July

There are no post I like to write as much as the end-of-month summaries/favorites. Also fave thing to read. (Except for feminist rants, there’s nothing quite like feminist rants.) If it was up to me, it’d be mandatory. Especially the this is the culture I’ve consumed this month part.

This is what I’ve been up to in July.

Listened to

In This Moment! Especially loved this cover of In the Air Tonight, been listening to on repeat repeat repeat, even if the album Ritual as a whole is well worth a listen.

How is Being as an Ocean’s Black & Blue not on Spotify??

One of these days, I’ll learn to love more than their singles. I hope.

I have been listening to Korn a fair bit, but 2 minutes of Fieldy’s biography put a dampener on my obsession. Good news: no longer have any urge what so ever to see this band play. N E V E R going to happen.

Am, however, sulking about having no plans in place to see Architects + Amity Affliction in Hungary on 15 August. I need more Amity in my life.

This remix of Linkin Park’s One More Light:

Should have been the original.

And oh, fave track off of the new Lana del Rey release has got to be 13 Beaches.

Slightly disappointed I’m not really in the mood for Lana because I want to love this record. But I don’t.

Penntricket! You know the feminist pod in Swedish which it makes absolutely no sense what so ever to write about in English? That one. Best episode since the one about hating men; an episode entirely on menstruation! Just missing one thing that they never mentioned: menstruation is a kinda nifty indication of your health. Clue read my mind and did a post on it here. Penntricket talked about menstruation as a life force—Clue compares it to having a pulse, which is closer to the mark I feel. Your menstruation can tell you a lot about your general health, which isn’t mentioned nearly enough. No instead we focus on weight as a measure of health. SIGH.

Watched

Friends from College. Netflix thought I might like it. Netflix was WRONG. Don’t waste your time on it. Really. Don’t.

One More Time with Feeling. There’s a little extra thing on the DVD about boredom where Nick Cave slags off Metallica and assures us it’s OK to be bored. It’s funny.

To the Bone. It’s on Netflix, about a girl with anorexia. I quite liked it. Ending was a bit weird tho.

If I was going to recommend you one short little video to watch from this month, I’d say give this one a watch:

It’s just nice to have someone, anyone at all, say that it’s OK to not do things sometimes. That it doesn’t mean you’re missing out on life, it just means you have other interests and/or priorities.

Vegan things

I started following Peta on Twitter. That would be another reason why I’m a bad vegan; I have not been following Peta.

It’s an excellent reminder if you ever feel you’re starting to lose track of why you’re vegan to begin with. It’s also, frequently, incredibly hard to have them in your feed. They like to be graphic. Multiple posts showing the maltreatment if animals every. single. day.

I used say I’d probably not be vegan for the rest of my life when asked, because I’ve been around long enough to know I change my mind a lot. But if you’d ask me right now the answer is YES. VEGAN. ALWAYS.

Coconut oil. I just remembered just how brilliant coconut oil is. Favorite uses: pancakes + popcorn. Oh the pancakes and popcorn wasted using other fats…

K*ckl*ng. Astrid & Aporna! I hate it when food brands do some vegan products and not all, it’s nonsensical and annoying. Astrid & Aporna is not one of them, they do all vegan. I’m currently loving the fake meat which they excel at, and k*ckl*ng is brilliant for a spicy coconut milk type sauce. Texture is so, so nice.

technically, water is vegan. So let’s stick it in this category; I’ve been loving elder flower water an awful lot. Unfortunately not good for the environment, but hey ho

Changes

Finally found the Twitter setting where you can turn off retweets. Finally! Means I can follow certain people (a.k.a. bitter old men, who are my age, by w/e) who seem to have a need to retweet their entire feed. I appreciate that you’re enthusiastic and all, but, kinda want to be able to see my own feed too, you know?

Still looking for a way to get other people’s likes out of my feed. It’s nice to see it every one in a while, but all of them? All the time? Please no?

It’s not looking good though. (Dear Twitter, HOW IS THIS EVEN A DEFAULT SETTING???) Think I might have found a setting which hides my own likes though? Just because I figure if it annoys me, it might annoy others. I might be a person who clicks the like button too frequently on Twitter. Possibly.

Changed blog layout. As one should every now and again, if for no other reason then so that you don’t forget how to.

Layout of my phone. Because I had to reset it. Because it kept insisting I had no space despite deleting apps + transferring data to my SD card like a crazy person and. it. was not. helping. Also, this comes with the perk of being forced to update all passwords. Supposedly good for you.

