My sister called my attention to this new Eminem track over Christmas; immediately needed it in all my favorite playlists. It’s all the things I like about Eminem.
Had a sudden craving for some old Madonna, not sure what brought that on. General nostalgia? Apparently I really like the Like a Prayer album. The track Oh Father always makes me think of the clip of this song in In Bed with Madonna. Just me?
Ane Brun is pretty much the queen of covers; her song selection is flawless. Recently stumbled on this cover of Nick Cave’s Into My Arms.
Spotify Discover Weekly: You should listen to some Dead by Sunrise! Me: …but I did? AGESago. It wasn’t exactly…my cup of tea?
*listens to anyway just to make sure*
Me: Oh OK, you were right. This onetime.
Oh you know how I love Deaf Havana, most recent favorite track is off of the All These Countless Nights Reworked record: Pretty Low.
There are too many good songs on All These Countless Nights, they should have spread it out some.
As has been my habit the past few months, I’m posting topic suggestions for the following week on Sundays.
We should be getting back to regular routines; let’s do a Week in Life. Doesn’t have to be a detailed account, a line a day is plenty.
I also want to know what you’re listening to. What are the 5 tracks you most recently added to a playlist? Obviously you could lie and just pick 5 ones you want everyone to know about (excluding the ones you maybe don’t want people to know about, or the fact that you’re only listening to Bring Me the Horizon).
Final topic: 5 non-fiction books on my TBR.
Also. You might want to prep for a WCW next week. It has been too long since we talked about some brilliant women.
Best read all year! Would marry this book. Basically, it’s a story illustrating feminism in practice. Need I say more?
Second best reads:
Hunger by Roxane Gay. What’s funny/scary about this book is that even if you’re half the size of Roxane Gay, or smaller, you can still identify. Hela Kakan by Kakan Hermansson. Oh you know, feminism and that. I kroppen min by Kristian Gidlund. First person account of what it’s like to know you’re dying. Vad ska en flicka göra? by Annika Lantz. A funny take on cancer. Raven rings by Siri Pettersen. Especially book 2 where they quote NIN. I loved that book. That Changes Everything by Naomi Klein. People don’t change, not really, but this book got me thinking and reviewing some of the things I do. Fördömd by Johanne Hildebrandt. It’s like..if Indiana Jones was a woman and lived in present day Sweden. Kinda. Mr Darcy’s Diary by Amanda Grange. Pride & Prejudice from Mr Darcy’s point of view. På A svarar jag hejdå by Nina Hemmingsson. THIS:
Speaking of reading: got myself a Storytel subscription, which is what has kept me “reading” this year. If it wasn’t for audio books, I would have read pretty much nothing.
Under huden med Kakan Hermansson. Feminism + beauty, an unholy unity, according to certain feminists. And they’re not exactly wrong.
Penntricket. More feminism! Hoping for another season in the year to come. Although it is unlikely they’ll top the fourth episode about hating men. Maybe they did the right thing calling it quits?
PMS-podden! Sure, I only just started listening to it, but it is hours and hours all about PMS. Pretty much my main interest in life.
Puma ignite trainers. Best trainers I’ve had in a while. Will repurchase!
Jeans. To be clear: black and only black. (The horror that anyone would think I’d run around in blue jeans.) I’ve abandoned my dresses and skirts for jeans; did not see that one coming.
Now. If I had any sort of blogging skills, I would have prepped pics before Sweden entered into the darkness-24-hours-a-day period. This is me trying to get a shot of my newest pair, a pair of skinny high waists at noon in front of a window:
Not that it helps that all my walls are dark. And the jeans are black. But still. Love these jeans, perfect length and oddly a high waist that works for me. Unheard of! I’ve thus far hated all high waisted jeans.
Not that it matters. I think we all know what black jeans look like. Absolutely love pairing them with this striped top too.
A favorite outfit; long green top, black leggings, platform sling-backs, frilly choker.
Green top with red hair, love this combo! Also works real well with the purple hair.
No7 pore minimizing primer. The more other primers I try out, the more I like the No7 pore minimizing primer. Does its job, is budget friendly, what’s not to love?
Wearing no brows.
