5 in my playlist

My sister called my attention to this new Eminem track over Christmas; immediately needed it in all my favorite playlists. It’s all the things I like about Eminem.

Had a sudden craving for some old Madonna, not sure what brought that on. General nostalgia? Apparently I really like the Like a Prayer album. The track Oh Father always makes me think of the clip of this song in In Bed with Madonna. Just me?

Ane Brun is pretty much the queen of covers; her song selection is flawless. Recently stumbled on this cover of Nick Cave’s Into My Arms.

Spotify Discover Weekly: You should listen to some Dead by Sunrise!
Me: …but I did? AGES ago. It wasn’t exactly…my cup of tea?

*listens to anyway just to make sure*

Me: Oh OK, you were right. This one time.

Oh you know how I love Deaf Havana, most recent favorite track is off of the All These Countless Nights Reworked record: Pretty Low.

There are too many good songs on All These Countless Nights, they should have spread it out some.

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Best of 2017


Bitterfittan 2 by Maria Sveland.


Best read all year! Would marry this book. Basically, it’s a story illustrating feminism in practice. Need I say more?

Second best reads:

Hunger by Roxane Gay. What’s funny/scary about this book is that even if you’re half the size of Roxane Gay, or smaller, you can still identify.
Hela Kakan by Kakan Hermansson. Oh you know, feminism and that.
I kroppen min by Kristian Gidlund. First person account of what it’s like to know you’re dying.
Vad ska en flicka göra? by Annika Lantz. A funny take on cancer.
Raven rings by Siri Pettersen. Especially book 2 where they quote NIN. I loved that book.
That Changes Everything by Naomi Klein. People don’t change, not really, but this book got me thinking and reviewing some of the things I do.
Fördömd by Johanne Hildebrandt. It’s like..if Indiana Jones was a woman and lived in  present day Sweden. Kinda.
Mr Darcy’s Diary by Amanda Grange. Pride & Prejudice from Mr Darcy’s point of view.
På A svarar jag hejdå by Nina Hemmingsson. THIS:

And that was the last we saw of her. The end.

Speaking of reading: got myself a Storytel subscription, which is what has kept me “reading” this year. If it wasn’t for audio books, I would have read pretty much nothing.


Under huden med Kakan Hermansson. Feminism + beauty, an unholy unity, according to certain feminists. And they’re not exactly wrong.

Penntricket. More feminism! Hoping for another season in the year to come. Although it is unlikely they’ll top the fourth episode about hating men. Maybe they did the right thing calling it quits?

PMS-podden! Sure, I only just started listening to it, but it is hours and hours all about PMS. Pretty much my main interest in life.


Puma ignite trainers. Best trainers I’ve had in a while. Will repurchase!


Jeans. To be clear: black and only black. (The horror that anyone would think I’d run around in blue jeans.) I’ve abandoned my dresses and skirts for jeans; did not see that one coming.

Now. If I had any sort of blogging skills, I would have prepped pics before Sweden entered into the darkness-24-hours-a-day period. This is me trying to get a shot of my newest pair, a pair of skinny high waists at noon in front of a window:

[Oh come on, there was never any point to these pics.]

Not that it helps that all my walls are dark. And the jeans are black. But still. Love these jeans, perfect length and oddly a high waist that works for me. Unheard of! I’ve thus far hated all high waisted jeans.

Not that it matters. I think we all know what black jeans look like. Absolutely love pairing them with this striped top too.

A favorite outfit; long green top, black leggings, platform sling-backs, frilly choker. 


Green top with red hair, love this combo! Also works real well with the purple hair.

Face stuff

No7 pore minimizing primer. The more other primers I try out, the more I like the No7 pore minimizing primer. Does its job, is budget friendly, what’s not to love?

Wearing no brows.

Waiting for y’all to catch up. (KIDDING. Apparently it’s me and Manson; even Sarah Hawkinson abandoned us. Oh no wait, and Jenny Mustard. OK so maybe there’s a few of us…) I need to dig out that yellow, and those metallics. I wonder what shade that is. Is it..blue..?

Body Shop Camomile Cleansing Butter.


Made me quit face wipes! This stuff is not only better for the environment, but a more efficient product that is kinder to the skin.

Pixi’s Glow Mud Cleanser + Mud Mask.


The cleanser is my AM cleanser, the one I use when I don’t wear makeup. It’s kinda like washing your face with a clay mask, which might be obvious and probably seems strange but oh, I for one love this. I am abandoning my regular foaming cleansers for clay.

As for the mask, I wanted to love other mud masks, but I kept dreaming about the Glow Mud Mask. So ja

Makeup Revolution New-trals vs neutrals.


