an eating disorder. Clearly, someone with overview of the situation needs to come in and take charge. And no, I don’t think we should have the freedom of choice here, people aren’t logical creatures, especially when it comes to food.

(Should I mention Go vegan! No? Well you should.)

To sum up, I just wanted to say; good news! Science says we can use our minds and focus for other things than diets, since they are useless!

I dunno about you but that always makes me kind of happy.

Also, newer talk on a related topic that I thought was just all sorts of brilliant:

Give it a watch!


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You know what Sunday means; Week summary

This week I’ve…

…made final travel arrangements to see Architects and Bring Me the Horizon in October + November. If it seems as if I already mentioned this, it’s because I have. But that was for other locations. Of course, since then Mr Sykes of BMTH has contracted acute laryngitis and shows have been cancelled, and at this point, when a band starts cancelling shows I take nothing for granted. Maybe I’m not going? We’ll see.

…been listening to a remix of the Rolo Tomassi track Illuminare like a woman possessed.

Why can’t this band sound like this all the time? They’d be my new favorite band easy. Now I’m going to have to work on it.

…been searching YouTube for Architects live in Australia. Because it’s what I do when they’re on tour. In the processes I came across the BMTH intro from the same tour (Architects were opening for BMTH, we’re all aware?)

Er. OK. Is this intro is…a keeper..? Honestly, I have to stop this. Have I got nothing better to do? (NOPE, I don’t.)

…also found some Architects. E.g. this one:

…given up on the intuitive eating. Maybe. It seems to me I can’t be trusted. Is it completely unlikely that there are people who do need boundaries? Can I play the PCO card?

…enjoyed the no-brow look. Not until the third try did I realize I prefer this look with a lipstick that just melts into my face; the NYX soft matte lip cream in Cairo, and also managed to find a blush that doesn’t show up orange on camera, go me! Not that it shoes up at all, but I’m OK with that.

Indeed fortunate my fringe has grown out long enough to cover my one eye. It’s been weeping all week, leaving me with just a mess of makeup on the one eye.

PS. Death stare. Coming along nicely.

…been scrolling through Bands in Town damning myself for ever leaving Glasgow. The fuck was I thinking? Sure, shit job, but maybe worth it?

All and all: this week has been kind of meh.


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Reading challenge; blue cover + library + self-improvement

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Time for a reading challenge update! Another 3 categories of the challenge down; the blue cover (Twitchhiker by Paul Smith), the library book (Unspeakable Things by Penny Laurie) and the self-improvement book (Reclaiming Yourself from Binge Eating by Leora Fulvio).

Even though I didn’t plan it, these three actually go together quite nicely.

I picked up Twitchhiker at the library; I wanted an easy read, and it looked like it would be. It was. However. I have an itch. What bothers me with this book is that it proves Carin Holmberg right. You know Carin Holmberg? Researcher, studied the power balance in heterosexual relationships in the 90s, proved that there is an imbalance not benefitting women. One of my fave feminists. Well this guy here shows that Holmberg’s study is still valid. It had me annoyed throughout the read. The fact that he’s aware of having been criticized by feminists, prior to writing the book, this because he left his wife of four days at home with the kids to travel the world via Twitter, and still includes the bit in the book, it just makes me think he’s particularly stupid. I’m not going to dwell on this tho, each to her own. But, it kept me from thoroughly enjoying the book.

To remedy my annoyance I started reading Unspeakable Things, which I knew was a feminist work that somehow had passed me by. I have no idea what I’ve been doing lately, I’m so out of touch with everything. Anyway.

At the same time, I also started reading Reclaiming Yourself from Binge Eating. Because hi, eating disorder, I has it. And I’m fed up with it. So I figured I might as well use this challenge to read up on binge eating. I hardly think a book will be able to “sort me out”, but it’s a step in the right direction. (PS, it’s not killing me; it’s just keeping from doing things that are truly important.)

I could and would really like to say so many things about both of these books, but I’m going to try to stay on topic. I’m sure I can make up some excuse to get back to them at a later time. So, focus!

Reclaiming Yourself from Binge Eating is not a bad book for what it is. There are bits you can just take on and use, such as keeping a food journal to find patterns in your eating, start to work with intuitive eating – already realized I can’t differentiate between actual hunger and cravings – and start trying to convince yourself to abandon this “project thin”. And this is where Laurie comes in handy.

In the first chapter of Unspeakable Things Laurie talks about how eating disorders keep women in check. You can’t rebel against patriarchy if you’re busy restricting your food intake, because this will just consume you. This means that fat = I’ve got fucking better things to do than monitor my food intake – and suddenly it is clear to me why we are so concerned with what people weigh. It’s not health (if anyone ever believed that anyway). People who are considered overweight are a threat to the current world order. Not being concerned with weight in itself is an act of rebellion. I like it! I’ll tell you, I’ve got a new goal in life, erm, I mean, I have a goal in life? I want to be a fat woman with more important things to do. This, in other words, is my motivation to abandon “project thin”. Not that I don’t have other reasons, because I truly hate admitting that it’s a project I’m involved in to begin with, but apparently none of my reasons are good enough.

Unspeakable Things; best read of the challenge so far. I was a fangirl of the book by page 2. I ordered the book approximately 2 pages after that, and I have phone filled with pictures of my favorite parts if the book. For example, one of my favorite parts is where Laurie offers a solution to oppressive objectification of women:

The solution to this seems to be more boys in tight pants.

You just have to love that this is her solution. No violence, no arguing, just boys + tight pants. I love it that there is someone in this world who would come up with this solution, no matter if it actually is a solution and no matter if it can actually be done.

If I relapsed into non-reading again, I would be OK with that. Because I read one damned good book this year. I’m not going to tho. Not least because I just got Unspeakable Things in my mail, and since I read it in Swedish but ordered a copy in English, I just have to read it again, right?


Lots of love,

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