The Happiness Tag

This tag is slightly overdue as I’ve been away from my desktop. Yeayea, I know it is possible to post via mobile devices but I just cannot be arsed. Too much effort. For me.

I was tagged by Lise, now let’s go!

The rules

  • List five things that makes you happy
  • Share five songs that makes you happy
  • Tag at least five bloggers that makes you happy

Five things

Coming home. I wasn’t far away. I’ve been staying at my parent’s house the past week, keeping the cats company while my parents were off hiking. It was nice, it is still home in a way. Even so. Coming home home, to my apartment, makes me v. v. happy. I want to argue that it’s because for my uses, my home is practical. Practical makes me happy.

And also. My things. People who say things don’t make you happy lie. They do. It might be temporary, but still. I take anything I can get.

Cat company. I always feel so special when cats choose to hang out with me. In truth, I’m about as special as a piece of furniture, but never mind that! Prefer it when they choose to lie next to me tho, as opposed to on.

This guy, for example, does not generally keep this distance:

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He prefers to be as close to your face as is possible. For me, this is the perfect distance. Means you can get up and make a cup of tea, do a load of laundry, water the plants, or any of the bizillion things my brain comes up with. It doesn’t seem to be a big fan of sitting still for more than 15 minutes at a time.

Feminists. In general. Feminists are without a doubt some of the funniest people. A recent example: assholesonline. Let me explain. This account is run by Linnea Claesson. She receives a threat from some guy, as per usual, this one says he’s going to “get his boys and visit her” unless she takes down a picture she’s posted. She refuses. Which is enough for me to cheer.

It gets better.

She posts this little clip (watch watch watch!):

The sign on the door reads Welcome Fredrik (name of the guy) and in brackets and his boys. In the caption she’s written I don’t get visitors too often so I’m VERY excited! 

The fact that someone had this idea at all makes me insanely happy.

It doesn’t end here.

Dinner with Fredrik and his boys. She’s set the table and is waiting.

As I was saying. Feminists are hilarious.

Super enthusiastic people. You know, people like Beth Ditto.

 

Vegan option! A vegan option that has been making me quite happy lately, is this ice cream:

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This is not only the best vegan ice cream, it is better than their non-vegan ice cream. I.e. it is creamier, and the flavor is all there.

PS. They also make dairy and soy free ice cream, in case you’re not a fan of the soy. It has a rice base and it’s just as nice.

Future plans. As in future plans to have time off work to go somewhere to see a band.

If I thought some more about going to the UK to see Deaf Havana, I’d be a slightly less miserable person. Can’t quite seem to remember to tho.

Five songs

In general, happy songs do not make me happy.

There is one glaring exception: Die Ärzte. I can’t quite explain this. I don’t think they do anything except for happy songs. Is it because I read their happy as sarcasm?

I’ve already mentioned their Monsterparty which always and without fail puts a smile on face because it’s beyond ridiculous, but I guess 3-Tage-Bart isn’t far behind?

…and you kinda need to understand German for this to make any sense at all. If it wasn’t for the lyrics, I’d never listen to this. In fact I didn’t, until my German was good enough for me to understand what the songs were about.

The type of songs that frequently do make my happy, are songs like Stray from the Path’s First World Problem Child.

Because aggressive. I like it.

There is also something about Diamanda Galás that makes me happy. Her mere existence makes me happy.

Like feminists, that someone would even think about doing what she does, it makes me happy. For example, she did an entire record of screaming, called Schrei X. It not exactly made for everyday listening, you probably can’t listen to it more often than you would watch a movie. It’s a performance piece I would say.

This is one of her more accessible tracks:

I’m also going to list Thrice’s Black Honey. Because. Not only is it a great track, which in itself is enough to make a person happy, but also. Every time I’ve been to see Architects they play it pre-show, and it makes me v. v. happy to have someone other than myself playing me this song.

Also. Miserable/depressing songs make me happy. Amity Affliction, they just do it so, so well.

 

Tag

Hitherdither? You up for it?

What vegans eat; fake meat

Fake meat; sometimes I hate it and sometimes I love it.

Right now, friggin love it! Not only because the high protein content makes my life so much easier, but also, they seem to have upped their game. It comes already seasoned and the texture is nice. That didn’t use to be the case.

4 favorite fake meat meals

Vegobitar (English: vegetarian pieces)

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Basically a soy product pretending to be pieces of chicken. I don’t think that it would fool a carnivore, but that’s hardly the point.

What I do with this is easy.

Just take a few favorite veggies, chop them up, fry in a pan together with the veggie bites and some garlic, add some bean pasta and aubergine puree and you’re done.

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Green and purple foods. Have I mentioned it’s a favorite?

Soy sausage

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I was never big on sausage. But oh. This one, it is not bad. It’s pretending to be a chorizo; can’t say if it does a good job or not. I never had chorizo.