The only palette I need! Up until now, I’ve been in a habit of adding at least one single shadow, or a quad, to whatever palette I think I can make do with. No longer the case! Not that I don’t love my other shades, I do, but this is all I need.

B. bronzer + Urban Decay Naked Skin concealer (+ Superdrug hair therapy oil with argan) 


Who thought I’d add bronzer to my makeup routine at this point in life? Not me, to be sure? And the concealer, it is, unfortunately, v. v. good.

No powder. Because I’m old and my skin suddenly decided it doesn’t like it. At all. Funny thing: doesn’t seem to be any shinier than usual. Or maybe I’m learning to love my natural dewiness. Here’s hoping!

Hair stuff

Superdrug argan oil. Best hair oil I’ve tried so far. 100% in love!

Manic panic purple haze + vampire red. Makes for the perfect purple hair color. For me. But I’ll probably stick with the brown + red combo for a bit longer. Not that the straight purple was bad at all.

Maria Nila hair spray. I’ve struggled with hair sprays. They’re never quite right. This one tho! Nice smell, good hold, does not seem to causing any hair damage, it’s a keeper!

Soft water. Even better for the hair than cold rinse. I count myself lucky to have access to stoft water, even if it’s not in my home.

Finally figured out how to make waves using the flat iron. Was v. pleased with this wee wave!

Social media things


”Ultimata lösningen” #villfarelser #ultimatalösningen

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It reads: I had a solution to all the world’s problems. Eradicate mankind.

Mordisk Hatisk Bitch. 

Tänk ändå vilken plot twist för Freud och hans gelikar att det egentligen är män som lider av livmodersavund, inte kvinnor som lider av penisavund! För när man ser på hur världen är beskaffad finns det ju ingen annan slutsats att komma till. Det är ju inte som att kvinnor försöker styra mäns reproduktiva förmåga, tvärtom är det männen som hela tiden söker styra kvinnornas. Kvinnor tvångssteriliseras, könsstympas, våldtas, blir utnyttjade som surrogatmödrar och begränsas från att göra abort. Allt detta är sätt på vilka mannen kontrollerar kvinnans reproduktiva förmåga. Sedan har vi även den sociala press kvinnor utsätts för att inte bara skaffa barn utan göra det på rätt sätt, med rätt person, i rätt tid och i rätt omfattning. Snacka om avundsjuka. Och så försöker de få det till att vi skulle avundas hans penis…

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It reads: It’s not FAIR that it’s WOMEN who get to decide about abortion just because it’s their body… 

(And yes, it does read their body, not bodies.)

Middag med Fredrik och hans grabbar. Had me in stitches.


Single-handedly makes all other bands on Twitter look really bad. Or at least severely boring. This is a universal truth, right? It has nothing to do with my love of sarcasm?

YouTubers I’ve been watching religiously

Kiera Rose. Bit of vegan, bit of beauty, do you need more reasons?
Sarah Hawkinson. Could watch only because she has the best red hair ever. And I like her taste in music. And she’s one of those people who cares, about a lot of things, which I guess I admire.
Jamie Genevieve. If I’m being honest, mostly watching for the Scottish and sneak peeks of Glasgow, but she is wicked good at makeup. Difficult makeup. The kind that I’m just never going to do.
Holly Exley. You should know I love Holly by now.
Tashina Combs/Logical Harmony. Mainly watching because her site logicalharmony.net is one of my go-to resources for finding out if a brand is cruelty free or not. So ja, that’s what she does, cruelty-free beauty.
Rhian Hy. Vegan cruelty-free beauty. Mostly.
Cheap Lazy Vegan. Tips on being a cheap lazy vegan!
Qcknd. Got sucked in by her moving vlogs. Made me feel fortunate to have been born in Sweden. Aaaand…she’s had a lengthy rant about the Cure and dyes her hair in fun colors.
Thataylaa. She knows the makeup. No 1 authority when it comes to foundations I would say.
Lily Melrose. These days, she mostly does fashion-related content, and some vlogs. I’m not super interested in fashion, but it’s one of those channels
Leila. You should be seeing a theme here. I like the YouTubers with a conscious.
Hannah Witton. Talks a lot about hormones, thus the basis of her appeal.
Helen Anders. This lady, super creative, I am so impressed, and I’m not easily impressed. Also absolutely love her quirky style.

Yes. And those aren’t the only ones I watch. Explains why I’m not exactly missing subscribing to any video streaming services.

Non-YouTube moving picture bits

One more time with feeling. Might be the best music documentary ever. Because of the pace. Because it includes the music off of Skeleton Tree.

Girls. Favorite episode might still be the Matthew Rhys episode. Might be.

Vikings. I’m still disappointed that they’re not incorporating the stories Johanna Hildebrandt tell in her books, which are set in the same era, but I take what I can get.