Also to be noted: I think it’s Spotify that’s taking up all the space. It says it’s saving to my SD card. But I’ve no reason to believe it. I.e., next phone will not a Sony. It lies to me.

Tried the ACO CC cream. It’s been a while since I tried a new makeup product, which is why this gets a special mention. That and I was quite excited. Not only because it’s been a while, but because the CC cream says it’s a day cream, primer and foundation all rolled into one. Sounds great no!?

I tried it for 2 reasons:

  1. I was out of day cream and wanted to try something new because I can’t quite decide what my skin is like at the moment. This one isn’t for a specific skin type, so that appealed to me.
  2. My current combination of products does not fare well in the heat so I just wanted something else.

It doesn’t exactly do everything it promises. And as far as CC creams go, I’ve had better. But it does work well enough as a replacement for day cream + primer, which reduces my routine by one step so I guess it could be worse.

Monthly menstrual report

I feel like the most regular person ever!?!

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If this keeps up, I will have to learn how to use a menstrual cup. (Please no? I’m old, I can’t be learning new things.)

Next month

Definitely not seeing Korn. Nor Amity or Architects.

Am getting my apartment photographed. Selling prep. Still don’t want to think about moving. I also need to prepare a list of all updates I’ve done since moving in, for tax reasons. Such fun!

I’m also going to start working for a research center. Should appreciate and look forward to. But I don’t.

Keep hoping someone will get me out of it.

In which I introduce a tag with a short rant

I’ve been roaming around WordPress to find new blogs to follow.

It ain’t going great.

I’m specifically looking for blogs written by people my age, because life advice from 20-somethings..it does get a bit frustrating when you’re no longer 20, and also blogs written by people with similar interests, and/or a more varied content.

Makeup is great and all, but I have other interests too.

Being even more specific…I need more blogs that rant on music related topics. Rant! I don’t want anything under the impression of being objective, no reviews or “let me tell you about this band” because BORING. I want to know about what music people consume, the how, what and when.

I would say I also need more feminist blogs. But there are too many types of feminism that I don’t agree with. Not to mention the ones I’ve stumbled on trying to explain the basics to others while trying to be not too extreme (WTF!? Be extreme or go away). Just makes me want to ram my head in the wall. VALERIE BRYSON, ANYONE?!?

Yes.

I’ll just stick with the feminists I follow on other platforms. Besides, you really only need fannyarsinoe in your life and you’re covered. (YES I’M A FANGIRL, can’t help it.)

What I did find, however, is a good music tag. Next best thing surely!?

I think so. Let’s go!

(Didn’t say where this one is from, thusly no credit.)

Which bands/artist do you own the most albums by?
If we’re talking about physical albums, then Nick Cave. Yes, I kept them when I decluttered. Einstürzende Neubauten is a close second, and only because they haven’t released as many albums. They’re the nicest ones in my collection though, paper casing. Just saying.

The Abattoir Blues/The Lyre of Orpheus casing tho, also not bad. A favorite track:


What was the last song you listened to?
Blood in My Mouth by Amity Affliction.

In my blog search, I also came across one blogger who complained about how Amity + In Flames (among others) had changed their sound, and not to the better, so I had to do a compare and contrast. Which is a fun little exercise I highly recommend.

Not sure why I felt compelled to, because the whole premise of the post was it is not as heavy thusly it is worse. SIGH. Yes because we all know heavy equals good. JFC.

In addition to which I don’t agree; neither Amity nor In Flames have become less heavy with each release. They sort of vary. Not that it matters! Because heavy doesn’t equal good.

Seems to me people are going to have learn to differentiate between heavy and a more chaotic sound.

Here’s what I’m thinking. There are bands that at the beginning of their career have ideas that they perhaps not quite have the skills to execute, which makes them more creative. This contributes to a more interesting and somewhat chaotic sound, sometimes mistaken for heavy/less accessible, which in turn means fewer people “get it” contributing to whoever does get it feeling that they’re just sooo cool.

It’s so boring I want to cry.

This song tho!


What’s in your CD player right now?

There’s a CD player in my car. If there is a CD in it it’s either All Our Gods Have Abandoned Us by Architects or Relief Through Release by Tura Satana.

If you have somehow managed to not listen to AOGHAU already, you really should give this one track a listen, promise you won’t regret it!


What was the last show you attended?
Architects
in June. They played C.A.N.C.E.R. Not their most accessible track I would say. You?