Again, I’m basically lazier than Cheap Lazy Vegan. However, unfortunately for me, not as cheap. But when it comes to this sausage, no regrets.

I just make a sort of ratatouille to go with it. Sort of means frying some broccoli, all of it! The stem is the best part. Add aubergine and a red pepper, fry until aubergine starts to look the way you like it, add sausage along with some crushed tomatoes with garlic (can’t even be bothered to add the garlic myself apparently..), and a bit of oregano. Let it heat up for a couple of minutes.

Serve up with a slice of wholegrain toast and tomatoes.

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K*ckl*ng (English: Ch*ck*n)

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Another chicken type product. Soy again, and again, I don’t think anyone would mistake this for chicken, and if you’re trying to avoid chicken, that’s going to be a relief.

Some of my usual suspects, i.e. green in the form of asparagus, and what was left of that head of purple cabbage, plus a couple of carrots. Just fry up with garlic, obvs, lime pepper and wasabi sesame. Serve with extra sesame seeds and a bit of roasted garlic mayo (currently obsessed, yesssss).

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Bonus: as I was tidying up I found a small piece of glass on the counter. Clearly from one of the containers I was using. Lunch is going to be exciting! Will I or won’t I cut up all of my insides because there’s glass in my food!?! Nobody knows!

Soy mince

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Don’t you just love any product that clearly states it’s vegan?

To be fair, it is also great when I use my eyes to read the packaging. I just discovered I’ve been having a fake meat that is in fact not vegan. Was egg in it. So that’s great.

Not this one though! Clearly vegan, and not something I eat -that- often. I was never in the habit of using mince. For the most part, I’m more likely to just use lentils.

Not because this is a bad product, it’s not at all. Nice consistency, carries flavors well, healthy, what more could you possibly ask for?

So I thought up this combination:

Cut up a medium sized squash, one red pepper, and one small aubergine, mix it around in some vegetable stock, a tablespoon of oil (I used the oil my sun dried tomatoes were in), oregano, and garlic granules. Stick in the oven, about 250 degrees for 22 minutes.

Meanwhile, cook 90 g of couscous, mix in a bit of sun dried tomatoes and defrost the mince in a pan with some cumin, salt and pepper.

This will serve about 3 people.

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Was not unhappy with this meal.

July

There are no post I like to write as much as the end-of-month summaries/favorites. Also fave thing to read. (Except for feminist rants, there’s nothing quite like feminist rants.) If it was up to me, it’d be mandatory. Especially the this is the culture I’ve consumed this month part.

This is what I’ve been up to in July.

Listened to

In This Moment! Especially loved this cover of In the Air Tonight, been listening to on repeat repeat repeat, even if the album Ritual as a whole is well worth a listen.

How is Being as an Ocean’s Black & Blue not on Spotify??

One of these days, I’ll learn to love more than their singles. I hope.

I have been listening to Korn a fair bit, but 2 minutes of Fieldy’s biography put a dampener on my obsession. Good news: no longer have any urge what so ever to see this band play. N E V E R going to happen.

Am, however, sulking about having no plans in place to see Architects + Amity Affliction in Hungary on 15 August. I need more Amity in my life.

This remix of Linkin Park’s One More Light:

Should have been the original.

And oh, fave track off of the new Lana del Rey release has got to be 13 Beaches.

Slightly disappointed I’m not really in the mood for Lana because I want to love this record. But I don’t.

Penntricket! You know the feminist pod in Swedish which it makes absolutely no sense what so ever to write about in English? That one. Best episode since the one about hating men; an episode entirely on menstruation! Just missing one thing that they never mentioned: menstruation is a kinda nifty indication of your health. Clue read my mind and did a post on it here. Penntricket talked about menstruation as a life force—Clue compares it to having a pulse, which is closer to the mark I feel. Your menstruation can tell you a lot about your general health, which isn’t mentioned nearly enough. No instead we focus on weight as a measure of health. SIGH.

Watched

Friends from College. Netflix thought I might like it. Netflix was WRONG. Don’t waste your time on it. Really. Don’t.

One More Time with Feeling. There’s a little extra thing on the DVD about boredom where Nick Cave slags off Metallica and assures us it’s OK to be bored. It’s funny.

To the Bone. It’s on Netflix, about a girl with anorexia. I quite liked it. Ending was a bit weird tho.

If I was going to recommend you one short little video to watch from this month, I’d say give this one a watch:

It’s just nice to have someone, anyone at all, say that it’s OK to not do things sometimes. That it doesn’t mean you’re missing out on life, it just means you have other interests and/or priorities.

Vegan things

I started following Peta on Twitter. That would be another reason why I’m a bad vegan; I have not been following Peta.

It’s an excellent reminder if you ever feel you’re starting to lose track of why you’re vegan to begin with. It’s also, frequently, incredibly hard to have them in your feed. They like to be graphic. Multiple posts showing the maltreatment if animals every. single. day.