The Mindy Project. It’s..funny?

Regin. Still upset they killed off Francis and kept Sebastian. But I do love this series.

Handmaid’s Tale. Oh it was lovely, regardless of how closely it follows the book, so well done.

What the Health. It is vegan propaganda; I like vegan propaganda, I need vegan propaganda, as do you. Just FYI.


Vegan pancakes.


GB vegan ice cream. Best vegan ice cream yet! Bar mebbe the sorbets at Terre à Terre.


Cool oats. I’m a big fan of the cold porridge; started out as a practical solution, turned into something I do always when having porridge.

On to my favorite categories! The categories literally no one cares about; the only end of the year lists I’m interested in and will search for on purpose: the music categories.

I mean really, I take this seriously. This is a page from my planner:


Notes on what albums were released this year and which I’ve listened to at least once.


Also, still waiting for Robyn to release that track on Girls, HoneyWhat is taking so long??


Like last year, I have three clear favorites:

All these countless nights by Deaf Havana. I’ve no words. I just love this record. I don’t understand how it hasn’t made Deaf Havana HUGE (..although I do appreciate that that is not the case, on a personal level), is it poor marketing??

Waiting for morning to come by Being as an Ocean. Did not expect this release to match my taste so perfectly. There is something about it that reminds me of what I used to like/listen to in the 90s, but with a touch of what I like in today’s music (let’s just call it post-hardcore). Requires absolutely no effort for me to love. I’m going to go ahead and call it underrated.

Under Your Spell by the Birthday Massacre. Did not see this one coming. I know of and listen to Birthday Massacre, but mostly random songs at random times. I’ve been listening to this album on repeat.

Music makers

New discoveries/loves:

Agnes Obel. Dark and moody.

Dayseeker. Post-hardcore. Covered Thrice. Obvs brilliant.

Deaf Havana. ♥♥♥

Korn. I can learn to love Korn but not new (i.e. more recent) My Ruin? What is wrong with me??

Emma Ruth Rundle. I want to say, if you like PJ Harvey, you’ll probably like Emma Ruth as well.

Kathryn Joseph. …and if you like Emma Ruth, you’ll like Kathryn too.

Bear’s Den. Obsessed with their Red Earth & Pouring Rain.

Stray from the Path. Despite this genre generally not appealing to me (the difference between hardcore and post-hardcore is apparently huge in my world), they’ve somehow worked their way into my likes.


You might think I’d be disappointed having been only a total of 3 gigs all year. But quality over quantity! Am I congratulating myself on being able to spot the good ones? Yes I am.

Little Jinder; Sundsvall

Architects; Malmö

Malmo was excellent thank you @edmasonphoto

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Deaf Havana; Brighton

Note to self: just fucking stand up front. Never mind the fact that I’m too old; I’m sure no one can tell in the dark anyway.

Other bits

Bullet Journal. Still doing it. Slightly less passionate about it, but I don’t seem interested in giving it up.


Regular periods. On the one hand, means I can add less hormones to the ones I’ve already got wrecking havoc in my body, and that is a good thing, on the other, come on, do we have to bleed this often, really? Aren’t we too old?

Decluttered my CDs. Not a minute too soon.


Skincare obsession. A result of my usual makeup no longer sitting well on my skin. It’s my most expensive hobby yet, which is unfortunate.


…this was a while ago now. It’s expanded and become unmanageable in the space I have available. Good thing the bathroom in my new place is bigger. Just need to be patient…and stop buying stuff.

Learned how to turn off retweets. Which still means I can’t follow Roxane Gay because when she tweets she just dominates my entire feed which is a problem. Might I suggest a different medium? Blog? I’d follow!

Body pump. May it be forever this time. Or at least lifting weights. Or at least until I move because bit more strength, it would come in handy when moving (yes HI I’m super practical).

Brighton in November.


Looking forward to in 2018

MOVING. Which means I also have to sell my current place which makes me sad and nervous. Am looking forward to downsizing tho! (..in theory..?)


Following the move, I can start dying my hair again.

Seeing my cycle analysis in Clue. Yes! I am overly interested in all things menstruation! It’s what happens when you start noticing just how controlled you are by your hormones. I’m trying to work out a way to work with my hormones rather than against them, which thus far has not been the case.

Hibernate? I just want to settle into my new place and enjoy being able to go to the gym at all times and wash my hair at home.

…I mean I’d like to go to Scotland. And I’d like to see NIN. But I’d also like not being broke, which is the inevitable result of moving.

This has been an Endless Blog Challenge post. Past topics for this challenge can be found here.

Your 2017 Wrapped

Can we just talk about the Spotify Wrapped for a minute!?