Waiting for y’all to catch up. (KIDDING. Apparently it’s me and Manson; even Sarah Hawkinson abandoned us. Oh no wait, and Jenny Mustard. OK so maybe there’s a few of us…) I need to dig out that yellow, and those metallics. I wonder what shade that is. Is it..blue..?
Body Shop Camomile Cleansing Butter.
Made me quit face wipes! This stuff is not only better for the environment, but a more efficient product that is kinder to the skin.
Pixi’s Glow Mud Cleanser + Mud Mask.
The cleanser is my AM cleanser, the one I use when I don’t wear makeup. It’s kinda like washing your face with a clay mask, which might be obvious and probably seems strange but oh, I for one love this. I am abandoning my regular foaming cleansers for clay.
As for the mask, I wanted to love other mud masks, but I kept dreaming about the Glow Mud Mask. So ja…
Makeup Revolution New-trals vs neutrals.
The only palette I need! Up until now, I’ve been in a habit of adding at least one single shadow, or a quad, to whatever palette I think I can make do with. No longer the case! Not that I don’t love my other shades, I do, but this is all I need.
B. bronzer + Urban Decay Naked Skin concealer (+ Superdrug hair therapy oil with argan)
Who thought I’d add bronzer to my makeup routine at this point in life? Not me, to be sure? And the concealer, it is, unfortunately, v. v. good.
No powder. Because I’m old and my skin suddenly decided it doesn’t like it. At all. Funny thing: doesn’t seem to be any shinier than usual. Or maybe I’m learning to love my natural dewiness. Here’s hoping!
Superdrug argan oil. Best hair oil I’ve tried so far. 100% in love!
Manic panic purple haze + vampire red. Makes for the perfect purple hair color. For me. But I’ll probably stick with the brown + red combo for a bit longer. Not that the straight purple was bad at all.
Me: Looks v. v. different! Camera: …except for it doesn’t tho.
Maria Nila hair spray. I’ve struggled with hair sprays. They’re never quite right. This one tho! Nice smell, good hold, does not seem to causing any hair damage, it’s a keeper!
Soft water. Even better for the hair than cold rinse. I count myself lucky to have access to stoft water, even if it’s not in my home.
Finally figured out how to make waves using the flat iron. Was v. pleased with this wee wave!
Single-handedly makes all other bands on Twitter look really bad. Or at least severely boring. This is a universal truth, right? It has nothing to do with my love of sarcasm?
YouTubers I’ve been watching religiously
Kiera Rose. Bit of vegan, bit of beauty, do you need more reasons? Sarah Hawkinson. Could watch only because she has the best red hair ever. And I like her taste in music. And she’s one of those people who cares, about a lot of things, which I guess I admire. Jamie Genevieve. If I’m being honest, mostly watching for the Scottish and sneak peeks of Glasgow, but she is wicked good at makeup. Difficult makeup. The kind that I’m just never going to do. Holly Exley. You should know I love Holly by now. Tashina Combs/Logical Harmony. Mainly watching because her site logicalharmony.net is one of my go-to resources for finding out if a brand is cruelty free or not. So ja, that’s what she does, cruelty-free beauty. Rhian Hy. Vegan cruelty-free beauty. Mostly. Cheap Lazy Vegan. Tips on being a cheap lazy vegan! Qcknd. Got sucked in by her moving vlogs. Made me feel fortunate to have been born in Sweden. Aaaand…she’s had a lengthy rant about the Cure and dyes her hair in fun colors. Thataylaa. She knows the makeup. No 1 authority when it comes to foundations I would say. Lily Melrose. These days, she mostly does fashion-related content, and some vlogs. I’m not super interested in fashion, but it’s one of those channels Leila. You should be seeing a theme here. I like the YouTubers with a conscious. Hannah Witton. Talks a lot about hormones, thus the basis of her appeal. Helen Anders. This lady, super creative, I am so impressed, and I’m not easily impressed. Also absolutely love her quirky style.
Yes. And those aren’t the only ones I watch. Explains why I’m not exactly missing subscribing to any video streaming services.
Non-YouTube moving picture bits
One more time with feeling. Might be the best music documentary ever. Because of the pace. Because it includes the music off of Skeleton Tree.
Girls. Favorite episode might still be the Matthew Rhys episode. Might be.
Vikings. I’m still disappointed that they’re not incorporating the stories Johanna Hildebrandt tell in her books, which are set in the same era, but I take what I can get.