I used say I’d probably not be vegan for the rest of my life when asked, because I’ve been around long enough to know I change my mind a lot. But if you’d ask me right now the answer is YES. VEGAN. ALWAYS.

Coconut oil. I just remembered just how brilliant coconut oil is. Favorite uses: pancakes + popcorn. Oh the pancakes and popcorn wasted using other fats…

K*ckl*ng. Astrid & Aporna! I hate it when food brands do some vegan products and not all, it’s nonsensical and annoying. Astrid & Aporna is not one of them, they do all vegan. I’m currently loving the fake meat which they excel at, and k*ckl*ng is brilliant for a spicy coconut milk type sauce. Texture is so, so nice.

technically, water is vegan. So let’s stick it in this category; I’ve been loving elder flower water an awful lot. Unfortunately not good for the environment, but hey ho

Changes

Finally found the Twitter setting where you can turn off retweets. Finally! Means I can follow certain people (a.k.a. bitter old men, who are my age, by w/e) who seem to have a need to retweet their entire feed. I appreciate that you’re enthusiastic and all, but, kinda want to be able to see my own feed too, you know?

Still looking for a way to get other people’s likes out of my feed. It’s nice to see it every one in a while, but all of them? All the time? Please no?

It’s not looking good though. (Dear Twitter, HOW IS THIS EVEN A DEFAULT SETTING???) Think I might have found a setting which hides my own likes though? Just because I figure if it annoys me, it might annoy others. I might be a person who clicks the like button too frequently on Twitter. Possibly.

Changed blog layout. As one should every now and again, if for no other reason then so that you don’t forget how to.

Layout of my phone. Because I had to reset it. Because it kept insisting I had no space despite deleting apps + transferring data to my SD card like a crazy person and. it. was not. helping. Also, this comes with the perk of being forced to update all passwords. Supposedly good for you.

Also to be noted: I think it’s Spotify that’s taking up all the space. It says it’s saving to my SD card. But I’ve no reason to believe it. I.e., next phone will not a Sony. It lies to me.

Tried the ACO CC cream. It’s been a while since I tried a new makeup product, which is why this gets a special mention. That and I was quite excited. Not only because it’s been a while, but because the CC cream says it’s a day cream, primer and foundation all rolled into one. Sounds great no!?

I tried it for 2 reasons:

  1. I was out of day cream and wanted to try something new because I can’t quite decide what my skin is like at the moment. This one isn’t for a specific skin type, so that appealed to me.
  2. My current combination of products does not fare well in the heat so I just wanted something else.

It doesn’t exactly do everything it promises. And as far as CC creams go, I’ve had better. But it does work well enough as a replacement for day cream + primer, which reduces my routine by one step so I guess it could be worse.

Monthly menstrual report

I feel like the most regular person ever!?!

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If this keeps up, I will have to learn how to use a menstrual cup. (Please no? I’m old, I can’t be learning new things.)

Next month

Definitely not seeing Korn. Nor Amity or Architects.

Am getting my apartment photographed. Selling prep. Still don’t want to think about moving. I also need to prepare a list of all updates I’ve done since moving in, for tax reasons. Such fun!

I’m also going to start working for a research center. Should appreciate and look forward to. But I don’t.

Keep hoping someone will get me out of it.

Students ask a lot of questions

Students. They like to ask us questions.

It’s making me miserable.

Can I study this off-campus programme off-campus?

??? That’s not self-explanatory ???

Can I apply to this course when the application is closed?

What kind of answer are you expecting..? YES! You seem an especially fabulous person we shall break all rules for you! Just you! Yes? Or you think that we have available places that we’re hiding? Becuase we don’t really want our courses full?

Why have you changed the selection criteria?

So if our selection criteria were different in 2013…then that makes a difference to your current application…?

How does guaranteed admission work?

This question is currently trending. We didn’t use to get lots and lots of questions about this. Aaand…it’s not self-explanatory? If we guarantee admission we garantee admission? You pass the courses and you’re guaranteed a place on one of the programmes clearly listed on our website? This is difficult to understand? Are you sure you are ready to start uni?

Related question:

So if I don’t complete all courses what happens then?

..you are not guaranteed admission..? Are you under the impression we’re some sort of talking buddies? Because it seems to me you’re just desperately trying to keep the conversation going.

Exchanges like this, is not at all uncommon:

Can I change from the programme at your uni to a uni in Stockholm?

No, we have no such agreement for your programme. But if you study [this other programme], you could, because we do have an agreement.

Can’t I change to a different programme in Stockholm?

The only way for you to swap one programme for another is if we have an agreement. Which, as mentioned, we do not on this particular programme.

So there is no possiblity to study in Stockholm? You don’t have any colloboration with a Stockholm uni?

…what was I just saying? That doesn’t answer your question? Are you interested in actual studies at all? Or just living in Stockholm? Because you might want to reconsider the applying to uni business.