I am so in love.

Honestly, after last year’s failure I was worried they’d mess up this year too, and some of us would end up not getting our end of the year summaries. The horror!

Apparently, this year, they’re not sending us emails. Instead, there’s the Wrapped app, and as a user it’s entirely up to you if you want to find out what you’d been listening to.

Which you should! This was such a thoughtful and fun summary.

Let’s run through it.

While last.fm gives me plenty stats, I still like seeing the numbers.


Quite surprised I managed to fit in 707 different artists, considering the absolute ridiculous amount of time I still spend listening to Architects, Bring Me and Amity Affliction.

I love it that they made it into a bit of a quiz, even if the answers were obvious.

This alternative metal genre, by the way, is new to me. Even so, figured that was probably what I spent most of my time listening to. Because that’s how obvious I am.

The goal bit, is..a bit cheesy?


And can we talk about acting my age. Are you telling me I’m acting too much my age? Really? Also, this illustration didn’t help. I’m 100% confused:


What does it mean?? Art rock? Pixi? What you on about?? And what exactly is it my age proves??

As per usual, I do like that they give you a playlist including your favorite tracks of the year. The other playlist though….


I like it in theory; I opened it and looked at it in horror. Won’t be opening that again.

I know what I like, and that ain’t it.

There’s one goal Spotify clearly missed out on: branch out, maybe listen a little less to Architects.


How did you like your 2017 Wrapped? Any surprises?

November wrap-up

November. It’s not my favorite month. But let’s try an focus on the good bits.

Two tracks I loved

This version of Northlane’s Solar:

The brand new Boxer Rebellion track, Love Yourself:

I do also want to mention the reworked version of Deaf Havana’s Ashes, ashes, it’s absolutely scrumptious; the Bear’s Den track Auld Wives, far from tired of; Dayseeker’s cover of Thrice’s Hurricane; and the Xcerts Hold on to you heart—all of which I’ve mentioned in posts recently, and which I’m still very much loving.


Architects @ Maida Vale.

Was confused as to why anyone would choose to cover Nirvana, because I mean, Hole?? (I’m obvs talking about the other track from this session, Territorial Pissings, clearly assuming everyone knows about it.) Just imagine how brilliant that would have been, a Hole cover. There are too few Hole covers in this world.

Love it or list it. Been looking like mad for the UK version; and it was available on Viafree all along! Where I also found Ensam mamma söker. Which is a guilty pleasure of mine.


Dayseeker. I’m a sucker for some good old post-hardcore. And Thrice covers.

Soap & Glory One heck of a blot primer.


Brilliant budget primer! Does all I want a primer to do: keeps oils in check, reduces appearance of pores. Why you no in Sweden shops, whyy?

MUA’s Eye Define Nourish & Care mascara.

final1511685962074Where have you been all my life?? It does not smudge, does not transfer, doesn’t crumble, doesn’t irritate my eyes, and is proper black, gives my lower lashes some nice definition, could easily go with one layer, but getting a second layer on is easy. About the nourishing claim. All things considered, I don’t bloody care if it is or not. I was going to get a bunch of mascaras to try when in the UK; instead I just got a backup of this one. Because obvs I like to make life difficult and find a fave mascara than you can’t buy where I live. Although it should be noted that Superdrug now ships to Sweden and I am v. v. happy about it!

And also, these three:


Superdrug’s Hair therapy oil with argan. So good I want to buy all products in this line. ALL OF THEM. The good news is that it is very much a budget range. Proper cheap. Must remember not to try the Maria Nila argan oil ever, because it’ll be even better for sure, and it’s wa-ay more pricey.

B. bronzer in light. I’ve never been a bronzer user. I’ve always felt it was a product for people interested in a healthy look, i.e. not me. However. As it turns out. Because I recently realized bronzer can be applied quicker and with less precision than contour, and restores some life into your face when you’ve put on foundation, it’s become a definite favorite.

Urban Decay Naked Skin concealer. Life would be infinitely easier if expensive products just just weren’t great. Damn you Urban Decay!


Visited Brighton, went to see Deaf Havana. If they’re ever playing around your parts, do go! Trust me. You will not regret it.

Was as excited as this person about the final song:

Also, you’d think you wouldn’t want to go to the UK in November. I’d say it’s not a bad time to go at all, now that I’m apparently in the habit of going in November. It wasn’t rainier than usual, it’s not cold and less people-dense, which is kinda nice. May is possibly a slightly better month, but not by much.

Following my Brighton visit, was tagged by one of the restaurants I visited on Insta. With a reference to my post including picture. Oh dear. Does this mean I’m going to have to make an effort when I take pictures of food? In my mind, I have like one reader, you know? And it’s not Purezza in Brighton. Because, how do you even find my blog unless it’s in your feed right here on WordPress??