The Mindy Project. It’s..funny?
Regin. Still upset they killed off Francis and kept Sebastian. But I do love this series.
Handmaid’s Tale. Oh it was lovely, regardless of how closely it follows the book, so well done.
What the Health. It is vegan propaganda; I like vegan propaganda, I need vegan propaganda, as do you. Just FYI.
GB vegan ice cream. Best vegan ice cream yet! Bar mebbe the sorbets at Terre à Terre.
Cool oats. I’m a big fan of the cold porridge; started out as a practical solution, turned into something I do always when having porridge.
On to my favorite categories! The categories literally no one cares about; the only end of the year lists I’m interested in and will search for on purpose: the music categories.
I mean really, I take this seriously. This is a page from my planner:
Notes on what albums were released this year and which I’ve listened to at least once.
Also, still waiting for Robyn to release that track on Girls, Honey. What is taking so long??
Like last year, I have three clear favorites:
All these countless nights by Deaf Havana. I’ve no words. I just love this record. I don’t understand how it hasn’t made Deaf Havana HUGE (..although I do appreciate that that is not the case, on a personal level), is it poor marketing??
Waiting for morning to come by Being as an Ocean. Did not expect this release to match my taste so perfectly. There is something about it that reminds me of what I used to like/listen to in the 90s, but with a touch of what I like in today’s music (let’s just call it post-hardcore). Requires absolutely no effort for me to love. I’m going to go ahead and call it underrated.
Under Your Spell by the Birthday Massacre. Did not see this one coming. I know of and listen to Birthday Massacre, but mostly random songs at random times. I’ve been listening to this album on repeat.
Note to self: just fucking stand up front. Never mind the fact that I’m too old; I’m sure no one can tell in the dark anyway.
Bullet Journal. Still doing it. Slightly less passionate about it, but I don’t seem interested in giving it up.
Regular periods. On the one hand, means I can add less hormones to the ones I’ve already got wrecking havoc in my body, and that is a good thing, on the other, come on, do we have to bleed this often, really? Aren’t we too old?
Decluttered my CDs. Not a minute too soon.
Skincare obsession. A result of my usual makeup no longer sitting well on my skin. It’s my most expensive hobby yet, which is unfortunate.
…this was a while ago now. It’s expanded and become unmanageable in the space I have available. Good thing the bathroom in my new place is bigger. Just need to be patient…and stop buying stuff.
Learned how to turn off retweets. Which still means I can’t follow Roxane Gay because when she tweets she just dominates my entire feed which is a problem. Might I suggest a different medium? Blog? I’d follow!
Body pump. May it be forever this time. Or at least lifting weights. Or at least until I move because bit more strength, it would come in handy when moving (yes HI I’m super practical).
Brighton in November.
Looking forward to in 2018
MOVING. Which means I also have to sell my current place which makes me sad and nervous. Am looking forward to downsizing tho! (..in theory..?)
Following the move, I can start dying my hair again.
Seeing my cycle analysis in Clue. Yes! I am overly interested in all things menstruation! It’s what happens when you start noticing just how controlled you are by your hormones. I’m trying to work out a way to work with my hormones rather than against them, which thus far has not been the case.
Hibernate? I just want to settle into my new place and enjoy being able to go to the gym at all times and wash my hair at home.
…I mean I’d like to go to Scotland. And I’d like to see NIN. But I’d also like not being broke, which is the inevitable result of moving.
I know I may have suggested in this one post to skip the December summary, but I do love the end of month summaries, and anyway, it’s inconsistent to skip a month. Can’t have that, can we?
New track from Casey!
Even more exciting; they’re releasing a new album in March. Hoping there’ll be at least one tour date that works for me. Hoping for Scotland? Well obviously.
You know when Spotify sort of gets stuck, and every morning you open it you have the same tracks in queue? Despite the fact you’ve already been through that very queue. I’ve been stuck on Storm the Sky for weeks. Not that I mind. This one is a favorite:
And my obsession with this (old) Deaf Havana track is bordering on embarrassing:
If I had sense I’d be embarrassed, unfortunately for me, I do not.