Actually, I got fed up with this one and told him in no uncertain terms he needed guidance and that’s provided by, well, our guidance counselors.

Why are there only 90 places on the programme?

OH well thank god you asked! Now that you asked, we’re immediately changing the number of places. I mean there is a practical reason for you to ask this question right? You’re not asking just to ask? You wouldn’t..do that..would you?

When will you let me know about accomodation?

…we’re a university and don’t have any dealings with accomodation of any type..? Sooo…never?

Can I take this course even if I don’t meet entry requirements?

Sure! We just have entry requirements for fun.

Also loved this one, which wasn’t from a student, but a professor:

Evaluation. 

The students want to know how to access the evaluation form for the summer course.

No signature, no Hej! no mention of what course. I applaud your skills in digital communication contratuwelldone! I for one, so keen to help you out.

I’m going to be out of the country when the course starts, so I won’t be able to attend the mandatory lectures, is that a problem?

You’ve booked vacation for when courses start..? You might want to consider counseling. Because this is clearly a subconscious effort to get out of your studies. Or at least a HUGE BIG SIGN you ain’t that interested.

…I obviously don’t answer the emails like this at all. But only because I know that it would piss people off and they’d come back. My goal is always to make people go away. (I admit, it’s a flawed goal, but I’m not cut out for providing any type service, OK?)

This is like one of the many circles of hell. Having to carry out tasks that serve litterally no pupose. And it never ends.

Planning what to wear

Monday

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A long sheer top from Monki, which my sister generously donated from out of her closet, my favorite 3/4 length Vila leggings (the wide waistband! the opaqueness!), a pink metallic choker from Primark, and Vagabond wedges. Pairing with NYX Liquid Suede in Soft Spoken. Red or pink eyeshadow? Not sure yet.

I love wearing pink with my bright red hair.

Tuesday

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Another pair of them leggings, I’ve got an army’s worth, wearing with an oversized V-neck tee from H&M in a petrol type color. Another color I think goes brilliant with my current hair color. I wear it back to front, because…why not? Or because low cut necklines isn’t my thing, unless it’s on the backside. Adding the biggest hoops, frilly choker and a pair of wedges I’ve had just about forever. May they last for years to come.

Black lipstick??

Wednesday

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Time for some shorts! My favorite type from H&M, again, I’ve got just about an army of them, all different colors (..although, I do have 2 of the black ones..), a floral top from Gina Tricot, which makes me hate Gina because it needs ironing, and shrank in the wash, but the pattern I am so in love with! A lace type choker, Mackintosh necklace and canvas platforms from ASOS. I’ll wear the shorts with some comfort waist, sheer leggings from H&M and the IsaDora Majestic Mauve lipstick.

Thursday

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Second pair of short, stripy 3/4 sleeve top, wee Primark cross shoulder bag and a dark red NYX Liquid Suede, pair of Vagabond sneakers. Any excuse for this bag. And yes, I always wear my shorts with sheer leggings, because my legs are pale, which would equal an outfit which just isn’t black enough. Can’t have that.

Friday

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Oh hell, let’s do more shorts while it’s still warm enough; pair with a striped vest from H&M, oversized plain black tee on top, paisley choker, yellow platforms and bag, because gawd I love the matching apparently.

Unless. Unless I rethink the yellow with the red hair. In which case this is an option:

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A favorite dress from Forever 21 in Berlin. It has to be the best Forever 21? It’s the only Forever 21 I’ve ever bought anything from. I’ll pair it with a long sheer cardigan, H&M leggings, and the usual choker + Mackintosh, eyeshadow curtsey of Sleek’s Vintage Romance.

And that’ll get me through the work week, leaving only the weekend and gym wear.

New bullet journal. Planner? …notebook?

As you probably know, I’ve been using this notebook to plan my life the past few months:

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I love how it ages, it’s gone nice and soft and it’s served me real well. Which is good, because I have another two just like it, only different colors. There’s only room for another few weeks in this one, so I thought it was about time to set up a new one.

This is the one:

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Blank pages, weird size slightly smaller than A4, from IKEA.

I’m changing things up slightly, but I’m keeping the first page, i.e. where I outline the weeks and the first + last date of each week. Like so:

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I also still need to track work hours, last time I dyed hair etc., and the future log is quite nifty.

 

To be honest, I don’t actually make use of my want and need list, but I’m not quite ready to give up on the idea.

 

I also like to use the notebook to track culture consumed:

 

My reading list for a quick overview of what I’ve read, and I like to note records released this year that I’ve at least given a listen. I’ll use it for a post completely about, or at least including, fave releases of the year when we get into December.

I used to list movies I’d watched, but I’ve decided to change it because a. I don’t watch a lot of movies, b. the majority of movies watched I’d seen before, and c. wouldn’t it be more fun to just list anything, clip, tv series or movie in a list with stupid comment? I think yes. So I’ve made a list for that. We’ll see how it works outs.