Dyed hair purple. Again. Mixed in some red this time to make it, well, a more red purple. I dunno. On the one hand I love hair this dark, even if it’s only for a while, on the other, feels like purple hair makes my skin appear yellow. Also, it quickly washes out to a red-ish color, probably because previously dying said hair red. If only my hair could just go completely gray already, that’d be nice.

Stopped washing my hair in hard water. OK. So. I’m going through lengths to not wash my hair in hard water, i.e. at home. What caused this: washed my hair pre-dye, turned my scalp into all dry flakes. You know that weird girl in The Breakfast Club making it snow over a drawing? It was like that. It was horrible. And I only wash my hair twice a week. And I don’t use a lot of shampoo. WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT FROM ME??

Enter washing hair at gym. Sometimes at my parent’s, to be fair. Cannot wait to move because soft water, SOFT WATER. (One of the main reasons I even decided to move? Erm, is it bad if it is?)

I sometimes wonder if I’m just crazy. Most people wash their hair in hard water. I’ve literally never come across anyone complaining about it. Until the other day (it was a Monday, couple of weeks ago), Lily Melrose mentioned the hard water in Brighton wrecks havoc with her hair. AHA! I take that as confirmation; it’s not just me. And she’s got a better starting point than me (i.e. thick hair, as opposed to my typically Scandinavian hair), sooo. I’m not being unreasonable?

Upped my gym game. Because I wash my hair at the gym I now go to classes I don’t love. So that I can wash my hair. Not sure how long I can keep this up though. Oh. And also, I’ve worked it so that I can go to a body pump class on Saturdays. Because current mood: lift heavy things. If you’ve never been to body pump, the main appeal of this class is that you can tell the difference in no time. One class a week, and already after two weeks you can add weight to your bar. So satisfying. 


Monthly menstrual report

PMS was bad and I developed a distaste for all music I generally like. The only thing I could stand was a Yann Tiersen record I hadn’t listened to before, love this track:

Anyway. Great info from Clue in my insights e-mail:

Problems with sleep are most common during the premenstrual phase. Fight fatigue by going to bed at the similar times, reducing napping times and keeping the room temperature nice and cool. 

And one and all used to troubled sleeping are now fuming. Going to bed similar times?? No napping?? Keep room cool?? Do you think I’m stupid??? If either of these things solve your “sleeping problems”; good. for. you. You haven’t the faintest what sleeping problems really involve.

In other news. Most recent period was not its usual evil self; I got my period just in time to be off my period for my trip to the UK. Unheard of! Who are you and what have you done with my period??


Bring on December?

PS. If you made it this far, WELL DONE! Truly, I’m impressed.

This has been an Endless Blog Challenge post. Past topics for this challenge can be found here.

Two days in Brighton

You might have noticed I like to go to the UK to see bands. It’s pretty much the only thing that will make me travel.

Not that I’d go to see any old band, it has to be worthwhile.

Deaf Havana, in case you didn’t know, so worth it.

When Deaf Havana plays Concorde 2 in Brighton, you pack your bags and you go; doesn’t matter that you live nowhere near Brighton or even the UK. You make sure to get your ass there.

So Thursday morning I woke up in at the YHA in Brighton.

Let’s talk about YHA for a minute. According to TripAdvisor, this isn’t a bad place to stay. I would say, the only reason to stay at the YHA is if you’re on a budget/don’t really care where you stay long as it’s central, or want an easy walking distance to Concorde 2. It’s not terrible, but I’d hesitate to book it again.

They serve breakfast at the YHA, but I opted for a three minute walk to the Breakfast Club, where I had rye toast with avocado and cannellini beans and a cup of Earl Grey.


I really liked this breakfast:

  1. They’d seasoned it with just the right amount of garlic, it was delish!
  2. They really didn’t skimp on the rye, nor the avocado, or the beans.
  3. Kept me full way past lunch time, which was super convenient.

Next up: shopping. I have literally no sense; I love shopping at typical UK chain stores. Superdrug. Boots. New Look. North Laines? Pah! Mebbe tomorrow, if I feel up to it.

Actually, first stop was Deichmann, found myself some cheapass slippers, super pleased!


Next stop, Marks & Spencer. I’d noted that Pixi is about £ 10 cheaper in the UK than in Sweden. That has to count as a bargain?? Got myself these two that I’ve been lusting for:


Superdrug was sort of a let down. They didn’t have even half the stuff I was planning on getting, but hey, good for my finances, so I’m not complaining!

At Boots, I found a bunch of stuff. Including more mask tools; another brush and some sponges? Don’t mind if I do!