I’ve been a bit bored with makeup lately, bored and uninventive, but I recently got back to the halo and I’m seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
Very much inspired by this lady:
Speaking of makeup, best quote relating to makeup comes from Jamie Genivieve who argued that “Makeup should make you look unapproachable.” YES! That’s exactly it! I keep saying I want makeup to make me look angry, but unapproachable is much closer to what I really mean.
This time, I went for a dark brown + red combo; I’m planning ahead, preparing to phase out the red. Actually really liked the brown (as in “how is this not my natural color??”). Bonus points for way simpler application than the Manic Panic dye. You use it on dirty, dry hair, and shampoo it afterwards. Leaves no traces of dye, unlike the Manic Panic. Which is nice, for a change.
Beauty Sick by Renee Engeln. OK so this isn’t exactly a favorite, but I want to mention it because I think it has the potential to be somebody’s favorite. The reason it’s not my favorite is I like women who are angry and/or upset. If Engeln is either, she hides it very well. By which I mean, she’s objective, like the researcher she is.
I was also expecting to get a good shouting to in this book, as someone interested in beauty. That is not the case at all. Instead, what Engeln argues is our current obsession with beauty is just out of proportion and we need to dial it back because it is not doing us any good, quite the opposite in fact. But also, beauty is never going to be something the human being is capable of disregarding completely. It’s not within the possibilities of our body.
Despite it not being a favorite, I do recommend giving it a read, especially if you are interested in beauty.
Hatet [English: The hatred] by Maria Sveland. You should know by now that I ♥ Sveland. This book is about present day antifeminism in Sweden, disguised as “equality”, trying to use misdirection, to distract from issue at hand, talking about an imagined “hatred of men” as some sort of threat to society, when in fact the hatred of women is currently, literally, killing women. There are men who genuinely think men are subordinate to women.
Yes. We all know that all positions of power in society are held by women. Women make more money than men. Mm. Yes. We all. Know that. Is the reality. (??????)
Begs the question, are these men and women stupid or mentally ill? Their world does not seem to resemble our world. I’m hoping mentally ill. There’s a chance therapy would work, right? Because reasoning with them, it’s clearly like talking to a wall. Well actually, a wall would be better. A wall is quiet, it gets that saying nothing is sometimes the best thing to do.
So basically, very upsetting book on an important subject, and brilliantly written too.
This also a favorite because it reminded me of a few brilliant people I should be following on social media. (Gudrun Schyman z.B. The fact that she is not the president of Sweden is plenty evidence that we’re severely deficient in the gender equality department. Never mind that we don’t do presidents in Sweden.)
PMS-podden! Hours and hours and hours about PMS! I didn’t know about this one before because??? They talk all about the hormones and try out different methods of reducing PMS, it’s just all sorts of brilliant! Also introduced a new word into my vocabulary menshybris, literally menstruation hubris, although I’d probably translate it as pre-ovulation invincibility because it refers to the feeling of invincibility that you get between the end of your period and ovulation. Or maybe pre-ovulation energy peak? A.k.a. the only time I want to be alive.
I’m really not doing a good job sticking to the subject in this post.
Never mind, moving on!
I loved this run-through of different perspectives and ways of reasoning when it comes to cruelty free. What especially strikes a chord with me is as a vegan, you do still go to restaurants that are not vegan, and you ask for the vegan option, and let them know there is a demand for vegan options. This way of reasoning can be applied to companies that are cruelty-free but whose parent company does test on animal. It’s still a vote for the cruelty-free.
Let’s also have a friendly reminder:
Icebugs. What are icebugs? Icebugs is a type boot with warm lining, waterproof and with traction for grip on icy surfaces. 2017 is showing no mercy. This time last year I was still walking around in my Vagabond high top sneakers; it wasn’t that cold, it wasn’t that icy and it definitely wasn’t that wet. This year; all of that, ALL OF IT.
Best music rant in a while
I’ve been noting for a while now that *whinar* (well-known Swedish beauty blogger) is the best at retweets. I loveher retweets. They have nothing to do with beauty, unless I’m mistaken, they’re of a more political persuasion. For example:
De rika måste ha mer pengar för att vilja arbeta. De fattiga mindre för att vilja arbeta. Det är liberalismen. Det är avskyvärt.
Finally got myself some earl grey cream. There isn’t much to brag about where I live, but our tea shop is top notch! This earl grey cream is every bit as good as the fancy earl grey cream I had in Brighton.