As for monthly trackers. They had their use at one point, but lately I find that I’m just filling them out, never going back to them or using them to create new habits, so for now, I’m going to not have any monthly trackers.

First three weekly spreads:

 

On the one hand, it would kind of neat if I could learn to draw, to decorate the spreads. On the other, I do like the simplicity.

Went a little overboard with the banners on that one spread. Yes well. I’ve done worse spreads in my life.

I have a lot of questions #5

Why do I keep mixing up Don Broco and Biffy Clyro? I am aware it makes no sense. But my brain refuses to catch up.

What band books ONE date in Sweden and has it be Grönalund!? (Is there such a thing as a venue phobia? There has to be. I clearly have it.) Why do the bands keep booking such unreasonable venues in Sweden???

How much heat protection should you be using?? Is it reasonable to use two different types at once?

Should I give up on the semi-permanent dye and start using permanent already?

Where can I get a hold of One Hundred Days: The Story of Architects’ Almost World Tour? It used to be on YouTube, now there’s only one with Russian voice over and, for obvious reasons, that cannot be watched. I’m more than happy to pay, but I can’t find it.

Do I. Have to. Work? Really? I feel unfit.

Where can I get more high top flatform sneakers/boots with laces?

Why do I keep thinking going to the UK in November is a stellar idea?

What the hell does one do with mandarin infused olive oil??

Can I trust Lush in Brighton to stock the Sleepy lotion in November, or should I order it? Swedish Lush seems to think that’s not a product we need; they have no idea just how wrong they are.

Can you be goth and not wear makeup? Seems like a contradiction to me.

Have actors ever seen a person perform a song in their lives? Most recent watch that made me wonder:

I mean what the hell is this and couldn’t anyone have given the poor dear some direction??

Isitfallyet!?!!?? I want to go back to the gym asap. Bored out of my mind with the walking and the home workouts.

Liebster Award #3 .Well. Sorta.

Lise has nominated me for the Liebster Award #3. Thanks love!

I have confession tho. This award business makes me feel…kinda old. I don’t really get it. I get the whole it’s a way to acknowledge blogs you like/follow, and I’m all for that. But it’s like, anything blog-related I don’t recognize from LiveJournal days, it’s just mystery to me.

Did I mention I’m old?

I just find myself asking questions. What do you mean award, who wins!? It doesn’t look like anyone wins, that can’t be right?? What happens if you don’t follow the rules, are you disqualified?? Why do you have to nominate SO MANY people?? What happens when a person is nominated repeatedly?? Who’s in charge of this ship???

Sometimes I wonder if this award business was created by a non-native speaker, not quite familiar with the definition of award. Or maybe someone who just didn’t care? (In which case, congratuwelldone!) Or maybe I’ve just proof-read one too many texts where you can never be too sure that the word used is actually the word that they mean…

I’ve gathered that no one is forcing you to do anything.

It’s my ship and I can do whatever the hell I like.

So here’s what I’m going to do:

I’m going to answer the questions because HELLO free prompts and I like typing + it’s possible this isn’t the busiest day at work ever.

If you had the opportunity to go to one place in the world and stay there forever, where would you go?

So here’s the thing. I’m madly in love with Glasgow. Might have mentioned it before. Once. Or twice. …a few more times…

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Glasgow. Scott street I think?

To me, it’s the perfect size city, you can walk just about everywhere, and there are some nice places to walk. By the river, parks, the cemetery, just around the city. It’s nice.

Also. All bands play in Glasgow. ALL. + Glasgow audience = the best one.

The selection of vegan places is brilliant. Brilliant! Even if it really only needs Stereo.

I also like the UK in general because being vegan in the UK is easier. It’s also easier to be an alcoholic. Which, I’m kinda undecided whether it’s better or not. I mean I like cheap drinks.

Ginger tea at the Willow Tea Rooms. I just. It’s something that just hits me sometimes. I just love me some ginger at the Willow. I think about it at random.

Museums are free! And there’s a few to go to. I miss having visit to the museum as a weekend activity.

It’s less cold than Sweden, though not hot. Which suits me perfectly. Sure it rains a lot, but do you get blizzards? You do not.

I love Glaswegian. I really do. I might not understand it quite as well as I’d like to, but that’s a minor problem.

There are a few things though. If I was staying forever, what would I be doing for a living? Because I lived outside of Glasgow. And I clearly moved back to Sweden because, as suspected, the job I had was not a keeper. I also suspect that there are few jobs in the UK that offer as much freedom as I currently have. I.e., there’s no dress code, hours are flexible, I have 31 days of paid vacation (35 when I turn 40), I can take time off pretty much any time at all, unions are strong, getting fired is quite difficult, they keep asking you what tasks you want (??), they basically don’t tell you what to do ever. Also, we don’t sell anything. I like it that the organization I work for isn’t trying to rip people off.