I’d actually gotten a few bits the day before too, including this amazing primer which I was trying out, may well be a new favorite (which is probably not good at all because I think Soap & Glory is no longer cruelty free?):


Oh yes, girl from the Benefit counter asked if she could draw some eyebrows on me. I surprised myself buy saying OK, but can we just agree that the current brow trend it just doesn’t work on me. I mean look:


There is not a product on this earth that will make my brows look anything but patchy. There just isn’t. And I’m not into that look.

My eyeshadow tho (well, it’s blush, but you know what I mean), was apparently not bad at all. I got compliments on it. From strangers. Although I so wonder if they really weren’t thinking that just looks mad. Not that it matters. I like it, and I’ve bought more.

I also love going to Holland & Barrett to get lots and lots of raw bars. Also found the Vego bar which was exactly as amazing as people say:


Had a late lunch at Wai Kika Moo Kau; not bad at all, would go back. Even if the conversation with the waitress was quite confusing. I asked for a burger with no bun (as stated on the goddamn menu) and she responded with a confused “No bun? You mean bread?” (English was not her native tongue either, but you’d think maybe she knew what the meny said..?) Yes well, the sweet potato + bean burger was very much approved.

Since I still had time to spend before the gig, I went down to the beach and walked and walked.

Picked up an excellent dinner consisting of a fruit cup and a bottle of fabulous orange/peach water (whyyy don’t we have still flavored water in Sweden?) on my way back to the hotel:final1510336784032

Which meant I still had enough time to slap on a wee mask before getting ready:


Despite its price, not crap, not at all.

More pricey, and unfortunately also not crap, the Urban Decay Naked Skin Concealer. So far, it seems to be as good as people say. Dammit! If only all expensive things were crap in nice wrapping. That’d make life slightly easier.


Slapped on makeup in my usual fashion, purple shadow this time, put on a flannel shirt and looked pretty much the way I always do:


Excellent choice of attire on my part; flannel shirt and shorts is exactly what you want at a sold out Concorde 2 in November. Just saying. Important to be comfortable when you’re going to be standing in a crowd for a few hours. As that in itself is trying enough.

Although lord know why I bothered with makeup. Putting on makeup to stand around in a dark room with a bunch of strangers? Yes. Makes perfect sense. (???)

Absolutely loved the show. It does not seem unreasonable at all to go from Sweden to the UK to see Deaf Havana, zero percent.

Let’s take a moment to admire the singer’s lovely new haircut:

another one from the very talented @thomaslislebrooker

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Apparently, being blond is a struggle. He told us all about it during the gig. Not sure at all what the context was. But ehm. If he’s not concerned with context, I guess that’s fine?

Other things I wonder: if you are trying to be less conspicuous, should you be wearing a yellow hoodie? Like the singer in that band starting with an A that I like did. At said gig. Or did he think it was cold and that was why he wore the hoodie up?

Moving on…


On Friday I used my phone to navigate me to the Green Kitchen where I had pancakes and the best cup of Earl Grey Cream I have had in my life. Do I regret not going back to Bluebird Tea to get a package? So much. Praying Kahl’s version of it is as good. Not that I need more tea, but still.

On my way to the North Laines, I stepped into another Superdrug, and ended up getting this lovely Makeup Revolution palette (because clearly I need more pink shades):


As for North Laines…it just stresses me out. I ended up going back to the beach; I’ve a zillion pictures of the ocean. As if. I’ve never seen a large body of water before.

Also, found my new favorite plant:

final1510430399459No idea what this is, but there was lots of it, and it’s creepy looking and I love it.

Another late lunch, no veggies but a large glass of rosé at Food for Friends:final1510430131536

Actually. I don’t understand why this pasta dish does not come with KALE. Yes. Two days is all it takes for me to start missing plates piled high with veggies.

On the topic of food, I also want to mention Purezza. I got to Brighton on Wednesday and headed directly to Purezza for one of their vegan pizzas.

I don’t generally eat pizzas. It’s not a vegan thing, they just didn’t appeal to me much beyond the age of about 15. But this, if this was a standard pizza, I’d be converted instantly:


Beets. Rocket. There was some vegan cheese there too (some is key here), it was absolutely lovely. I need to go back and try their desserts.

I was back in Sweden by Saturday evening. While I was quite happy to be back home, have I already tried to talk sis into booking another trip to the UK in 2018? Yes I have. Not that Brighton isn’t great, but I do want to go back to Glasgow next time. Provided someone worthwhile is playing. It’s not looking good.

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Four favorite singers

Annie Lennox. Every time I hear her cover of I put on a spell on you I can’t help to think Gawd I ♥ Annie Lennox. And I used to listen to it quite a lot over an extended period of time, it was in one of my workout classes. It was a good class.