What was the greatest show you’ve been to?
This sort of assumes that there’s a great difference between shows. I just find that most shows I’ve been to lately, well I mean they’re carried out by competent people, you know? And I’m not overly impressed by people putting on too much of a show.

For example, if I compare the 3 Bring Me the Horizon gigs I’ve been to, I liked the first one the best, the one without all the screens and the arena-size venue. Because the setlist was better and I liked that they were lit from behind. It was a nice effect. I like simple things.

Track that fell off the setlist for the arena tour:


What was the worst show you’ve ever been to?

Erm. I could argue Being as An Ocean because I left after two songs, but I wasn’t there primarily to see Being as an Ocean so that’s a bit unfair. And the main reason for leaving was I was dead tired.

So I’m going to argue 30 Seconds to Mars mainly because:

  1. I still feel Jared is acting the part.
  2. Fine, invite people on stage, but don’t fucking spend 15 minutes picking the exact people to come up. It doesn’t make for a good show.
  3. Bringing out the acoustic guitar. Just nooooo. I’m not saying it’s bad per se, it’s just not my cup of tea.

When they started picking people out of the crowd I left because that’s just where I draw the line.

And anyway. They’d already played The Kill.

Absolutely not seeing them again. No matter how much I love The Kill.

What is the most musically involved you have ever been?
Let’s just say I haven’t been.


What show are you looking forward to?
Deaf Havana
! Brighton!

Also desperately hoping Stray from the Path will add Casey to their UK/Europe tour. It’s extremely unlikely, but my brain is all Capsize is on the bill! They played last time I saw Casey, so maybe!?!??

Yeayea, I’ve got a hangup.


What is your favorite band shirt?

Mmm. Either my Manson one or the Bring Me one.


What musician would you like to hang out with for a day?

I’m not sure I’d want that? What would we do? Go for vegan eats in Glasgow? OH I KNOW. Glasvegas’ Jonna. Because she hangs out in Glasgow. And is from Norrland. I.e. supercool.

And she plays the piano in addition to drums standing. I don’t know how you could be cooler than that?


Who is one musician or group you wish would make a comeback?

I don’t really listen a lot to any band that doesn’t exist right now. I mean there’s My Chemical Romance, but unlike the rest of the world, it’s not something I crave. Don’t get me wrong, I love them, but I don’t need them to make a comeback. There are other bands.

Also. I used to want Panik back. They’ve recently made a comeback of sorts. And. I’m not happy about it. It makes me sad.

Because. This:

I don’t understand it.


Who is one band/artist you’ve never seen live but always wanted to?

I’m going to have to say Nine Inch Nails, aren’t I?

Surely there will be a European tour eventually?


Name four or more flawless albums.

Actually flawless and in I wouldn’t skip a single song? Live Through This by Hole, Lost Forever // Lost Together by Architects and All Our Gods Have Abandoned Us by the same band and Deaf Havana’s All These Countless Nights.

Almost made the list: Relief Through Release by Tura Satana. That goddamn Nirvana cover, cannot stand it. Let the Ocean Take Me; the outro of Never Alone makes me cringe, ditto last track of Thrice’s To Everywhere Is To Be Nowhere.


How many concerts have you been to in total?
Not that many in my opinion. Can’t be bothered to count though.


Who have you seen the most live?

Architects. Five times. Which in my opinion isn’t that many. But it depends on your frame of reference I guess.

What is your favorite movie soundtrack?
Trouble Every Day by Tindersticks. It’s on this compilation:


What was your last musical ‘phase’ before you wisened up?
Before I fell into this black hole of post-hardcore type music (it’s what last.fm tells me I to listen to, OK?), I was listening to a lot of singer-songwriter type music, i.e. lots of Richard Hawley, Iain Morrisson, the National, Tindersticks, you know, nice music that doesn’t ask a lot of its listener. I still listen to it, just not as much.


What is your ‘guilty pleasure’ that you hate to admit liking?
I tend to only feel guilty about what ever I’m obsessively listening to at the time, i.e. I feel more guilty about the amount than the actual performer. Except for. I currently feel zero percent guilty that I’m listening to Amity as if there are no other bands.

Think we’ve established I do feel slightly guilty about listening to Korn though. Because they are not with the feminist agenda and I find that problematic.

I obviously tag hitherdither. Anyone else up for a rant about music? I’ll tag you!