But if a decent place to live is provided for, and I don’t have to deal with the admin of life that’s so difficult to understand even in your own language and the country you were born in, then Glasgow.

If not, here is not bad.

What was your childhood dream?

I don’t think I had one? If we’re talking something beyond the My Little Pony castle? Which could be one reason why I seem to be lacking goal and direction in life.

What would be your “ride or die” make up?

Right now, this feels like a v. v. difficult question because I was just thinking about how I’m not overly impressed with the majority of products I’m currently using.

The ones I wouldn’t trade:

Concealer: No7 Instant Radiance Glow concealer
Powder: GOSH prime n’ set
Blush: NYX high definition blush in taupe. Equally important: Real Techniques sculpting brush for application.
Highlighter: Sleek’s Solstice palette.
Eyeshadow: If I could have just one, then H&M’s Sahara Dawn. But if choosing an entire palette, then the MUR Chocolate Vice, bottom row pink shades; current faves. Plus, I can actually bring this palette only when I travel; it has highlight that isn’t crap, the pinks can be used as blush, and there are colors that could be used as eyeliner if in a pinch. It’s got you covered!  makeup revolution chocolate vice
Lipstick: NYX Lip Lingerie in Corset. Perfect pale lip shade in my opinion. Also, necessary reapplication throughout the day; minimal.

I saw someone include perfume, can I include perfume? In that case, Body Shop’s Red Musk. Gawd I loves it.

Types of products I need, but not necessarily the exact one I am using:

Primer: GOSH anti-wrinkle. It is possible it’s gone bad, but it’s currently not doing exactly what I want it to. It’s starting to behave like Body Shop’s wonderblur primer. Didn’t like that one.
Foundation: Lumene matte foundation. Apparently, in the summer, it has some melting issues. Other than that we’ve gotten along fine.
Mascara: H&M Faux-To-Go. Oh I dunno…just seems there should be mascaras with better definition and more volume.
Eyeshadow primer: Urban Decay primer potion. Am I the only one who thinks this primer makes blending a struggle??
Setting spray: NYX matte finish. If my setting spray was better, then maybe my foundation wouldn’t melt? Or is that just wishful thinking?

I don’t need an eyebrow product, but to switch it up sometimes and actually wear brows, some pomade.

If you had your own make up line, what would it be called and which products would you include in it?

I’d team up with H&M, because not even in my dreams am I interested in anything but budget friendly, and it’d be called Antichrist. (Made to create looks inspired by Manson during the Antichrist Superstar area, obviously.)

It’d be a tiny line consisting of:

1 palette including both cheek products and eyeshadows (paper packaging, no mirror, perfect for travel). Colors: dark, red, plum, yellow, pink, slightly metallic finish (except for the yellow, it’d have to be matte), a highlighter that’s a dupe for the Makeup Revolution mono eyeshadow Base, and a taupe blush (matte obvs).

Mascara blacker than deep black (I’m sure it can be done), for sensitive eyes, making your lashes look like spider legs (maybe that would require falsies..? Oh what do I know about makeup really!)

An eyebrow kit consisting of concealer, tiny scissors and tweezers.

Liquid lipsticks in three sickly shades. E.g. pale cool neutral, taupe type shade, darker brown/purple type shade. Matte of course.

What kind of job do you have? Are you happy with it?

I have an office job. There are parts of it I like and there are parts I don’t like. I don’t like that I sometimes have to talk to arrogant students, and ditto uni staff. And sometimes I’m sent texts to proof that just make me want to die (strongly suspecting they’re google translations, trying to save texts like that, it’s mission impossible, desperation sets in and thusly a wish for death).

Bottom line: there are many worse jobs one could have. Not thrilled but not entirely hating it?

Is there anything you would have done differently about your blog if you had the chance to go back to the beginning?

Well no? If I regret something I could just delete it? I just regret that I didn’t start sooner.

What is your favorite season of the year and why?

Autumn! The light is good, colors are nice, it’s not too hot and not too cold.

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Autumn. Mmm.

What is your favorite tv series?

Buffy the Vampire Slayer!

..not quite on topic. But any excuse for this video…

Is there anyone who inspires you? Who and in what way?

I think we’ve established 90s Manson is my main makeup inspo. Very tangible inspiration.

Other than that.

Fanny Åström, Lady Dahmer and Maria Sveland inspire me with hope, and make me feel less bad about my angry bitter self. Not that I wouldn’t be without them, they’just make me feel less bad about it. As if I’m using a strategy on purpose.

It’s quite difficult to think of people who inspire you to actually do something. I’m mostly stuck in the admire stage.

 

Is there a flavor you just can’t stand?

Lavender. Lavender should not be in things you eat, it just shouldn’t.

Also floral teas. Who wants to drink flowers??

Oh, and orange flavored chocolate. Best stop now, this list might become v. v. long.