Ann-Mari Edvardsen. At one point she was a singer in 3rd and Mortal, far as I know she only recorded one record with them, and I listen to it because of her performance only. There is something about it that is just a little off, and that’s exactly what I like about it.

Sivert Høyem. You know the guy from Madrugada? Lovely voice.

James Veck-Gilodi. Have I mentioned lately how excited I am about seeing Deaf Havana? To no small part because James Veck-Gilodi is just a brilliant, brilliant singer.

Although I should probably not have said anything. I’ll probably be hit with flight cancellation or some such shit.

Oh well.

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Currently listening to

Eminem suddenly appeared in my social feeds, as I’m sure he did in pretty much everyone else’s. That’s all I need to stick a few of his tracks in my playlists; be reminded of his existence. I sometimes forget. This is a nice one:

I’m also obsessed with Editor’s Papillion. The line “If there really was a God here,
He’d have raised a hand by now” is just so clever. Or maybe I just like this image? I like to read it literally.

I’m still playing Little Jinder quite regularly.  I love the track Ligger med en ful (English: Sleeping with someone ugly). She’s such a brilliant writer of titles. The title of the record this track is from: Allting suger (English: Everything sucks). It’s bitter and funny at the same time.

The Birthday Massacre’s Under Your Spell has quietly sneaked up as a favorite album this year; I have few playlists made this year that don’t include at least one song by the Birthday Massacre.

Deaf Havana is reworking their most recent album release, and have been releasing a few tracks off of it. Ashes, ashes is my favorite by far so far:

Not that I don’t like it, but I’m a bit confused as to why. The original record is perfection, can’t you just leave it alone?

PS. My favorite Korn album has also returned to Spotify. Which is both good and bad for me. 

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Det var då ett jävla tjat om hopp

Självklart har vi favoriten Gone with the Wind och raden hope is a prison, men också Untitled av samma band Hope is a dangerous thing. Tydligen lider de av ett behov att definiera begreppet.

Deaf Havana vill ha mer hopp: I’m not a pessimist but sometimes hope is missed or missing.

Roddy Hart har däremot massor av hopp I have such high hopes for you. Lite av en anomali i den här samlingen.

Ingen är såklart lika besatt av hopp som Amity Affliction. I n g e n. De verkar också ha ett ambivalent förhållande till hopp.

I Farewell menar man att There’s no hope left for me. Fast i början av samma skiva, spår tre för att vara exakt, tyckte man däremot att There is hope in my eyes; there is hope in these words. 

Ja alltså egentligen. Så skulle man ju kunna göra en hel lång lista av bara Amity, det finns många MÅNGA exempel att ta av. Från hela deras produktion.

Perfekt uppsatsämne, om det nu är något man är intresserad av.

This has been a quick course in how to alienate any readers; suddenly and without warning switch language.


Which, by the way, I think there are far to few of.

The struggles of an introvert

When you are a social retard and spend most of your time trying to work your life so that you’ll have as few IRL encounters with people as humanly possible, as any social situation always and without fail will make you feel, well, retarded, going to a gig is not a straight-forward process.

It has to be carefully researched, to make sure that it will be worthwhile braving crowds of people. You can’t just go because you like the band.

Heavens no.

Currently trying to figure out if I can/should/want to see Korn. Listening habits suggest attendance is mandatory:

There is no such thing as too much Korn

…but a number of other factors also need to be considered.

Can I have time off work? This includes would I call in sick for this band? Because I’m in the habit of making all arrangements and then asking for time off.

The times I’ve not gone on account of being unable to have time off are v. v. few.

I missed out on Amity Affliction in Gothenburg last year because work was making me go to Finland on a goddamn boat. But then they played a second date in Sweden later the same year, which I’ve mentioned going to here. So I can’t actually complain.

As for Korn, conveniently enough, they’re in Sweden during my summer holidays. So I already have time off. Perfect?

Where are they even playing? Now this is frequently where I find an excuse not to go. I strongly dislike most venues/cities.

This works in two ways; is it important enough for me to see this band live that I’m willing to overlook the poor choice of venue in addition to being in close proximity to people?

But sometimes, only somtimes, the venue itself is a reason to go. We’re talking about the classics. For example. If Korn were playing Barrowland Ballroom (in Glasgow obvs.), I’d have to go. (Where they did play this tour: SSE Hydro in Glasgow. Which was before I developed this obsession, i.e. was never an option.)

Where are they playing in August? Grönalund in Stockholm. Yea, that’s an amusement park. Venues don’t really get any worse than that. And, as I might have mentioned before, once, twice, fifty eleven times, I’m not a fan of Stockholm.