Monthly menstrual report
I’ve researched how the menstrual cycle affects exercise. This article is quite informative if you’re interested in knowing more. Not quite what I’m looking for though; I’m looking for specific instructions on how to deal with exercise and different hormonal levels for non-athletes in combination with PCO. So ja, v. v. specific.
At the very least, I’d like to know if I can use Provera to ease some of my issues, or would it help to be back on the pill? ALSO, do I need to up my supplements? Reintroduce magnesium and vitamin D?
There are sources suggesting carb cycling as a solution (my eating disordered brain is all YESYES! DO THAT!); more/regular amount of carbs pre-ovulation, lower intake post ovulation. Which would help with water retention, which, I’m suspecting, is a major reason why, for example, the Wednesday class is a breeze pre-ovulation, and so difficult I have to cheat to get through it post ovulation.
Or maybe I should just go to a different class? Or no class? (Please say no class.)
I.e. PMS was bad this month. I guess the trade-off is the period itself hasn’t been that bad for a while.Obviously not counting the first day of the period when I decided it was a good idea to go to a class at 9 in the morning with extra focus on cardio and I just wanted to die because I had literally no energy. In hindsight, shouldn’t I have been able to guess that would be the case?? Especially since I was also completely depleted of energy the days before the period. Order is not restored magically over night just because you get your period. I should know that.
I’ve been away for a while, and I’m set to catch up on all the facial masks I’ve missed.
Gawd the Boots Tea Tree & Witch Hazel Charcoal Mask is the mask that just never ends! And it’s a small tube too. You’d think I’d just chuck it, considering the fact that I genuinely hate it.
But no, that would be wasteful. Instead I shall suffer for my stupidity.
The only way it has some use is by combining it with the Kicks vitamin C peeling pads. I imagine that it locks in the C vitamin, gives the skin a chance to absorb, and it’s an excuse to wash the face post peeling pads, because they do have a sticky residue.
So this is not a bad combo, it’s a way to use two products I’m not all that fond of.
Might be the mask I missed the most! The Body Shop Chinese Ginseng & Rice Clarifying Polishing Mask. This is such a lovely combination of clay and exfoliation. I usually use it for the exfoliating properties, but it’s the combination that makes it special. And they’ve stuck some glycerin in it. I do like it when they stick glycerin in things you put on your face. So far, if there’s glycerin in it, you can be sure that it will do you at very least some good.
Another double threat; an enzyme peel from Emma S. followed by Paula’s Choice Radiance Renewal Mask. The enzyme peel is a quick little mask, a minute is all it takes, the PC-mask I wear over night. If I was less cheap I’d just skip night cream and go for this every night. It does make your skin look radiant, or at least less like your actual 30+-year-old skin.
I’ve mentioned this mask before, the REN Clarimatte. It’s on the less cheap side, but worth every penny! If you’re concerned with pores, and like masks that will give your skin a good clean out, you’ll like this one.
In Sweden, rice porridge (well, the rest of the world would probably refer to it as rice pudding, but whatever) is the traditional breakfast on Christmas eve.
I wasn’t keen.
Instead, I went with my regular protein boosted vegan pancakes (i.e. scoop of protein powder per serving) and a mix of lingonberry and raspberries, extra cinnamon and a bit of shredded coconut. Because lingonberry, makes everything Christmas-y, right?
(Also, lingonberries are extremely sour, would probably not recommend. Just. So you know.)
Next. This little guy decided it was sitting still time, for a couple of hours:
He’s taken quite the liking to sitting on my lap and using my knees as pin boards. To a point where one knee is now so sore I rather not stand on it. Worried I’ve got some sort of infection, like the anxious, anxious person I am? You bet!
We have a tree. My dad cut it in November. My mother was concerned all the needles were going to fall off pretty much right away. Apparently they didn’t.
Favorite tree decoration:
We’re like a family of crazy cat ladies. Proof: we don’t do Christmas presents anymore. Lack of interest. Only ones who got presents were the cats. They’re weren’t exactly interested either tho. This face says it all:
First drink of the evening! While waiting for my parsnips to roast, had a mix of pomegranate juice, bit of lime, ginger beer, and a splash of vodka. Recommend! But then I like all gingery drinks.