If your blog had a business card, what would your tagline say?

Here’s the thing; my blog would never have a business card because my blog is not interested in any type business. That, and it’s highly unmarketable.

Which is fortunate because taglines, JFC I sorely lack tagline skills.

Rather than tagging 11 people (because who would I tag?? I know not), I want to give you 11 topics I would love someone (anyone else thinking about Anberlin right now? No?) to write a post about:

  1. Your top 3 bands of all time; tell me all about it! And I mean all.
  2. 3 flawless albums; list and explain!
  3. Which feminist book do you want forced on everyone and why?
  4. Actually, I want to repeat Lise’s question What kind of job do you have? Do you like it? Title of post should obvs read either I fucking love my job, or I need to quit you babe.
  5. Top 3 gigs you’ve been to! (What!? I like lists and I’ve got a short attention span soooo…)
  6. Tell me about the most horrible diet you’ve ever been on!
  7. Menstrual story!?! Anything! First period, something related to your period, are you on board with the menstrual cups, ever bleed through anything, contraception because of bad periods—anything! Doesn’t have to be long. Mandatory soundtrack while writing: Into the Menstrual Night I Go.
  8. Tell me about something you think is greatly underrated!
  9. Explain your most recent playlist!
  10. A feminist analysis of [insert book/song/band/genre/WHATEVER here].
  11. A comprehensive list of all feminists you should be following on social media. Because obvious important.

Should a person be allowed to put together posts this level of messy?

Probably not.

Making life more difficult on purpose

Here’s one of the many things that makes me a bad vegan: I sometimes forget that when purchasing a new product, i.e. from previously unknown brand, you need to first check if they tests on animals.

I don’t always remember this.

Sometimes I’m in a panic and I’m going away and I need to bring a deodorant that takes up no space because only hand luggage, and it’s a liquid und so weiter!

Person in shop gives you a brilliant idea: get a cream deodorant, put in small travel container. Brilliant idea! Do I think further than that? I do not.

Proceeds to use product; falls in love.

Suddenly remember that I don’t know if it’s cruelty-free or not.

The brand is very unhelpfully called Bats.

Try finding any info about that and not just end up on pages about, well, bats.

Solution: turn the damn thing around!

Cederroth. That’s a name I’m familiar with. Creeping suspicion they test on animals.

Aaaand. The internet is not helpful as there are people saying it’s vegan, and there are people saying they include parts of pigs in their products.

Argh!

But apparently they’re owned by another company (Orkla) who tests on animals because they sell their products in China. Not cruelty-free then.

And, China, I am currently very angry with you. You’ve done so well and come so far when it comes to the environment, how are you still testing on animals???

I could ignore this. I sometimes do. I buy stuff from brands that are owned by companies that do test on animals. I’m starting to think that I might have to rethink this decision.

Well. I always knew that the day would come, I was just going to ease myself into it. Might be time.

So now, not only do I need a CF deodorant, it also has to be cream because I obsessed with cream.

So yea. Making my life more difficult, one day at a time.

Good news: Meow Meow Tweet seems to meet all my criteria, and it’s pretty, and it’s free from nasties.

Goddamn Orkla not only owns Bats, but also a gaggle of other products I’ve been using becuase they used to be CF and easy to come by (Grumme, LdB, Bliw, Salvequick).

So that’s. Great.

You know what I wonder. Since we have the warning labels on cigarettes, couldn’t we get them on products containing/tested on animals. INCLUDING PICTURES. In the name of transparency. Consumers have a right to know exactly what it is they’re buying, right?

Not that I’m entirely sure that it would work on people in general. I just listened to the radio (whyyyyy) where a very clever radio presenter argued that Peta was particularly stupid tweeting the following:

She argued that because EVERYONE (yes, she said everyone) thinks bacon is tasty, Peta was stupid for tweeting this.

…?

I have no hope for humanity. Literally none. We deserve whatever hell we get. All of it.

Soo…pigs deserve to die because EVERYONE likes the taste of bacon?

Uh-huh.

Excellent argument. Especially the everyone part.

I mean I get that it might be hard to give bacon up if you like bacon. And that’s a big IF. I have on good authority that there are meat eaters who do not like bacon, SO, even excluding those of us avoiding the decaying flesh… If there was ever a time where not all men! was appropriate, this is it.

But sure, there are people with a bacon habit making it difficult to give up. I get that.

What Peta is doing though, is they’re assuming you have empathy, and if they provide you with knowledge about where bacon comes from and what it does to your health and our planet you might change you mind.

The problem here is not that Peta is stupid, the problem is that they are under the faulty assumption that people eat bacon because they lack knowledge, not because they lack empathy and/or compassion. I’d like to think that too. However. People don’t have empathy, they don’t care and they don’t want to change. Clearly.

I get that too, that general mindset. What does it matter to me if we ruin the planet? I don’t have kids. Go right ahead, make life for future generations miserable. I’m sure they deserve it.