Bonus: you can’t get tickets in advance. If you want to go, get there early early early, stand in line as if it’s 1992. Not sure it’s something I do? I want to argue I’m too old, but if so, I was –always– too old for that.

Cost cost cost? This isn’t such a big deal, because when you travel to see the band the ticket is usually a minor cost. However, stupid choice of venue + 800 SEK ticket, that’s a NO in the majority of cases. Nick Cave + the Globe + 800 SEK tickets = No. For example.

The one thing that is good about Korn playing Grönalund: you only pay admission to the park. I.e. practically for free.

Worth noting: Elton John recently played Grönan. Chaos ensued, people complained about not being able to get in. Oh gee, what a surprise, who could have seen that coming???

I’ve no idea if Korn are as popular as Elton John in Sweden. I want to say no, because the heavy type of music doesn’t seem to be particularly popular in Sweden right now. But WHO KNOWS? It’s not as if they play anything even similar on the radio, which could have been some sort of indication.

What are they even playing? I like to check setlists. Some people like the surprise; I like to know that this particular setup of men are secure enough in themselves to not feel forced to be old-school and demonstrate that they’re much heavier than their latest release. As if there’s an equal sign between heavy and good. I’m not saying the opposite is true either. Just play what you’ve just created, ‘s all. Maybe with a few hits thrown in for good measure, that should do it.

In the case of Korn. At most, 4 songs from their latest release (depends if they’re doing festival or regular show setlist). None from The Paradigm Shift. I’m not surprised, just not happy about it.

As a whole, I find their current setlist confusing. But then I don’t fall into the true fan category. Nor the I’m going for the nostalgia category. I fall into the HI I’m new here category. And they’re clearly targeting the first two categories. Newbies need not bother, that’s what the setlist reads like.

I don’t understand this strategy at all. All, and I mean all, bands I’ve been watching lately play their new material for the main part. Way more than 4 measly songs. I guess Korn didn’t get the memo?

What are the gigs like? For obvious reasons, I will also watch clips or entire shows on YouTube. This is to avoid singers that make for a painful live experience (Manson), too metal (In Flames), put on too much of a show (In This Moment)—I’m not saying it’s bad, it’s just personal preference. Which is why there are quite a few bands I love but would never go see live. (…even if I have seen 2 of the 3 mentioned. But I won’t do it again! Probably.)

Now Korn. Not exactly intriguied. But also not annoyed. It is quite possible I would like it. I see potential. Not sure that’s enough of a reason though.

Deaf Havana, which I’ve just booked, was by comparison a far easier decision for the following reasons:

Brighton + Concorde 2! Sure, would have preferred Glasgow, but far better than Stockholm.
Reason to take time off from work in November!
Tickets under £20! In my opinion, basically a steal. I’ll have to buy some merch just to make sure they won’t starve.
Setlist: full of All These Countless Nights!

Do I need more reasons?

How about this one: I predict that by the end of the year All These Countless Nights will be on my best records of the year list.

Deaf Havana All These Countless Nights

One tiny but: just who the hell goes to the UK in November? Flight providers have pretty much decided no one; trying to find ways to get there and back required some assembly.

As for Korn, I’m going to have to realize it’s not meant to be. It’s too late.

Set obsession

There’s a new-ish feature on last.fm. Set obsession.

If you click the button Set obsession, last.fm will suggest a few tracks you might currently be obsessed with, but really, you can set it to anything.

Looks like this:

last-fm set obsession.png

I haven’t dared used this button because it feels like jinxing yourself. As in, you’ve found a track you love, set obsession and then you’ll just lose interest.

I’d say that’s not a desired outcome.

But if I dared use it, I’d set it to the following:

Korn; Love & Meth. If I start typing Love into the Spotify search box, it’ll give me Love & Meth immediately. So jaa.. I love the line Give me a reason ’cause I got nothing to gain, the way it’s sung and its hopelessness. Love me a good pessimistic song I do.

Also. I love Jonathan’s growling on this record. One of many reasons I think this record is underrated.

Deaf Havana; Pensacola, 2013. Might be the word (yeayea, name) itself. Pensacola. There is something so satisfying the in the pronounciation of this word.

It’s been a minute since I was as obsessed with a song as I was with BMTH’s Throne. But if Being As an Ocean’s Black & Blue was on Spotify, it’d be a strong contender:


Being picky, you could say that if you’re actually obsessed with a track, you should see it in your top tracks list, so the feature really is quite unnecessary. But I dunno. Maybe most people don’t use last.fm to the extent I do.


That being said. I just discovered Taylor Swift is now on Spotify (again?). Have been listening to Out of the Woods for the past hour or so. That’s. Not obsessive. At all.

I can’t stop. Help.