How to kill your Korn obsession in 2 minutes flat

Maybe it’s an exaggeration to say that I’ve managed to kill my Korn obsession, but we’re definitely on a break.

How I did it?

Weeellll…Mr Bass Player, a.k.a. Fieldy, wrote a biography, Got the Life, and it’s on Storytel. My current book service of choice. Had to listen to it, didn’t I?

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I sort of expected it to be a painful listen. I sort of expected it to be down there with the Backyard Babies biography.

In the case of the Backyard Babies bio, it took me approx. two pages to decide I ain’t reading a book that cannot for the life of it imagine that maybe the reader could actually be female, and that maybe referring to women as objects is a bit outdated.

Got the Life is down there alright.

I don’t know much about anyone in Korn really. Vague knowledge of who’s in the band, that they make poor interviewees, one of them has found God, aaand..that’s pretty much the extent of it. Probably not the only reader who picks up the book knowing little and/or nothing.

So what is the first thing this Fieldy guy wants us to know about him?

He wants the reader to know how he beat up his girlfriend in a hotel room.

Sure, it’s honest, sure, he says he regrets it, sure, he’s a changed man.

Do I need to point out that I subscribe to the school of thought where people aren’t actually able to change? At best, a person could hope to become an improved version of themselves but an actual change? That’s pretty much not happening. I.e. me and the book, we don’t view the world the same way. At all. Moving on!

If he regretted it, and if he in fact has changed, wouldn’t the incident make him feel embarrassed, i.e. he’d hide it away in the text somewhere? Not flaunt it on the first page?

Also, the way he describes the incident, it isn’t just blind rage. It’s calculation. That’s nice.

I do not for the life of me understand why anyone would want to represent themselves this way.

OK maybe I do. But I don’t think he thought it through properly. Purely because, OMFG stereotypical masculinity, don’t let people know you’re that boring and retarded!?

Sure. Guy clearly didn’t actually -write- this himself, he told the story, someone else typed, and I can tell someone has also tried to straighten up the text. Not particularly successfully. For example. You can’t be sometimes referring to the singer in the band as Jon and sometimes Jonathan Davis. It’s inconsistent. And really weird. Just to name one very obvious example.

What I really wanted to get at is: publisher thought structuring the information in this way was a good idea? Many people were clearly involved and literally no one thought that maybe this is not a first impression you’d want to make?

It’s not even as if it’s a chronological story and they move from this point and forwards, no this is just one incident they apparently want focus on.

Obviously I’m not surprised it didn’t occur to anyone. Because patriarchy. Men get away with this shit. It’s just. I keep expecting us to have come further.

I’m not bitter. I am super bitter.

I could go on about how it’s also extremely boring to listen to a report on just how many drugs and drinks he’s done, about how he cheated but it was only one night stands (and that makes it…OK..?), details on his cars and how he used to consider it a status symbol but now it’s just a hobby (uh-huh, please tell me more, I’m so intrigued), and OH I must mention my favorite part:

He’s getting married. Describes his and his mates’ outfits as they enter the venue of the wedding, how he imagines everyone staring at them in fear.

A. Think your mind is playing tricks on you sir, that’s not fear, that’s oh dear, someone is in dire need of a stylist,
B. Let’s say it is fear. Why would you want that?? And if you do, at least have sense enough yo keep it to yourself! For your own sake.

I sometimes read bios as a way to get some sort of sense of the history of a band. I’ve listened to interviews more informative on the subject than this book. This is basically my understanding of Korn based on this book: they were famous from the start without much effort and they’re all misogynist pigs.

Oh yeah. And he’s responsible for Limp Bizkit. Guy’s truly evil. And not in a good way.

To be honest. I couldn’t listen the last 40 minutes of the book. Just couldn’t. He’s topping off a long history of misogyny and drug abuse with praising the bible. I couldn’t take any more. I see how the bible has appeal, if you’re a fan of patriarchy, which he clearly is. Also, it’s convenient if you like to not think for yourself. (I’m sure the bible can be used in different ways, but he seems to take it as some sort of manual of life, i.e. no thinking required.) Doesn’t mean I want to hear about it.

Why I didn’t stop listening to the damned thing sooner? It was on purpose. Because I want to not like Korn. I feel this book, as suspected, aptly demonstrates why that is something one shouldn’t want. Apparently I also like to torture myself. Speaking of which…

If you for unknown reasons find that you are in fact interested in this book. Maybe don’t listen to it. Because in addition to the general stupidity of this book, the reader is insufferable. His fake chuckling in particular. In particular, because nothing is actually funny; this is an incredibly sad story.