…still not getting why the pigs have to suffer because we’re a stupid race. Or well. I guess that is the very reason.

Kinda upset that this the radio presenter is paid by tax money, and that no one contradicted her stupidity and lack of knowledge in the least.

But then, tax money is wasted on plenty other things. Politicians in general being an excellent example.

So now I can’t ever listen to the radio again. Too upsetting. Because this presenter is on all (and unlike her, when I say all, I mean all) of the very few shows I’ve previously been able to stand. (It might be the case she was already annoying, and this was just the final straw.)

I dunno why I’m complaining about that really. Just means more Korn for me.

Current hair routine

I’ve been thinking. About my hair routine. As one does.

This is by no means a how-to, it’s merely an observation. And an ode to cold water. Cold water people!

While I’m not much of a minimalist in general, I feel my hair routine is almost there.

Hair wash every 3 days

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I use either a hydrating salon shampoo, or, my current fave, Maria Nila Soft, followed by a Maria Nila hair masque and/or the Maria Nila conditioner mixed with Lush’s Retread.

I mix the two conditioners because unfortunately, the Lush conditioner does nothing for me, but I do like the smell. And it seems stupid to just throw it away?

Do I have to justify not using more budget-friendly products? I feel I do. I also feel I can’t. What can I say, I’ve bought into the whole more expensive = better. I might be imagining things, it’s not as if I’ve done a study.

But do you know what I still find is far more important than ANY of this?

All of this is just cancelled out if I skip this one step:

COLD WATER RINSE

When washing the hair, finish by rinsing it in cold water. Well actually, I just wash my hair in cold water these days. I swear to you that it makes more of a difference than any choice of product. The question is, if I’ll stick it out in the winter too. I usually don’t.

Cold water is only topped by good genes. Which I don’t have. And PCO to boot. So. Yay?

Leave to dry

I rarely blow dry my hair. Which I use as an excuse to…

Straighten & volumize

Trade-off! Blow drier for straightener.

I do straighten my hair post washing. So twice a week then. I have this lovely GA.MA. straightener, it is the best ever.

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I also have a crappy (much newer) GA.MA. straightener. It’s pink. Not the reason it’s bad obvs. It feels like it gets caught up in your hair as you straighten it. Whereas this red/black version just goes smoothly through your hair.

And use a volume master. It is good, but absolutely vile to look at. Cleaning it, at this point, does not help.

For heat protection I use Maria Nila (well duh) and Lee Stafford. Did think the Lee Stafford was less than great initially, but now we get along just fine. Which is good; it smells divine. I’d wear it as a perfume for sure.

No dry shampoo, no styling products

I quit the dry shampoo when I started volumizing again, becaaauuuseee…volumizing keeps your hair feeling fairly clean, i.e. not oily, for a good number of days; it seemed redundant to do both.

But I do sometimes (often) wear it up. Because I see it as my mission in life to be inappropriate. As in be 35, wear hair as if you’re 5. Space buns, high pony, different half-ups, pig tails, braids…I do all of it.

I also wear a pony tail to bed. Reason: when I ovulate I get nightly sweats that get really bad if I wear my hair down. The body is just a goddamn mystery… And anyway. Makes the hair less flat + straightening lasts better.

Hair dye approx. once a month

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Manic Panic’s Vampire Red is my color of choice because a. vegan + cruelty free, and b. it’s a semi-permanent, could practically be considered a treatment, and c. you don’t have to bleach first. I mean you could, but you don’t have to.

Thought it was about time, you know, after 6 months of dying, to read up on the best way to do it. There’s plenty info out there if you can be bothered to look. Which, mostly, I can’t. Because I’m of the Instructions?! I don’t read the instructions! school of thought.

Anyway.

I’ve just got myself the amplified version of the Manic Panic Vampire Red + the tool kit, and carefully studied the wiki how-to.

Cutting?

Currently of the persuasion not a necessity. But then I want it long and grungy. So that I can swing it about as if I’m Jonathan Davis. (Too much Korn? There is no such thing!)

Sometimes I wonder just who I think I am. This is one such time.

I might give the hair the occasional trim. When brushing become an actual struggle. Then I might.

Speaking of which.

Detangling?

I go through periods where I think brushing is kind of overkill. But if I do, I use one of these two guys:

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Comb for when the hair is wet and I don’t want it to dry funny. The bamboo brush is highly underrated. I don’t know what you all are doing running around with your plastic brushes. I am never going back!

It is possible I’m imagining things, but it feels as if -any- plastic brush adds static electricity. That seems kind of counterproductive?

Current state of hair

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For being me: probably the best it’s been. Ever. Also the longest it’s been for ten years.

So now. I’m just waiting for it to go gray, forcing me to change the routine entirely because who knows how it’ll behave then??

But also. Can’t wait! Imagine all the pastels you’ll be able to throw at it and not bleach?!