As per usual, we have a buffé, this is pre entrance of all the meats (my family, sadly not on board with the vegan, extremely frustrating).
This was what I had:
Kale! To make it Christmasy; seasoned with cinnamon, might sound gross and all sorts of wrong, personally though, I really did like it. Also seasoned my hummus with cinnamon, and lingonberry. It was slightly less successful, turns out it needed a stronger spice; added some smoked paprika later on which fixed it. Had it on a slice of my mom’s homemade rye bread, the bread she makes every Christmas. Also: the aforementioned parsnips, mixed with beluga lentils and a mustard vinaigrette, bit of Jansson (a sort of potato gratin, made vegan with oat cream and ground cloves, traditionally it’s made with a anchovy) and a salad consisting of beets, potatoes, and carrots.
We also had a bottle of Puycheric with the food. It’s just not as delish as it was when they launched. I’m just about giving up on it. It used to be my favorite rosé. I don’t care that it’s still racking up the awards. Not. The same.
Was v. pleased with my makeup. But. Due to the complete lack of daylight, no idea how to show it. It all comes out as grainy mess:
Not that I don’t like grainy mess. I ♥ grainy mess. But it doesn’t really show anything of what I liked about it: the purple gold combo, the perfect base (for being me), you can barely even tell I’m wearing both eyeliner and eyebrows (sister said, so I did).
It’s not that important.
Also loved my black fuzzy jumper, it was something as odd as too warm for me. That never happens.
I am a very simple person. Here’s something I’m looking forward to massively in 2018:
Starting to use my new planner.
Yes, I’m still doing a bullet journal of sorts, it keeps getting simpler though. I’ve done away with quite a lot of lists/trackers.
Originally, I thought old planners would be kinda nifty to see what I was doing this time (whatever time that may be) last year. Especially for work. Because we do certain tasks once or twice a year, so you know, as a reminder.
However, so far, that’s not really necessary. So once I’m done with a planner I chuck it. Which is actually kind of nice, there is something to be said for having fewer possessions. Getting rid of things you no longer use is key in keeping things from accumulating. Means you never have to declutter (gawdI’m clever).
So. New planner!
I’m sticking with my blank IKEA notebooks, still feels like the right size for my uses.
For 2018, I’ve put the calendex behind a dutch door.
One of few trackers I’m keeping: working hours.
I do have one more simple tracker, this one:
And I’m giving the Wants-list another go.
And I’ve set up a page to track album releases:
Future log is a must, obviously.
Folder also comes in handy:
First few weekly spreads:
Point of this post: just a friendly reminder you don’t have to be an artist to draw up your own calendar.
It’s probably more fun if you are, but it’s not a requirement.
Musikhjälpen (English: Music Aid) is obviously my favorite Christmas charity. (Is it clear this isn’t a charity for Christmas, it’s just it takes place around Christmas?)
This year’s edition started last night (it’s a weekly affair), and the theme is Children are not for sale.
What I like about it is, again, obviously, that it’s a fun event, there’s the music connection—generally, music on the radio is never as good as it is during this one week—and you donate by texting song requests and any amount you’d like to donate (well, there is a SEK 50 minimum). I.e. donating is easy.
It’s a great idea, no??
Not that they play all requests. But you (i.e. I) keep hoping that they’ll catch on one of these days and want to play Thrice’s Black Honey…and if not. Well it doesn’t really matter does it? I can listen to Black Honey any old time.
…although part of me can’t help but to think we’re going about this the wrong way. I’m not saying we shouldn’t donate money, but children are being sold because of poverty. A poverty which is the result of this absolutely marvelous capitalist system we’re living in. Donating money isn’t going to solve the problem.
But I guess a temporary relief shouldn’t be frowned upon.
I also want to round up the people selling and buying the children and beat them with a bat. Also pretty sure I’m not the only one. Now. Could we get someone to organize this?
I do love me some tips on sustainability, here’s a recent like:
A slightly less recent one, but also including sustainability tips:
And one unexpected tip, not only eco-friendly but also I really liked this makeup look, simple enough for me to do, and close enough to what I usually wear/products I have in my possession so I won’t have to buy new things, whichI like!
That’s it. I guess?
Call for: more sustainability tips in my feeds. They seem to be lacking. Who do you follow for tips on how to have a more sustainable Christmas??