Really. You should just do yourself a favor and read Tête-à-tête: The Tumultuous Lives and Loves of Simone de Beauvoir and Jean-Paul Sartre rather than picking up this book. 

OR, if you’re short on time, you could listen to this interview with some guy in a band that I came across the other day. It’s not new, but there’s a bit in it that gives me just a tiny bit of hope the metal genre as a whole isn’t just a lost cause. From a feminist point of view obviously.

Just don’t listen to Memphis May Fire.

But then I don’t know why you would anyway.

Det var då ett jävla tjat om hopp

Självklart har vi favoriten Gone with the Wind och raden hope is a prison, men också Untitled av samma band Hope is a dangerous thing. Tydligen lider de av ett behov att definiera begreppet.

Deaf Havana vill ha mer hopp: I’m not a pessimist but sometimes hope is missed or missing.

Roddy Hart har däremot massor av hopp I have such high hopes for you. Lite av en anomali i den här samlingen.

Ingen är såklart lika besatt av hopp som Amity Affliction. I n g e n. De verkar också ha ett ambivalent förhållande till hopp.

I Farewell menar man att There’s no hope left for me. Fast i början av samma skiva, spår tre för att vara exakt, tyckte man däremot att There is hope in my eyes; there is hope in these words. 

Ja alltså egentligen. Så skulle man ju kunna göra en hel lång lista av bara Amity, det finns många MÅNGA exempel att ta av. Från hela deras produktion.

Perfekt uppsatsämne, om det nu är något man är intresserad av.

This has been a quick course in how to alienate any readers; suddenly and without warning switch language.

— END OF PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE POST —

Which, by the way, I think there are far to few of.

Students ask a lot of questions

Students. They like to ask us questions.

It’s making me miserable.

Can I study this off-campus programme off-campus?

??? That’s not self-explanatory ???

Can I apply to this course when the application is closed?

What kind of answer are you expecting..? YES! You seem an especially fabulous person we shall break all rules for you! Just you! Yes? Or you think that we have available places that we’re hiding? Becuase we don’t really want our courses full?

Why have you changed the selection criteria?

So if our selection criteria were different in 2013…then that makes a difference to your current application…?

How does guaranteed admission work?

This question is currently trending. We didn’t use to get lots and lots of questions about this. Aaand…it’s not self-explanatory? If we guarantee admission we garantee admission? You pass the courses and you’re guaranteed a place on one of the programmes clearly listed on our website? This is difficult to understand? Are you sure you are ready to start uni?

Related question:

So if I don’t complete all courses what happens then?

..you are not guaranteed admission..? Are you under the impression we’re some sort of talking buddies? Because it seems to me you’re just desperately trying to keep the conversation going.

Exchanges like this, is not at all uncommon:

Can I change from the programme at your uni to a uni in Stockholm?

No, we have no such agreement for your programme. But if you study [this other programme], you could, because we do have an agreement.

Can’t I change to a different programme in Stockholm?

The only way for you to swap one programme for another is if we have an agreement. Which, as mentioned, we do not on this particular programme.

So there is no possiblity to study in Stockholm? You don’t have any colloboration with a Stockholm uni?

…what was I just saying? That doesn’t answer your question? Are you interested in actual studies at all? Or just living in Stockholm? Because you might want to reconsider the applying to uni business.

Actually, I got fed up with this one and told him in no uncertain terms he needed guidance and that’s provided by, well, our guidance counselors.

Why are there only 90 places on the programme?

OH well thank god you asked! Now that you asked, we’re immediately changing the number of places. I mean there is a practical reason for you to ask this question right? You’re not asking just to ask? You wouldn’t..do that..would you?

When will you let me know about accomodation?

…we’re a university and don’t have any dealings with accomodation of any type..? Sooo…never?

Can I take this course even if I don’t meet entry requirements?

Sure! We just have entry requirements for fun.

Also loved this one, which wasn’t from a student, but a professor:

Evaluation. 

The students want to know how to access the evaluation form for the summer course.

No signature, no Hej! no mention of what course. I applaud your skills in digital communication contratuwelldone! I for one, so keen to help you out.

I’m going to be out of the country when the course starts, so I won’t be able to attend the mandatory lectures, is that a problem?

You’ve booked vacation for when courses start..? You might want to consider counseling. Because this is clearly a subconscious effort to get out of your studies. Or at least a HUGE BIG SIGN you ain’t that interested.

…I obviously don’t answer the emails like this at all. But only because I know that it would piss people off and they’d come back. My goal is always to make people go away. (I admit, it’s a flawed goal, but I’m not cut out for providing any type service, OK?)

This is like one of the many circles of hell. Having to carry out tasks that serve litterally no pupose. And it never ends.

Watching Queen of the Damned

I’ve seen Queen of the Damned before. Around when it came out, so 2002? I know that it’s terrible; but my new Korn obsession combined with knowing (being reminded of?) Jonathan Davis involvement in the soundtrack I had to give it another watch.

Besides, I used to love Anne Rice when I was younger; Queen of the Damned was my favorite of all her production. Maybe it’d be different this time?

….

No it wasn’t.

It was exactly the same. I usually like crappy movies (example: Blair Witch Project 2, I just think it’s way better than the first movie, clearly I have no taste); but this. What is this?

Here’s what I wonder;

Why are they trying to fit not just the one but two 400+ page novels into one hour and a half movie? Who thought this was a brilliant idea and why?? Despite the title, it’s in fact not based on Queen of the Damned only, but also the second book in the series The Vampire Lestat.

…far be it from me to say, but I do wonder who was in charge of casting. Was someone in charge? Did people bribe their way into the movie? There are literally no more than 2 good castings in this movie; Lena Olin who plays Maharet, and well, I might be biased, but I do buy Davis as the scalper.

And while we’re on the subject of Maharet; couldn’t they just have given her more space? Not only because not crap casting, but also because in the book this is quite an interesting characters. I recall her story as being one of my favorite stories in a book of all time. There’s a lovely section where she’s going to eat the brain and eyes as a part of burial ceremony. Not that that in itself is great, it’s gross. It’s just, it sticks with you.

Did nobody realize that the story in the movie is completely incomprehensible? What is the story even? Did they make it for those of us who’ve read the book(s) only, because there is no way to understand it unless you have.

Why did they have to focus on Lestat as rockstar? Why? It’s horrible. The world they paint is like when Jonathan in Buffy the Vampire Slayer casts a spell turning him into a James Bond type character in their world. Which only works because it is clear it is a spell and it is then broken. As a viewer, I cannot accept this world. It doesn’t make sense. And not because there are vampires. It lacks internal logic.

Akasha. Again, another favorite character from a book. I wanted to call a cat Akasha for the longest time. However. The Akasha in the movie is nothing like the Akasha in the book. Part of the problem is the casting.

In what world would someone who looks and acts like Stuart Townsend sound like Jonathan Davis?

Also. I much preferred Tom Cruise as Lestat. He was angry and raging. It was fun.

Maybe their mission was to ruin Queen of the Damned for all readers everywhere? If so, congratuwelldone!

This movie makes me sad.

Then again. I’ve only got myself to blame. Could have just watched Buffy instead. If I knew what was good for me, I would have.

Planning what to wear

Monday

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A long sheer top from Monki, which my sister generously donated from out of her closet, my favorite 3/4 length Vila leggings (the wide waistband! the opaqueness!), a pink metallic choker from Primark, and Vagabond wedges. Pairing with NYX Liquid Suede in Soft Spoken. Red or pink eyeshadow? Not sure yet.

I love wearing pink with my bright red hair.

Tuesday

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Another pair of them leggings, I’ve got an army’s worth, wearing with an oversized V-neck tee from H&M in a petrol type color. Another color I think goes brilliant with my current hair color. I wear it back to front, because…why not? Or because low cut necklines isn’t my thing, unless it’s on the backside. Adding the biggest hoops, frilly choker and a pair of wedges I’ve had just about forever. May they last for years to come.

Black lipstick??

Wednesday

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Time for some shorts! My favorite type from H&M, again, I’ve got just about an army of them, all different colors (..although, I do have 2 of the black ones..), a floral top from Gina Tricot, which makes me hate Gina because it needs ironing, and shrank in the wash, but the pattern I am so in love with! A lace type choker, Mackintosh necklace and canvas platforms from ASOS. I’ll wear the shorts with some comfort waist, sheer leggings from H&M and the IsaDora Majestic Mauve lipstick.

Thursday

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Second pair of short, stripy 3/4 sleeve top, wee Primark cross shoulder bag and a dark red NYX Liquid Suede, pair of Vagabond sneakers. Any excuse for this bag. And yes, I always wear my shorts with sheer leggings, because my legs are pale, which would equal an outfit which just isn’t black enough. Can’t have that.

Friday

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Oh hell, let’s do more shorts while it’s still warm enough; pair with a striped vest from H&M, oversized plain black tee on top, paisley choker, yellow platforms and bag, because gawd I love the matching apparently.

Unless. Unless I rethink the yellow with the red hair. In which case this is an option:

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A favorite dress from Forever 21 in Berlin. It has to be the best Forever 21? It’s the only Forever 21 I’ve ever bought anything from. I’ll pair it with a long sheer cardigan, H&M leggings, and the usual choker + Mackintosh, eyeshadow curtsey of Sleek’s Vintage Romance.

And that’ll get me through the work week, leaving only the weekend and gym wear.

New bullet journal. Planner? …notebook?

As you probably know, I’ve been using this notebook to plan my life the past few months:

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I love how it ages, it’s gone nice and soft and it’s served me real well. Which is good, because I have another two just like it, only different colors. There’s only room for another few weeks in this one, so I thought it was about time to set up a new one.

This is the one:

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Blank pages, weird size slightly smaller than A4, from IKEA.

I’m changing things up slightly, but I’m keeping the first page, i.e. where I outline the weeks and the first + last date of each week. Like so:

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I also still need to track work hours, last time I dyed hair etc., and the future log is quite nifty.

 

To be honest, I don’t actually make use of my want and need list, but I’m not quite ready to give up on the idea.

 

I also like to use the notebook to track culture consumed:

 

My reading list for a quick overview of what I’ve read, and I like to note records released this year that I’ve at least given a listen. I’ll use it for a post completely about, or at least including, fave releases of the year when we get into December.

I used to list movies I’d watched, but I’ve decided to change it because a. I don’t watch a lot of movies, b. the majority of movies watched I’d seen before, and c. wouldn’t it be more fun to just list anything, clip, tv series or movie in a list with stupid comment? I think yes. So I’ve made a list for that. We’ll see how it works outs.

As for monthly trackers. They had their use at one point, but lately I find that I’m just filling them out, never going back to them or using them to create new habits, so for now, I’m going to not have any monthly trackers.

First three weekly spreads:

 

On the one hand, it would kind of neat if I could learn to draw, to decorate the spreads. On the other, I do like the simplicity.

Went a little overboard with the banners on that one spread. Yes well. I’ve done worse spreads in my life.

The struggles of an introvert

When you are a social retard and spend most of your time trying to work your life so that you’ll have as few IRL encounters with people as humanly possible, as any social situation always and without fail will make you feel, well, retarded, going to a gig is not a straight-forward process.

It has to be carefully researched, to make sure that it will be worthwhile braving crowds of people. You can’t just go because you like the band.

Heavens no.

Currently trying to figure out if I can/should/want to see Korn. Listening habits suggest attendance is mandatory:

There is no such thing as too much Korn

…but a number of other factors also need to be considered.

Can I have time off work? This includes would I call in sick for this band? Because I’m in the habit of making all arrangements and then asking for time off.

The times I’ve not gone on account of being unable to have time off are v. v. few.

I missed out on Amity Affliction in Gothenburg last year because work was making me go to Finland on a goddamn boat. But then they played a second date in Sweden later the same year, which I’ve mentioned going to here. So I can’t actually complain.

As for Korn, conveniently enough, they’re in Sweden during my summer holidays. So I already have time off. Perfect?

Where are they even playing? Now this is frequently where I find an excuse not to go. I strongly dislike most venues/cities.

This works in two ways; is it important enough for me to see this band live that I’m willing to overlook the poor choice of venue in addition to being in close proximity to people?

But sometimes, only somtimes, the venue itself is a reason to go. We’re talking about the classics. For example. If Korn were playing Barrowland Ballroom (in Glasgow obvs.), I’d have to go. (Where they did play this tour: SSE Hydro in Glasgow. Which was before I developed this obsession, i.e. was never an option.)

Where are they playing in August? Grönalund in Stockholm. Yea, that’s an amusement park. Venues don’t really get any worse than that. And, as I might have mentioned before, once, twice, fifty eleven times, I’m not a fan of Stockholm.

Bonus: you can’t get tickets in advance. If you want to go, get there early early early, stand in line as if it’s 1992. Not sure it’s something I do? I want to argue I’m too old, but if so, I was –always– too old for that.

Cost cost cost? This isn’t such a big deal, because when you travel to see the band the ticket is usually a minor cost. However, stupid choice of venue + 800 SEK ticket, that’s a NO in the majority of cases. Nick Cave + the Globe + 800 SEK tickets = No. For example.

The one thing that is good about Korn playing Grönalund: you only pay admission to the park. I.e. practically for free.

Worth noting: Elton John recently played Grönan. Chaos ensued, people complained about not being able to get in. Oh gee, what a surprise, who could have seen that coming???

I’ve no idea if Korn are as popular as Elton John in Sweden. I want to say no, because the heavy type of music doesn’t seem to be particularly popular in Sweden right now. But WHO KNOWS? It’s not as if they play anything even similar on the radio, which could have been some sort of indication.

What are they even playing? I like to check setlists. Some people like the surprise; I like to know that this particular setup of men are secure enough in themselves to not feel forced to be old-school and demonstrate that they’re much heavier than their latest release. As if there’s an equal sign between heavy and good. I’m not saying the opposite is true either. Just play what you’ve just created, ‘s all. Maybe with a few hits thrown in for good measure, that should do it.

In the case of Korn. At most, 4 songs from their latest release (depends if they’re doing festival or regular show setlist). None from The Paradigm Shift. I’m not surprised, just not happy about it.

As a whole, I find their current setlist confusing. But then I don’t fall into the true fan category. Nor the I’m going for the nostalgia category. I fall into the HI I’m new here category. And they’re clearly targeting the first two categories. Newbies need not bother, that’s what the setlist reads like.

I don’t understand this strategy at all. All, and I mean all, bands I’ve been watching lately play their new material for the main part. Way more than 4 measly songs. I guess Korn didn’t get the memo?

What are the gigs like? For obvious reasons, I will also watch clips or entire shows on YouTube. This is to avoid singers that make for a painful live experience (Manson), too metal (In Flames), put on too much of a show (In This Moment)—I’m not saying it’s bad, it’s just personal preference. Which is why there are quite a few bands I love but would never go see live. (…even if I have seen 2 of the 3 mentioned. But I won’t do it again! Probably.)

Now Korn. Not exactly intriguied. But also not annoyed. It is quite possible I would like it. I see potential. Not sure that’s enough of a reason though.

Deaf Havana, which I’ve just booked, was by comparison a far easier decision for the following reasons:

Brighton + Concorde 2! Sure, would have preferred Glasgow, but far better than Stockholm.
Reason to take time off from work in November!
Tickets under £20! In my opinion, basically a steal. I’ll have to buy some merch just to make sure they won’t starve.
Setlist: full of All These Countless Nights!

Do I need more reasons?

How about this one: I predict that by the end of the year All These Countless Nights will be on my best records of the year list.

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One tiny but: just who the hell goes to the UK in November? Flight providers have pretty much decided no one; trying to find ways to get there and back required some assembly.

As for Korn, I’m going to have to realize it’s not meant to be. It’s too late.

Set obsession

There’s a new-ish feature on last.fm. Set obsession.

If you click the button Set obsession, last.fm will suggest a few tracks you might currently be obsessed with, but really, you can set it to anything.

Looks like this:

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I haven’t dared used this button because it feels like jinxing yourself. As in, you’ve found a track you love, set obsession and then you’ll just lose interest.

I’d say that’s not a desired outcome.

But if I dared use it, I’d set it to the following:

Korn; Love & Meth. If I start typing Love into the Spotify search box, it’ll give me Love & Meth immediately. So jaa.. I love the line Give me a reason ’cause I got nothing to gain, the way it’s sung and its hopelessness. Love me a good pessimistic song I do.

Also. I love Jonathan’s growling on this record. One of many reasons I think this record is underrated.

Deaf Havana; Pensacola, 2013. Might be the word (yeayea, name) itself. Pensacola. There is something so satisfying the in the pronounciation of this word.

It’s been a minute since I was as obsessed with a song as I was with BMTH’s Throne. But if Being As an Ocean’s Black & Blue was on Spotify, it’d be a strong contender:

 

Being picky, you could say that if you’re actually obsessed with a track, you should see it in your top tracks list, so the feature really is quite unnecessary. But I dunno. Maybe most people don’t use last.fm to the extent I do.

EDIT.

That being said. I just discovered Taylor Swift is now on Spotify (again?). Have been listening to Out of the Woods for the past hour or so. That’s. Not obsessive. At all.

I can’t stop. Help.